Love is a dangerous Feeling. It can be a weapon or a poison, I just didn't know which was ours.
"Why the hell won't you tell me your name, just your name." I begged.
"We might have spent all this time together, but you are pretty much a stranger to me. I'm the only one who talks about my life to you, and all you do is listen not once divulging any information about yourself does that sound fair. Its that how this love story is going to be? I want to stop calling you Scar. It makes me feel like.. Like I am just like everyone else who doesn't know you..!" I half screamed.
My heart was beating so fast against my chest, I could hear it in my ears. My blood was boiling, it was as if all my veins were aflame.
"Mira.. All I want is for you to be safe..." Scar said softly.
"Don't pull that card on me. I am not stupid." I cut him off. I moved towards the gate and stood by it.
I didn't recognize my own heart beat, it felt like my heart didn't belong to me anymore, like I had given it away. and I didn't realise I was crying again. How pathetic. I was really weak.
He made me weak.
"Mira please just listen to me."
"There is nothing to listen to. I survived everything, all the torture because of this moment, the moment where I hoped that you would tell me your name. When I could call it, and feel it. The moment where I would finally feel like I know you. I don't want you to be a stranger to me anymore. I don't want to love a stranger."
"Mira, I am not a stranger." Scar countered, with a strained hoarse voice.
"Are you going to tell me your name?" Are you? yes or no?" I asked in between sobs, my voice firm.
"Mira please listen to me I have to protect you."
"From who? Ken. He is in jail."
"No from myself." He sighed.
I pressed my hand on my forehead and hissed. "For the love of God Scar, Don't make me wake my neighbors. If you are not going to tell me your name leave! Ken has been arrested you can stop playing watchdog."
"Mira please don't say that. Please..." He trailed off.
I was asking only for his name. Just his name. Why won't he tell me?
"Everyone knows you as scar, no one knows anything else about you because you are a stranger to them. So guess what, I know nothing about you too meaning I'm a stranger to you. I don't even know your name I'm stuck with the stupid name the world has given you, the name my stupid street people gave to you." I was getting more and more upset with every word I spoke.
"Mira you are not a stranger to me you are the one I love..that..i..I belong to you." He started walking towards me and I took a step back almost falling down the pavement, but he held onto my waist stopping me from falling.
I started breathing heavily as my eyes locked with his. His lips were so close to mine
I, I had to push him away.
"I can't own something I do not know." I exhaled, trying to catch my breath. "Something I don't even know its name.. Som.." I placed my hand on my chest and inhaled deeply, it felt as if my lungs were failing.
"Mira!" Scar called. He tried to touch me, but I wriggled myself out of his hands and moved to the side.
I cleaned my face with the back of my palms.
"You promised, you said when all this is over that you will tell me your name. You fucking promised. Did you or did you not promise me?"
"I did. I swear I was going to I jus.." He ran his hands over his head, holding the wall for a brief moment, a brief Moment that was enough to have me going mad. For a moment there I thought he was going to hit it. I closed my eyes as I tried to swallow my tears. I had never been more thankful to my neighbors for their generator, the Noise was a constant reminder of reality.
"Then what the hell is wrong with you?" He turned to face me and I was torn between hugging him and hitting him. I needed to release all this pent up emotions, I was feeling inside me.