Athena
Five days.
It had been five days since he'd gone on his supposed business trip which was more likely a false excuse he attempted to put in front of everyone, or may I say himself, only so that he could hide from the fact that he was running away from me and the bitter truth that scared him the most. This entire situation was the toughest I had ever dealt with, the distance he intentionally set between us hurt.
I was drowning in the tormenting bottomless denial that Sebastian told Celine that my sight disgusted him....
But what if Celine wasn't lying? Her confidence said something else, not even the nearest bit of hesitance was there on her face when she stated those things as if they were facts.
No, Sebastian couldn't have said that. The man who denied to give Celine any right over me since the first day he'd bought me when he was fully suppressed under the effects of his curse, could never tell her something like that.
I was dying to talk to him but at the same time, I did not have the mere courage to just dial his number and call him because. Needless to say, I was afraid of what storm was waiting for me and if I was going to make it out of it or just get eliminated within it.
My questions were loud and clear but only Sebastian had the answers to them but he was nothing but reluctant to solve this dilemma. God knew what was he doing, or if the thought of me have crossed his mind even for once. Perhaps, he did not bother to think about me at all and found a new distraction in the form of some beautiful, stunning woman out there.
A very familiar strange feeling meandered in my gut and my thoughts fell into a clutter. My heart was beating fast, the feeling was uncomfortable and stressful. No matter how much I tried, calmness is the last thing that was anywhere near me. My helplessness in this situation, they want to talk to Sebastian yet not being able to do so only told me again and again how weak I was.
Celine's laughter and words were resounding in my ears for the past four days and even today, I could see no option for me to evade this torture. I was falling apart into pieces and what made it worse was— This was exactly what Sebastian wanted once he succeeded, he'd be able to wipe off every trace of hope from our lives and this blessed bond between us.
My head was spinning, and my lack of energy was taking a toll on me; I didn't know whether it was the stress or something I was far from figuring out was responsible for it, nonetheless, I wanted to get right of this awful feeling.
My mind was urging me to stop fighting and act selfishly. It was constantly telling me to let go of the man who has only been the reason for my pain ever since the day he stepped into my life like a storm and left everything at sevens and sixes. With every breath I take, my mind pushed the flashbacks at the shore— Every memory that held another reason for me to hate Sebastian. But amidst this chaos, my heart reminded me of the pain he had gone through but never let anyone see through the surface. My heart reminded me of the truth that he, himself had no idea of what he'd become no matter how much he tried to make it seem that everything he did was in his right mind.
He was more damaged than I but that doesn't give him the right to break me till all my paths around me get closed, does it? He wanted to snatch all my hopes away, and even though it was scary to admit but he was just a few steps away from succeeding in his intentions.
"Please tell me what to do, Moon goddess," I buried my head into my palms, heaving out a weary sigh, "I don't want to give up, but I also don't see any other options left."
The darker the night grew, the harder it became for me to stay at the very least, collected and still in my place. It felt like there was a tsunami waiting for me that was ready to crash into me within any second, and the peril of it happening was what could be held responsible for my lack of sleep and stability.
I was growing anxious; Unable to process my thoughts and emotions but only sensing them toss and turn everything from within.
Suddenly my stomach twisted, and the awful feeling crawled up my throat and mouth like spiders. My hand flew to cover my mouth and hurriedly removing the blanket from my body I took off into the bathroom.
And as expected I threw up and why? I had been trying to figure it out for the past three days. Though I firmly believe that my tendency to overthink nowadays was the reason behind my sickness, however, this nausea, fatigue and weird lack of appetite were making this crisis very complex to me, which went beyond the periphery of my understanding.
"Athena..." Sarah's voice from the room came floating in my ears.
"I'm in the bathroo—" I couldn't finish my sentence as my gut twisted, forcing me to throw up nearly everything inside of me except for my organs, thankfully they got saved.
Apparently, hearing my troubled breathing and obviously violent sound of vomiting, Sarah rushed inside the bathroom. Worried and startled.
"Athena..." She rushed to me and kneeled beside me, as she held my hair back while I threw up, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, it's just kinda regular nowadays." I sighed as the twisting feeling in my stomach finally stopped, telling me that this session of torture has finally come to an end I was waiting for.
"What do you mean? How long this has been going on?" She asked, as she helped me to get on my feet and head to the basin.
I washed my face with the cold water, deep down wishing that my heart would have turned as cold as it so that this pain would fade away as well but if only all wishes could come true!
"Three, well...actually four days," I breathed out, "God knows what is happening. I miraculously throw up sometimes, I feel nauseous, the temperature of my body is always hot and sometimes it'd just cold as ice, and this fatigue does not make any sense as well. Maybe, I am just stressing too much."
It seemed like Sarah did not take this matter as lightly as I did. Her expression changed and a strange kind of dismay draped over her expression which unnerved me at some point.
"Come with me." She grabbed a gentle hold of my hand, led me outside the bathroom and made me sit on the bed.
"Sarah, what happened?" I asked, perpetual confusion taking over me.
Sighing she sat beside, hesitance hoofed in her orbs, "Can you tell me what other symptoms you are having?"
"Nothing much, Sarah. It's just that I don't have that much energy nowadays, I feel tired all the time and it seems like I'm losing my appetite," I took a second to remember what else weird events I'd faced during the past few days, "However, sometimes it also appears as if it has increased ten times than prior because I get just so hungry all of a sudden. My emotions are in a blunder, I feel sick to my stomach."
Sarah fell silent. Her unsettled gaze gave it away that she was thinking about something, or I could say deeply worrying about it and it was definitely about me.
"Hey, what are thinking about?" I took the cue to speak, "You don't need to worry. I think I'm having these difficulties because of stressing too much, it's nothing else. You know Sebastian's out of town and things are not quite right in place, don't get worried. I'll be fine very soon."
She did not really respond to me, nor did she look convinced by my reasons. However, it looked like she had quite a different opinion that she was hesitating to say.
"Athena, did you miss your period?" Soon as the final question left her mouth, my whole body froze in realization.
This was when I finally realized her main point of this whole conversation and the worst part....Yes. I missed my period.
It didn't take Sarah rocket science to get the message when my dreadful expression already made my answer vivid on my face; Judging by the dismay o her face that rose a few levels, it wasn't a secret anymore that she understood my response loud and clear.
"You need to take a pregnancy test to be sure." She spoke, giving my hand a gentle squeeze as if to comfort me when the newly rising turmoil had already started the devastating demolition.
I had to gather every drop of strength I had left within me before I finally got myself to nod in approval.
This test could change my destiny...and there's one thing for sure, I was not ready for it.