Athena
The past few hours were the most peaceful ones I had spent ever since I collided with Sebastian and he threw every upside down.
I did not know if Sebastian was going to be considerable enough to actually arrange my departure, however, I also did not think he loved me enough to attempt to stop me or create more hindrances than he already did. Hate? No that wasn't enough of a reason anymore— He has already done everything he could do just so he could make me believe that he indeed hated me and now, I truly believed that he was incapable of love and hatred was the only thing I would ever receive from a man like him no matter how much I tried, how many times I burned to bring the light to him and what sacrifices I made just so I could call him mine.
But not anymore.
Now that I knew I no longer had to keep fighting. I was free from my curse— The desperate ache to fix him and bring him back— A person I only got a few glimpses of.
I no longer had to cry over the filth that had washed away my innocence— Cry over the man who broke me solely for his own selfish reasons and did not give a fuck about how much I loved him.
For the first time in all these days of being under Sebastian's captive, the victim of his lethal curse that has made him venomous to everyone close to him, I finally felt free— It was a relief, as if a huge burden was wiped off of my life and certainly the burden was not Sebastian— It was the decision that I had made my obligation— To free him from his curse.
Today, Sebastian made it so much easier for me. Now I knew that this decision was the first and last choice that would lead me to the right path and would not give me a lifetime of regret; I had no reason to regret, nor did I have any reason to keep me waiting.
The feeling of this freedom was bodiless, it was like a light feathery touch that bloomed within my chest and spread all over, washing away the chances of remorse and any setback. But deep within this surreal sentiment that burst like a scintilla, twinkling from time to time, and emitting a beautiful warmth, there was a weird ache.
It wasn't as if I did not know the reason behind this ache, or I was trying to deny that deep down there was a weak part of me that was trying hard to digest the reality. This pain came out of place that was entirely out of my hands, and I didn't think of it nearly even wrong to just close my eyes and do nothing more than just breathe — I allowed myself to seek peace and decide not to carry the weight of these things. I was not going to let the negative thoughts sabotage me.
This new life was going to cost me my old one that has my old self stuck to it— My emotions, way of thinking, sense of direction, thoughts and decisions— But these things that I was losing were truly built for the old self that I no longer wanted to remain and I wanted to release myself from the heavy shackles of it and I was prepared for it because I wanted to see the real change.
Yes, it was going to sting me for a while, the absence of Sebastian's sight was going to bother my eyes for a while, Perhaps there were going to be times when I would want to live the once-broken dreams again, I'd try to find the hopes again but I knew I'd not drown into the same darkness again— Till the hopes would try to rise again and the dreams would make an attempt to mend themselves and appear in front of me even more beautiful than prior, I'd no longer be the same person anymore.
And there'd not be any emptiness in my life, any sense of void since thankfully, my life has already given a really beautiful reason— This soul growing inside of me was the only light for me in this dark place, whilst I'd destroyed myself trying to be the one for Sebastian, my child has entered my life as a reason for me to prioritize myself and break free from the toxic attachment and love that has only pushed me further into uncertainty.
I was going to be free to give my child a lovely life.
Once I leave, I'd never look back. Ever.
Another hour of waiting was about to pass and doubt began shrouding my mind— Was he not going to let me leave today? Surely I hadn't managed to figure out how his mind really worked and was he truly desired except for pain. But I really wished that he wouldn't try to stop me from leaving.
I truly wanted to escape from him regardless of what my heart told me or how I felt when diving deep into such emotions that I forbade myself to feel.
As I began to worry about the slim chances of change in Sebastian's decision, the door of the room opened.
My eyes shot to look at the doorway, somewhat expecting to see the man who was the reason behind all my miseries but I was met with a familiar face— Sarah walked inside the room, her gaze landed on me and the nervousness and shock were all I saw in it.
"Athena, Alpha has....." She stuttered, struggling to let out the words overcoming her shock, "He has arranged it."
She said what needed to be said— Not less, not more— It was all I wanted to hear and was waiting to hear.
He has actually arranged it....
I could leave.
I was going to leave....forever.
"Oh, that's great news you have given," I flashed her a forced smile and stood up, but suddenly my legs felt heavy as a stone which caused me to drop back on the surface of the couch.
Sarah rushed towards me in concern, "Are you okay?"
Was I okay? I did not have the answer to that.
"Yeah, I just feel a bit woozy perhaps because of excitement," I let out a chuckle that did nothing to cover up for my lie, "Don't worry about me."
It did not take Sarah a huge amount of struggle or close examination to read my face— She knew what I was going through but if only I could understand what it was, if only I could understand myself!
"It's okay— What you are doing is right. You deserve a better life, and a beautiful future and there's nothing wrong in wanting something for yourself in your life after being through hell while trying to mend someone else's," She grabbed my hand and gave it a comforting squeeze, "Leave all these behind, everything you have gone and everyone you have met— You have a new life waiting for you with open arms. Just go and live it to the full and give your baby the best you can."
"Thanks a lot, Sarah," I pulled her in a hug, "Thanks for everything. I'll never forget it, I promise."
"It's okay, I'm glad I could help you even though what I had done was actually the least of what I should have done. I'm sorry, I couldn't save you as a friend but you see on the brighter side you have learned how to fight your own battles and how to survive the cruel cycles of life but I am glad you made it through," She flashed me a soft smile, "I hope you could forgive me."
"You did everything you could, Sarah. Don't ever be harsh to yourself for that— You did not have any responsibilities towards me yet you did the things none has ever done for you and I'll forever be grateful for it," I said, "I don't know if we'll meet again or not but I will miss you."
"I will miss you too, Athena," She spoke, failing to blink her tears away as she stood up with me, "I wish you the best for your future and this new journey. Don't ever look back."
"I won't. Be assured, I don't have any reasons to do so." A soft sigh left my mouth on its own at the end.
I did not have any reason to look back, the reason himself has destroyed them with his cruel hands and harsh words that stabbed my heart like sharp daggers and ironically after all of this he just left me alone, unbothered when he watched me bloodied and wounded— The man who laughed at my pain and crushed my love like dirt underneath his shoes could never have a place in my life ever again.
"I'm glad, it's your time to be free. Emerge on this new journey with your held up high and don't allow anyone to snatch away the shine from your eyes— Remember, you have gone through the worst this life could show you and now there's nothing so powerful to exist in this world that has the capability to stop you." She smiled at me, wholeheartedly, "Be a storm—Fierce and limitless."