RYAN
After I took Herzl back home with all of his things, the poor child could not stop missing his mother. The thought of how sad she was kept him awake all night. He was a young child still a toddler and yet he was so smart and intelligent that he could see through most situations, no doubt he took after his mother.
I could no longer bear it seeing him like this, so I decided to take him to her office, hoping that it was going to cheer him up, but as we arrived there, Ciara had her tongue curled up against another man's, She no longer looked sad, as a matter of fact, she was having a good time and that shattered my heart.
Seeing my wife in the arms of another man broke my heart and yet there was nothing that I could do rather than take my poorson away from there.
"Daddy, has Mother found someone else, does it mean that she no longer wants us.
"Not at all son, your mother loves you, it is me that she does not want to be with, come let go because you have me now, and I promise to provide everything you want for you, is that alright"
He nodded his head, but I could tell that he was still not satisfied with the answer he got, his mother's betrayal had hit him like a blow.
CIARA
It broke my heart that my son had seen me in a situation like this. I don't know what might be going on in his head right now, but I need to see him and explain some certain things to him for a child of his age.
I powdered my face because I have been crying too much, my eyes were red and I did not want it to show, I picked up my black coat hung on the wall at my office and walked out of the office.
When I arrived at Ryan's house, I could hear voices speaking. I grabbed the door knob doorknob twist it open, but their voice and the words that accompanied it made me freeze right there.
"What are you going to do Son, again you have failed to bring yourwife back home just like you did not do it when she left."
"I know Mother, I do not want to bring up the past again because it hurts me so badly, but you know how badly I searched for Ciara when she left, I was ready to turn the world upside down just for her and yet she was out of my reach."
His words stung me deep in my heart so I had to remain calm, unnoticed and listen to the conversation between the mother and son hoping that it was going to give me some closure.
"I know son, you were so heartbroken when she left that you drank yourself to stupor for an entire week, and the same Anne who had broken your heart in the past, came back again and ripped you off of every of your wealth that you worked so hard for. Upon until today, it still baffles me how you were able to survive everything Anne did to you, that girl was cruel and never loved you even for a moment"
The old woman lamented, I could feel the pain in hervoice as she let out all the words hanging in her chest.
"I understand Mom, but it is all in the past now, good thing that it was Ciara who purchased my company when it went bankrupt else, I wouldn't have been able bear the pain of seeing someone else rip where they did not sole"
"You wouldn't have been able to retrieve back your company from her miserable aunt if you hadn't met Sheila that day"
"What do you mean mom?"
"If you had made it to Italy that day you booked a ticket, then perhaps you would have saved even a little crisp left ofthe company, but you immediately canceled the flight and appointment as soon as Sheila told you that Ciara was in a critical condition, you sacrificed so much for Ciara and I wish that you could let me tell it all to her, that way she would understand the debt of your love for her".
"Mother please, don't say a word to her, she is so filled with pain and want revenge because she thinks that I had come back to her life because of my son"
"If only she was thinking properly, then she will understand that there was no way you would have known that herzl was your son, you weren't even aware that she was pregnant when she left, how in the world were you suppose to know that you had a son."
She was filled with so much sadness lamenting to her son, although I had not listen to the previous conversation that brought about this, but I guessed that she suddenly brought this up when he told her that he met me with another man and I know that seeing me in such a state would hurt him badly, but the Ryan that I know is never going to give me a chance to explain myself.
"But despite everything, I am glad that I found out about Herzl. He has been a source of strength to me in this midst of all this chaos."
Both mother and son were silent, except for the sound of their sobbing that could be heard. My eyes filled up with tears and I did not want my presence to be noticed so I left.
I sped away and even when I arrived back at the office, I could not get down because I was suddenly consumed by guilt. All this year, I only thought about the pain that I felt and how I was going to take my revenge on Ryan for all the pain he caused me.
But never did I stop to think that perhaps this man was also hurting, he had lost everything and even when he got the opportunity to retrieve all he lost, he still missed that opportunity just so he could be with me at the time I needed most.
I clutched unto my chest tightly, my head tilted down to my steering, I was in so much pain, I felt stupid, I felt sad, I felt that this time I was the one who betrayed him, my heart was almost choking up on my tears and yet I could not stop it as I cried my heart out hoping that it will make the pain go away, but it didn't.