HIS LAP
It’s not a new question to me anymore whenever I am asked when I will fall in love again. When I was in New York, almost all of my close friends and colleagues asked me why I wasn’t entertaining everyone who has shown interest in me. I would always just reply, “I’m not looking for love right now.”
I wasn’t. I wasn’t ever looking for love. Love comes at the most unexpected time in the most unexpected manner.
I still remember knowing Kaisser Bennett vividly. I was looking for a tissue paper because my stomach is really in a row that fateful day. I almost yelled at the vending machine for tissue papers and sanitary napkins because I’d already wasted a lot of my coins but it doesn’t give me what I need.
“Do you need tissue?” His manly voice asked me from behind me. I could remember how he looked so worried and confused at the same time as I stared at him with my struggling face. It was so hard to hold it in when I needed to release it as soon as possible.
He didn’t wait for my answer and punched the vending machine beside me. I flinched at the impact of his punch on the machine but was awed when I saw six packs of tissues coming out of it! If I had known I needed to punch it, I would’ve done it soon enough and not needed help from someone else.
But I didn’t regret anything about knowing Kai. He was just everything I needed to make my life more meaningful. He was just everything I needed to make my life seem a little more colorful.
I wouldn’t trade knowing him for anything in the world. It was the most important thing that had happened in my life.
“I love you,” Kai whispered as he laid me on the bed, kissing me deeply as he hovered slowly on top of me.
I smiled through the kiss. I wanted to tell him how much I love him too but I don’t want to break this kiss. I don’t want his lips out of mine. I wanted to savor his kiss. I wanted to savor this moment slowly until I could memorize how he traces my lips, how he touches my body, how he takes care of me.
His hands traveled to my sides and cautiously caressed my oversensitive skin. I almost winced when I felt his touch on my bare skin, but something else is raging inside me. I want more. I wanted to do more.
His lips traveled to my jaw, leaving soft, feather-light kisses that I would want to keep for the rest of my life. A soft moan escaped my lips as his hand touched my sensitive breasts. He kneaded my hardened nipples and I couldn’t stop all the electrifying sensations raining inside me.
When he reached that one sensitive spot on my neck, I almost shouted in pleasure. I wrapped my arms around his neck, my fingers combing his hot, already-messy hair.
“Oh, Eunique…” he uttered as he unclasped my brassier, freeing my breasts.
He lifted my top and exposed my skin in the air. He immediately placed one nipple in his mouth biting and sucking it just fine as his other hand massaged and played with the other.
I gasped as he did the same with the other. “Kai…”
My breath is hitching. My heart is beating really fast. My mind is in haywire. The feeling is not new to me but everything seems like the first time.
It’s been years since I’ve been touched this way. It’s been years since Kai has touched me like this.
I could go insane right at this moment. His touches, his voice and his lips are the suspect.
His lips traveled down to my stomach until he reached the garter of my boxer shorts. He pulled it down together my panties.
It was so hard for me to breathe the moment I felt his lips touch my inner thigh. It’s that same electrifying feeling that I felt the first time but this time it’s more intense.
Is it because I am longing too much for him? Is it because I missed him too much?
“All these years, has someone else…” he paused as he touched my folds. He looked up to me before I could lift my head in frustration and longing. “…ever touched you?” he continued as he slid one finger inside me.
I could feel fire to my core. I could feel a thousand sensations forming from within in. I don’t know what these feelings are. But all I know is that I don’t want anything to stop right now. I want everything to last. I want everything to continue.
I could hear his heavy breathing as he slid another finger.
“Answer me, Eunique!” he commanded before thrusting inside me. “Please tell me I’m the only one who’s ever touched you this way…” his voice is almost pleading.
I nodded, couldn’t utter a single word. I feel so stuffed but I couldn’t let it all out because I like feeling this way. I love feeling all these emotions.
“Say it. I want to hear you say it.”
I wanted him to just kiss me and take me without questions because I couldn’t open my mouth and tell him that he’s the only one.
I’m so indulged and, fuck, I’m so close to reaching something.
“Please…” I don’t know how I managed to speak. I took a deep breath. “You’re the only one.” I hitched and I shivered on my release.
I saw him taking his clothes off before attacking my lips yet again. His hands roamed over my body as he owned every corner of my lips.
I touched his broad shoulders and felt his muscles flex at the mere contact. I’m happy to have gotten this kind of reaction from him once again.
“I love you.” I didn’t know how much relief I felt when I mumbled those words through the kiss.
I felt him smile as he kissed me deeply. His hard-on rested on my stomach as he kissed me senseless.
He wrapped my legs around his waist as he entered through me slowly. “This will hurt, Eunique. Don’t move,” he whispered as he stopped midway and watched for my reaction.
It hurts. Like a bitch, actually.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled against my lips before kissing me like he’s never kissed me before. I was so indulged into kissing him that I hadn’t even noticed that he’s entered all of his length inside me.
He buried his face on my neck, kissing that same spot that gives me chills over and over again. “I love you,” he whispered as he planted as soft kiss on my earlobe.
Oh, God! I love him, too. So much, in fact.
“I’m gonna move now. Slowly, Eunique. We’ll do it slowly,” he told me as I felt him move in and out of me.
I nodded and moaned his name as he thrusted deeper and deeper. This feeling of him inside me gives me the completeness I have been looking for all of my life.
I want to live this way. No inhibitions. No strict parents. No pressure. No Rachel Grey. Just me and Kai. Just us. Without a care in the world.
My heart beat faster and faster as I felt myself reaching something once again. My stomach is churning but I don’t want him to stop. I want him to make me reach heaven. I want him to make me reach it with him.
“I love you, Eunique,” Kai told me as we both reached our peaks. He kissed my forehead as he collapsed beside me, wrapping me into his warm arms.
I was breathing heavily as I buried my face on his chest. I want to do this again and again with him. I want us to be one. All the time.
He kissed my hair as his scent enveloped me. “Let’s stay like this for a while,” he whispered.
I nodded and closed my eyes as I placed my palms on his chest, feeling his beating hear. If we could only stay this way forever…
I tried to savor every moment with Kaisser Bennett in the days that came. In the office, he would always send me a message, or sometimes, he would find time to visit me. But today, it was different. He called me to his office.
I smiled at Serena as she motioned to Kai’s office door. I nodded at her and walked towards Kai’s door.
I knocked and heard his voice asking me to come in. I pushed his door and saw him sitting on his swivel while reading a report. He’s dressed in an Armani suit while his hair is in a slight mess, probably because of the numerous reports he had to review.
He lifted his gaze to me when he heard the door open and close. A smile immediately crept out of his lips as he threw the folder on his desk.
He stood up and walked towards me to pull me into a warm embrace. “I missed you,” he said as he nuzzled on my neck.
I smiled. “It’s just been hours since we last met,” I replied, chuckling at how clingy he is.
He tightened his embrace. “There has been a thousand seconds gone, honey. Of course, I would miss you,” he uttered as he planted a swift, soft kiss on my lips. “Have you eaten?”
I sheepishly smiled and shook my head.
He narrowed his eyes at me, then at the clock on his wall. “It’s fifteen past one,” he uttered.
I nodded. “I know,” I replied. “But I had a lot of interviews today so I skipped it.” I replied, earning a glare from him.
“Am I stressing you too much?” he asked as he held my hand and led me to his desk. He sat on the swivel and I stared at him.
He raised his brow and stared back.
I sighed and motioned to sit on the chair in front of his desk but he pulled me over his lap. “Kai!” I squealed. “What if someone sees?” I asked just now when I let him kiss me and hug me seconds ago.
Stupid me.
He chuckled and buried his face on the nook of my neck. “Trust me, no one will see us,” he spoke as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
“But you’re reading a report,” I frowned at him.
He smiled at me and reached for the report on the table. He continued to read the report even with me on his lip. “See? I can read just fine,” he said as he kissed my cheek. “Oh, wait,” he pressed something on the intercom.
“Serena?” he called. “Please get me and Miss James lunch from the cafeteria. Thanks.”
I looked at him with narrowed eyes. “You didn’t eat lunch, too?” I asked and he just smiled.