I was unable to sleep a wink last night. I mean who would be able to when their husband was fucking a girl who wouldn’t even try to keep her voice down as she screamed in pleasure. The pleasure that my husband was giving her in my home.
As I lay awake in my bed all night, a thousand and one emotions filtered through my mind as I listened to them.
I was pissed, jealous, angry, sad, frustrated all in one night and now I was more mentally drained than I was physically.
My pride was the only thing that kept me from flinging my covers back and marching towards his room to drag that slut by her hair and throw her out of my house, stark naked in the middle of the night but the thought that I may also be humiliated by my husband in front of her held me back.
I knew she was well aware that he was married since the news of our marriage was basically plastered all over the internet and yet there she was shamelessly yelling harder, faster, oh you’re so big throughout the night.
I was sure that everyone in this house heard her and now I wondered how I should face them this morning knowing that they heard my husband fuck someone else just opposite my room and it showed just how little respect he had for me.
Because I was awake, I heard his door open and shut twice but there was no way I could know who left the room and at what time.
Atticus’ car was still parked up front but he could have taken another car like he did a few times in the past week so that was not a guarantee he was still around.
It was past 10 am and I knew I could not hide out in my room forever but I was still trying to figure out what the concept of the day would be. Should I feign ignorance, be angry or just unbothered? It was a hard choice.
My stomach helped me make a decision as it rumbled loudly and I could swear I heard the echo around the room. I was so angry last night that I was unable to have dinner and now I was starving.
There was no way I was going to skip breakfast again just because I was angry. Food was too important to skip just because of fleeting emotions.
“Fuck the both of them. I am too hungry to care anymore” I muttered angrily when my stomach protested again and even louder this time.
I grabbed my robe and wrapped it around myself. I had not taken a bath yet and I was too lazy and hungry to take one now. Bathing could wait while I eat.
There was no sign of any staff lingering in the hallways like I was used to. We had about eight domestic staff who cleaned and did other chores around the mansion and two others who worked part-time in the kitchen but I was only close to Lily and Lorenzo so I didn’t know their names.
I shrugged it off, concluding that they may have decided to do their chores early so they could have enough time to themselves for the morning since they had done the same a handful of times already.
Imagine my surprise when I found them huddled around each other in front of the kitchen, whispering harshly among themselves and pointing towards the kitchen.
I was not surprised at all to see Lily in the middle of the group. I had come to terms with the fact that she was a gossip and she was always aware of everything that happened especially in the house.
They had yet to notice me but I didn’t mind, just that they were blocking the way to the kitchen. I cleared my throat and they all jumped back in shock.
They stared at me with wide eyes and it took a minute for them to register that I was standing there before they all scrambled away, heading towards different parts of the house.
I shook my head in amusement as I watched them all scramble away as though there was a fire on their tail. I made my way to the dining room, but Lily blocked my way as she scrambled to stand before me.
“What’s wrong? I am hungry so please let me eat first and you can tell me what you want to tell me later okay?” I went to walk around her but she blocked me again.
“Wait Hazel, why don’t you eat in the kitchen today? Lorenzo has something to discuss with you” I would have probably believed her if she hadn’t kept glancing nervously towards the dining and I was not a fool.
“I’m sure Lorenzo can discuss whatever it is he wants to discuss with me in the dining while I eat. Now please excuse me”
“Hazel please wait, I need to tell you something urgent okay? And I need to tell you somewhere nobody can hear it” She looked so close to tears and it was sweet she was trying to protect me but I can take care of myself.
“Lily, you don’t have to prevent me from seeing that another one of my husband’s hoes is eating in the dining room. I have made peace with it already so I should get used to seeing them around” I deserved an Oscar for sounding so calm when I was raging on the inside. I did not want to make peace with it, I wanted to skin the bitch alive.
Lily looked shocked that I knew what she was trying to do and I felt offended. I thought everyone was well aware of how smart I was. I may not be bookish smart but my instinct was always on point.
“You know?” she asked with wide eyes.
“Of course, I do, now move before my stomach monster eats me up” She gave me an embarrassed laugh and moved out of my way. I shook my head at how silly she looked.
I was a very good person or at least, I tried to be but these girls wouldn’t let me be a good person.
It was Déjà vu all over again and I would hate to be seen as a mad person but how can I not overreact in situations like this?
Even Lily gasped in disbelief when she leaned over my shoulders to see the reason why I halted my steps as soon as I stepped foot into the dining hall.
There she was, sitting on my seat at the dining table and taking photos as though she were in her father’s house and eating the food that had been set up for me and my husband.
I knew this because the plates were set the way they normally would and it was the meal I had requested Lorenzo to prepare yesterday.
Atticus’ plate was still clean so he had either not come down yet or left without eating which I doubted.
“Get out,” I told her as calmly as I could. It was too early to do anything other than be calm
“Excuse you?” she spoke back as she gave me the nasty eye.
“You are excused now get up from my seat and fuck off my dining table before I have you dragged out,” I told her calmly again and I had to thank my ancestors for giving me the will to be calm.
“And who are you to tell me to get out?” There was no way I was going to indulge her so early.
“Justin, please get her out of here. It’s nauseating to see such a sight so early, especially on an empty stomach” and just like I hoped, he popped out of nowhere.
I had gotten used to seeing him pop out of nowhere and it was just plain amazing how a huge guy like him could be so invisible.
“Ma’am please you need to go” She knew there was no way she would win against someone like Justin so she just huffed and picked up her belongings and walked angrily out of the dining hall.
She bumped into Atticus at the entrance and I saw her face light up with hope, thinking he would defend her from me.
I ignored them and signalled to the girls standing by the door to clear the mess she made so I could eat. I sat down in my chair and ignored them.
“Babe, she is kicking me out..” she whined and I just had to scoff at how stupid she looked and sounded clinging to him in front of me.
“I would appreciate it if you don’t bring your little sluts home. At least have some respect for your wife” I spat at him angrily. I hated the way he was letting her hold onto him and whine like a little bitch.
He looked at me puzzled, probably wondering what was wrong with me but he was the stupid one for thinking that I would allow him to do this anymore. He was my husband and I would not be sharing him, at least in this house, not that I could say it out loud.
I was expecting him to rebuke me or something but instead, he gave me a curt nod and I was surprised that he agreed so easily or was he just disregarding what I said or agreeing so that I wouldn’t say another word?
“What are you still doing here?” He asked the woman who had practically attached herself to him. He pulled himself away from her and I watched in great satisfaction as her jaw dropped in shock
“Why are you asking me that? I thought we had a connection last night” Her expressions were killer and I had to laugh. It was impossible to hold it in.
“Please go feel your connection somewhere that isn’t my house. Justin, please take her away” I don’t know why I laughed at my statement. It felt like I was getting her arrested.
When Justin took her away, Atticus was still standing at the doorway watching me like he was seeing me for the first time and it made me uncomfortable
“Are you going to eat or what?” I said angrily but he just walked out and left me alone staring at the spot where he had been.