He was standing in front of her door and with a soft push, he opened her door because it was unlocked. He stepped inside the room, which was engulfed with darkness and the only source of light was the dim table lamp which was present beside the bed and was on.
After wandering all over in that darkness, his restless eyes finally fell on his peace, who was present in her bed.
He walked towards her carefully and then looked at her whose body was curled up, her head was leaned against her teddy's shoulder which was present beside her. Her one arm was wrapped around her teddy bear and the other was placed on her abdomen where he saw her holding something.
Her eyes were closed. She was asleep but the table lamp beside the bed had made it possible for him to see those tears still rolling down from the corner of her eyes. Those tears and their stains on her slightly pink cheeks. She had cried herself to her sleep and even her closed eyes were still shedding tears . That painfully he had broken that beautiful innocuous doll.
Arzal suspired and then placed the tray of food he had brought for her on the table beside the bed because he knew she hadn't even eaten properly. He gazed at her tear stained cheeks which made his chest ache and then something caught his attention which really stabbed him harshly.
She was holding her and her brother's photo frame in her hand which was placed on her abdomen. They both were looking so happy in that picture. She was looking like she had her entire world in her arms.
She was right, he had really taken everything away from her in just some mere seconds. Gulit wasn't something he had ever felt after doing anything to anyone but right at that moment, her broken state was making him feel that feeling of guilt. In his selfish motives, he had really started ruining her but he couldn't help it. He wasn't capable of controlling his own emotions when it came to her and even after knowing that in the end, his vicious motives for her were going to wreck and taint her completely, he wasn't still not capable of letting her go away from him, not even for a moment , let alone forever.
Arzal bent down his head and tried to make her lay down comfortably on the bed. He tried to take that photo frame from her hold which made Seraphina immediately wake up from her sleep and then slowly opened her eyes.
In that darkness, her teary eyes became visible to those grey orbs of his which made her eyes fill with more tears. Seraphina clutched that photo frame more tightly and just silently gazed at him. All the tears which started rolling down from her cheeks made it clear for him how much he had hurted her. How much he had terrified her.
Not a single word came out from both of their mouths but their eyes didn't dare to leave each other until Seraphina noticed his gaze softening by watching her eyes, like her tears were really affecting him but why would it be when he himself had given her those tears?
Their gazes bored into each other's trances until Seraphina witnessed him leaning his face more close to her but neither she flinched , nor she got away, she just closed her eyes slowly and waited for him to engulf into his darkness but he halted in his action when he saw her to tightly shut her eyes.
Seraphina waited to feel his warm lips on her but it didn't happen, instead she felt his warm breathing tickling on her face which made her to slowly open her eyes again and then their gazes fastened with each other.
Their faces were only an inch apart from each other. Their breathing collided whereas their gazes were fixed on each other but still not a single word dared to come out from both of their sealed lips and broke that cavernous silence prevailing between them.
Continuously falling into her tears, her shimmering eyes continued to stare at him until Seraphina noticed a sudden kind of emotion started emerging into his eyes but before she could understand it, he pulled back and straightened his stature.
Seraphina clutched that photo frame more tightly whereas her eyes burnt up in more tears when she saw him turning around and straight walked towards the door to leave her alone, to endure that pain all alone.
Her blurry vision waited for him to step outside of that closed door but he stopped . She saw him halting before her door for a while and then noticed him clenching his fist vigorously.
She didn't know what he was feeling in that moment, what actually she was feeling in that moment ? She just knew that if he left her alone, then her already broken pieces of her being would be shattered more badly.
Her eyes waited for him to shatter the last ounce of her existence by leaving her alone but just in a blink of an eye, before she could process anything, Seraphina saw him dashing towards her and then without any prior warning or anything, she felt him crashing his warm lips against hers in urgency and pushed her back on the bed.
And right at that moment, she finally understood one thing very clearly, he wasn't the one who was tainting her but she was actually the one who needed to get tainted by him entirely, fully and in every possible way by him and only him.