Chapter 84 I hope so too

Rachel's POV

After crying in Kyle's hands for what seemed like hours I pulled away cleaning my tears with the back of my hands.

"I must look like a mess right now."I joked with a soft giggle. I had been crying for a long time, my eyes felt tired and heavy...They must be so puffy right now.

And my hair, I must really look like a mess.

Kyle stared at me seriously shaking his head. "You still look as beautiful as ever." He said seriously and I felt the change of atmosphere. I playfully hit his hand allowing myself the leisure of laughing.

"This is not funny." I said with a smile.

"I wasn't laughing." Kyle replied his voice as serious as ever.

My smile stiffened and I looked away.

If only I could reciprocate his feelings. He had always looked at me like that since highschool, but my heart was with David then, and now it was with Ethan... Even though the guy has just practically threw it to the floor and stamped on it.

I just poured my heart to a man I hadn't seen in over a year and the realization of the situation I was in was finally dawning on me.

I slowly got up from the couch holding my too hands together tightly. "Thank you for today, or was it yesterday." I said with a giggle.

It was pretty late, almost around midnight when I came here and I had been crying for hours, so it must be around the early hours of morning.

"Anytime, you know I'm always here for you." He said keeping his gaze on me.

That gaze... How I wish Ethan could look at me like that. I had felt it once, but that was it.

"I have to go now." I said glancing at the door.

Where are you going? I heard that your father had disowned you. If you don't have any place to stay..."

I shook my head interrupting him. I couldn't accept his help. That was how I accepted Ethan and this is where it brought me.

And about the disownment, with what just happened, I doubt it would last long.

"It's alright, I'm alright."

That was a lie... I was not alright, but I was going to be.

"I have somewhere to stay."

Another lie... I wasn't sure I had any place to stay anymore after what happened yesterday. I should have gotten out of Ethan's mansion and looked for a house for myself a long time ago.

"All I need is some sleep and I'll get over this."

I was a good actress, because everything that was coming out of my mouth right now were lies... Freaking lies.

Some sleep? Ha!

I would find it extremely impossible to fall asleep now, for the next few days infact, and if I was to sleep, it was because I cried myself to sleep.

And I'll get over this? Another ha!

David and Lana's betrayal was painful, how I got over it... That was only because of Ethan and Marina, but Ethan's betrayal? That one hurt even more.

But if there was one thing I wouldn't do was to kill myself... I already had a life going on for me now, even though it was because of him.

I looked down, brushing my tongue over my lower lip unconsciously before looking back up at Kyle who I noticed was staring at me, more like my lips.

I coughed softly and he darted his eyes away, the tip of his ears turning red. Then he stood up shoving his hands in his pockets.

" I'll drop you off then". He said and my eyes widened and I shook my hands in front of me in disagreement.

"No, there's no need for that I brought my... Well, a car." It was not mine.

And since I brought it, I would as well just return it back to the owner before completely going my own way.

"I won't ask you why you came to my bar, and I won't insist that I drop you off. I just hope you stay happy. I hope the next time we meet, you would be in a better state." He said seriously and I smiled unconsciously.

"I hope so too"

I didn't lie, I just hoped. That meant I should hope Kyle and I shouldn't meet again for a long time.

"Thanks again, bye." I murmured walking out through the door and down the stairs moving toward the garage.

The car was still there, and I couldn't leave it there. Plus I just told Kyle that I had my own ride, he could be looking down at me from that floor to length window and once he noticed that I didn't get out of here in a car, he might follow me and then find out that I had no where to go.

I got into the car and drove out of the bar, looking up at the huge bar as I left and I saw Kyle by the side of his huge window.

I was right, Kyle was looking down from his floor to length window at me, if I hadn't left with this car he would know I lied.

I sighed again realization where I was headed. To the house of the man who just betrayed me.

But could really be called a betrayal? We didn't sign a contract of any sorts and it was more or less a plutonic relationship between us, I was the one that crossed the boundary. But did it really have to be Lana?

Anyways I had nothing in his house, I'm only going there to drop off his car and I'll leave immediately. I told myself as I saw the entrance to his mansion.

I arrived at Ethan's mansion after stalling after an hour. When I was coming to the bar, I rushed out of the house driving as fast as possible just so I could meet him on time, but now I was drove no slower than a snail.

But no matter how slow I drove, I finally arrived at my destination.

"I'll just drop the car off in the garage and be on my way." I said aloud to myself, driving the car towards the underground garage.

After parking the car, I was about walking toward the gate when I laid my eyes on Ethan, and Victoria walking towards me.

"Rachel, where were you? I tried calling you several times but you were not answering and I was really worried." He shouted as soon as he was close to me, his voice laced with concern and worry, but wouldn't fall for that again.

"Now you know how it feels to have your calls ignored." I said with a smirk even though I had no idea he called me.

My phone was left in the car all night, and I wasn't really in the mood to check for missed calls.

"Ignored? I didn't... Whatever about yesterday night..."

"Save it." I interrupted raising my hand up to stop him from saying anything further.

What was he going to say? Make up some flimsy excuse?

" You don't have to explain anything to me. I ought to have known my place, but I crossed it last night and I'm sorry but Lana? " I asked in disbelief.

Despite seeing it with my own eyes, I still found it impossible to believe. If someone else would have told me, I would have said it was all part of the plan but last night... There were no cameras and I wasn't even supposed to be there, so it was definitely not my plan!

"Rachel you got to hear me out I didn't..."

"I said I don't want to hear it!" I shouted. " You and Lana played me for a fool and I have nobody to blame but myself. I had asked myself before, why was Ethan so nice to me when I was a pain in your ass back then..." I said with a small laugh. "But I convinced myself that he just wanted to help me, now I know I was really a fool"

"Rachel it's not..."

"I don't care, just let me leave the same way I came and don't ever show up in front of me again." I said blinking back the tears that has began forming in my eyes again.

I gave Victoria a small smile before walking pass the both of them. From now on, I had nothing to do with Ethan, apart from revenge.