Rachel's POV
Few hours ago
" Oh Rachel, what did you just do?" I cried out to myself gently slapping my face several times.
This was not what I wanted. Ok, it was what I wanted, but not like this. I was just too sad and mad and... Ethan was just there, and he looked at me so lovingly and his lips were right next to mine and...
Aish...
I'm not suppose to be thinking of that now!
I brushed my hair away from my face groaning softly.
" What does Ethan think of me now?"
He would think that I was just pushing myself to him because he was rich and handsome. Like I would think the same thing!
"Rachel why did you do that?" I cried again hitting my head on my hands.
Thankfully Ethan didn't follow me to the music room, if he did I would have no fucking clue how to face him.
Just when things were getting better between us.
I picked up the cup of tea which I had dropped on a table when I first came into the room and drank from it.
" It's cold".
It had turned cold and was no longer drinkable. I dropped it back down on the desk and stared ahead, staring into space.
" What was Ethan thinking right now?" I asked myself as I began walking around.
Maybe he was thinking that he had betrayed the woman he was in love with.
He had said he had a woman he loved twice to me before, the first was before we went on this trip and the second was the day after that Charity gala.
But it wasn't his fault, and neither was it mine. It was my darn mother...
" I can't call her that anymore". I muttered out loud.
It was Martha's fault. She just placed a lot of stuffs into my head that, that I just lost all manner of reasoning.
"But it's a little bit his fault though, looking at me with those beautiful blue eyes with so much concern and care..." I began reminiscing how he looked at me minutes ago and I sighed dreamily" that for a second I mistook it for love. " I said to myself at last.
I turned sharply when I heard the sound of the door opening.
" Ethan? " I called out but was disappointed when Victoria's worried face came through the door. She was holding another tray with a cup.
" Ms Rachel, I'm very sure the first cup of tea had gone cold, I made another one". She said stretching the tray towards me.
I pursed my lips so she would not see my disappointment and took the tray, placed it down and took the cup in my hands, taking a sip from it.
Where could Ethan be right now?
" Sir Wright went out after you left the room". Victoria said after a while, and I looked at her in shock.
How did she know what I was thinking?
She coughed awkwardly, looking down so she wouldn't see the embarrassment on my face. " Is that so". I said trying to sound not so interested, but curiosity was killing me.
Where did he go?
Why did he leave?
Was it because of the kiss?
"I'll just leave you Ms Rachel. Your clothes..." She pointed at my clothes and I looked at myself.
Shit. They were still wet and we're not clinging on to my body like a second skin.
Why did I not feel the cold?
' Maybe it's because your body is hot from all the embarrassment from initiating the kiss ' My inner subconscious answered and my cheeks turned red again.
"Thank you Victoria, I'll just go and change". I said to Victoria keeping my head down while taking another sip of the tea.
" Alright Ms Rachel, please call me if you need anything". Victoria said as she left the room.
My face squeezed in embarrassment after Victoria left.
What was wrong with me?
I was never this disorganized and disoriented, even back at England nothing really fazed me... Maybe apart from that darn helicopter ride, buy apart from that I've been calm and focused but ever since we came back to the country, there was no day I didn't think about how Ethan felt about me.
It was like I was diverting away from my original plan to get my revenge and slowly allowing myself to fall for him, and the worst part was that he didn't feel the same way.
Sometimes I just felt like, I just felt like strangling the bitch who Ethan was so in love with so I could keep him for myself, but I couldn't do that. Not to a man who had helped me so much.
I blinked back the tears in my eyes and left the music room to get changed. The cold was finally starting to get to me and I felt a shiver.
I took a long shower, thinking about my life in the bathroom before coming out and changing my clothes.
I got dressed in a light purple free gown that stopped just below my knees, it was one of the dresses Ethan bought for me the first time I came into the house.
I twirled around examining the dress in the mirror.
"Beautiful".
It was beautiful, the dress had a few white lining by the edges and at the front a beautiful design. It was not the kind of dress to wear to sleep, but I just couldn't help myself.
Plus I didn't look like I would be able to sleep anytime soon. Ethan was yet to come back, he must really not want to see me right now.
I sighed falling on the bed.
I did everything I could to waste time, from reading different articles that were on the little book shelf by the side of my room.
This was the first time I was even discovering that.
Down to watching a few movies on my phone. Olivia was really a good actress, if it wasn't for the fact that she wanted me out of Ethan's life so much, I would have loved to befriend her.
All her movies always turned out to be a huge hit.
I also walked around the house for a bit, hoping to hear the sound of Ethan's car entering the mansion but after walking for almost an hour, the car and the man where nowhere to be seen.
Even after dinner, he was still not back.
Where the hell could he be?
I held my phone in my hands staring at the screen. I had been staring at the screen for almost twenty minutes now wanting to dial Ethan's number but just couldn't do it.
What if he doesn't answer it? Or worse, rejects it?
" If Ethan rejected the call I would just... It would mean that he really didn't want to talk to me. " I said to myself finally deciding to dial his number.
I pressed the call button and waited for the call to go through.
It just kept ringing and ringing until the automatic female voice at the other end told me he was not answering.
He was not answering my calls?
' Could this be coincidental or was he really ignoring me? ' I thought as I stared disappointingly at the phone.
My stomach sank when the possibility of what I just thought about seemed more true than any other explanation I could give myself.
I walked out of the room and down to the kitchen where I met Victoria who was ready to retire for the night.
" Ms Rachel... Is there anything you need?" She asked when she saw me.
I bit my lower lip shaking my head. " Only just came for a cup of water". I answered her walking towards the refrigerator.
Victoria walked pass me, and just when I thought she had left she spoke up. " I'm sure Sir Wright is fine". She said and I gave her a small fine.
Of course he's fine, he was just probably ignoring me.
She was worried about me, and as much as it warmed my heart to hear someone worried about how I was, I still felt uncomfortable because she was only nice to me because she thought I was with Ethan.
Once she finds out the truth, she would just treat me like everyone else.
"Do you wish me to find out where he is?"