Diana’s POV
James took out some sweatpants and baggy shirt from the closet that I believed was Benjamins since everything reeked of his scent. “He said earlier to give you clothes from his closet for bed. We’ll start our training in the morning. Six thirty in the morning, right when the sun comes up. We will come here right on the dot so be ready.”
James was about to leave when I grabbed the hem of his shirt stopping him. He was acting so cold, distant and it felt weird. There was still something unspoken said between each other. Oh right, that he was gay.
James stopped in his tracks and didn't glance back me.
Being so ashamed of it he decided to fake his own death, leaving me behind to live out the rest of his life with rouges. It pained me so much that he couldn't come out to me, so in a way, it drove a knife between us. I had no problem with him being attracted to the opposite sex, I just wanted my goofy brother back but it's been so long that I feared to lose him again.
“You guys make a hot couple,” I said watching his head snap back so I could see that those green eyes were wide in response to my comment. “Tell Cam he was a bad actor playing a straight man.”
"You knew it was him," He said surprised.
"I knew something was off about his feelings for me. If anything, he is like another brother and I just want you to know that I'm not judging."
James smiled and grabbed the hand that was holding his shirt so he could pull me into his chest. I let my body hug his warm one, cherishing the feel of him alive and breathing before stepping back. “When can talk more about this when you feel comfortable.” James nodded gulping hard and without saying anything. He slowly closed the door behind him. I couldn't have him leave without at least making sure he knew that.
I checked the doorknob to make sure it was locked before sighing to myself out loud when it was, in fact, locked.
“Testing my patience, Benjamin,” I muttered before heading to the bathroom connected to the room. I turned on the lights and felt blinded by how bright they were. When my eyes adjusted I saw a dark marble bathroom set with a huge bathtub just calling to my aching muscles. I turned on the warm water and took off my clothes before slowly sitting down in a bathtub filled with bubbles. Benjamin sure loved taking baths since it would automatically fill with a manly scented soap causing bubbles to fill up. I let myself fall back until the water surrounded everything but my head. All my anger seemed to vanish with the soothing sound of water almost like it was washed it away.
After I was squeaky clean I dried myself off and slipped on the clothes James handed me, feeling ten times better. I was very much in need of a shower after everything that had happened.
My mind began to wander to an alpha with a cute ass, wondering if he was alright. I wouldn't want to be around him at the moment, I'm sure he is pissed. Surprisingly, taking a break from Angelo I realized it was like coming down a high. He was so damn attractive I couldn’t function right in his presence. His touch could erase my train of thinking easily. A fresh breath of air without him was what I needed to get myself back to normal.
They had another thing coming if they think they can just fight over me like bone. Jason has no idea what he is getting himself into, that's for sure.
Although I had a new mentality, it didn’t take away from the fact that the bed was extremely cold without Angelo’s heat. Those strong arms of his weren’t reaching out towards me sexily as I avoided his touch, afraid of the feelings it came with. Now that I didn’t have the option, I craved it more than ever. The mind plays games with you like that.
I ended up tossing and turning, trying to find a comfortable spot but I’m positive it looked like I was spazzing out from afar.
“Fuck!” I yelled into my pillow frustrated, the feeling of being incomplete was burning in my chest as I tried to breathe deeply to calm myself down. That feeling of being whole and content was no longer there, instead, there was a gaping black hole.
I already missed him, man that was lame. I would have placed on my money on a week, maybe 9 days tops but just one single night and I was already crumbling. Tightly closing my eyes, I counted sheep to distract myself from Angelo. I felt myself falling asleep to the ghost of Angelo’s heartbeat, beating in almost the same pace as mine. By being calm I noticed the mate bond didn’t mute out his heartbeat from reaching my ears, the only indication that he was fine.
The darkness left as soon as it came and I found myself jumping to a loud bang. Opening my eyes, I saw Benjamin and James staring down at me with their arms crossed. Benjamin looked like he stepped straight out the shower with his blonde hair slick back nicely and he wore all black. James was in a pair of blue jeans and a black hoodie like he usually wore when he lived with me, nothing new.
For some reason I expected him to dress a different way because he was gay, but that would just be labeling him a certain way. He will always be my brother at heart and that was the truth I hadn’t realized until now. I almost slapped myself for it.
“Wakey wakey,” James said pulling off the sheets from me to expose me the cold breeze. I had sweatpants but it was still a major shock that woke me up on the spot.
“Eggs and bakey.” I finished for him automatically remembering that saying from our childhood together. James chuckled in response and I looked through the corner of my eye to see Benjamin had smiled for a second. I groaned out while stretching out in the bed while they watched me squirm around trying to fully wake up.
“Training first then breakfast,” Benjamin ordered as I sat up rubbing my eyes from the boogers that had crusted around.
“Can I go to the bathroom first or do I need a bathroom pass, teacher?” I asked Benjamin who narrowed those bright blue eyes on me by how I called him.
“Hurry up,” He said as I slowly wattled towards the bathroom like a penguin. I regret drinking a lot of water before bed since it was too much. I held in through the night because I was too comfortable to get up, but now my belly felt swollen and it was going to be a lot to pee at once.
I moaned in relief not caring that they could clearly hear me in the connected room. “That was more sexual than I wanted it to come out,” I commented out loud quickly afterward to clarify. I could hear James chuckling uncontrollably.
I stepped out the bathroom to see they were placing a lot of books on a desk, that was on the far left of the room along with two chairs. Was it weird that I didn't even notice he had a little desk in here all this time? There were two chairs available and one was huge and comfortable with leather skin and extra padding, compared to the other basic wooden one. I jumped and slide over the desk, knocking some books aside and passing them both to land on the chair with a thud.
“I call this chair,” I said as James tried not to look surprised by my actions. Benjamin not wanting to pick another fight like yesterday slowly sat down on the wooden chair on the opposite side but not without giving me a death glare. He wanted this chair but I beat him to it.
“Let’s start the first lesson,” Benjamin said opening up a big black book with a bookmark already set on a certain page. By the way, the pages looked, I was assuming it was old. A slight yellow coated each page like a gloss of some sort.
“Why are the pages shiny?” I asked as he laid it down in front of me. My fingers touched the outer side and felt it was in a nice leather casing.
“To prevent it from aging and breaking down throughout the years,” Benjamin said pointing a finger to a line in the book moving on from the interesting topic I wanted to hear more of. “How to channel your energy using a sacred knife.”