Sophie
The doctor chuckled, and Logan couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear, yet my heart pounded in my chest so fast, I thought it would burst out of my chest. Could it be possible for me to be expecting right now? I mean, I've honestly been so busy that I haven't kept track of my cycle since I moved here.
And, let's be honest, before Logan and I got back, I was getting no action whatsoever. So, I wasn't taking birth control, nor was he using any protection. God, this has to be a dream.
"I...I don't know to be honest. I mean, I guess September?...maybe August... No, wait...September...oh, no." I closed my eyes holding my head. I was so darn confused right now.
"You know, Carol is a good friend of mine. Why don't I ask her to make room for you? You can go and get your doubts out of the way right now if you'd like?" She suggests, asking if I want to go and see the O. B. GYN right now.
I glance at Logan, who excitedly nods yes, with a big grin on his face. I knit my eyebrows worriedly, slumping my shoulders. "But, Abby, I already took a pregnancy test, it came out negative. What if it's something else?" Logan looks at me with wide eyes, shock is written all over his face. "Wait..you what?" He blurts out, making Abby, my doctor chuckle.
"I took an over-the-counter test a few days ago. It came out negative, I mean, I was just curious, but I shook it off when the test came out negative." I looked at the doctor, as she nodded, pursing her lips, and arms crossed over her chest.
"Well, you know, sometimes the HCG hormones are not high enough to tell you a positive answer in an OTC test. We can have you go up, see Carol, tell her what's going on, she can make you another test right then and there, and give you an ultrasound to verify just in case. What do you say?" I was scared, that's what I say. But before I could answer, Logan did it for me.
"We'll go see her. It's best we know now. The sooner she starts getting taken care of, and nourish our baby properly now than later, don't you agree, Baby? Come on, let's start heading up there while the doctor calls your new obstetrician." He says, grabbing my purse off the seat, and grabbing his phone to see the time.
"We have about four hours before Nate gets out, plenty of time for us to go." He adds making me whine a little. "But, I'm hungry. Can't we go eat first?" I ask, making both of them chuckle.
"Nope. We can go eat soon after we find out, come on, let's go." He says, picking me up bridal style, ready to get me out of there.
Abby chuckles, stopping him on his track. "Logan, wait." She says, making him turn. "What?" He says, confused by her abruptness. "Sophie should get dressed first. Don't you think?" She says, making me chuckle. He looks at me, as I hold him tightly around his neck. "Oh...right. You should get dressed baby. Sorry. I got carried away for a second." my doctor, Abby and I chuckle. He places me down softly and hands me my garments.
"Ok, let me make the call and I'll be right back with you guys. I'll give you a bit of privacy so you can change." she grabs her phone off her coat and speed dials a number, leaving the room quickly. I put my bra on first, followed by my shirt and sweater. Logan paces back and forth, biting his thumbnail as he rests his elbow on top of his other hand. I chuckle at his nervousness, making him turn towards me with wide eyes glistening with both fear and excitement. "Logan, are you....sure....you want to go do this? We can come back some other time. It's pretty late, and I wanted to go have much before we have to go pick up Nate." It's true, I was speaking more towards my fears and nerves.
A baby was not in my plans right now, but just the thought of it the other day when I checked just out of curiosity, made me so excited. What if I'm not pregnant? What if I'm just not eating well enough? I don't want to be disappointed when the doctor says my test result came out negative. He tilts his head, nodding slightly as he smirks my way. "Sophie, we are already here. We may as well go. Besides," he says as he nears me, cupping my face and combing my hair back with his fingers. He softly kisses me, gliding his tongue against mine in a slow, sensual kiss. "I want to know if you are or not. So, let's get out of here. I want to see how big my baby is already." he says smiling against my lips, and nudging my nose against his.
I whine, tilting my head back and wrapping my arms around his waist. "But what if I'm not? Logan, I don't want to disappoint you. I know you said you're ready for a family, and you're amazing with Nate, but a newborn baby is not the same. It's a lot of work and great responsibility. You have a full schedule as it, and I do too. Can we handle a new baby at home? Home... Shit... Where are we going to let the baby sleep? There is no room for the baby in our house, and... I can't make Lexie move out. She'll be crushed, she loves staying with us. And then we also have to-"
"Sophie...Sophie, relax baby. Do you forget we have a bigger house inbuilt for us? All you have to do is say the words and we can move back in. And, true, I have a full schedule but my family will always come first. I love you, and my son and a new baby will only be added blessings to us. If you're ready, then I'm ready. And if you're not pregnant, then it's ok. We'll take it slowly if you want. We'll start using protection, or you can go on the pill, whatever you want. I just want you to be happy, and stay by my side. I love you, Sophie, and believe me, I'm a bit scared too, but... We got this, baby. I'm not going anywhere, I've told you that many times." his words were the comfort I needed. I needed to hear that he was ok with me if I was pregnant. That he would be with me every step of the way, through my morning sickness, and crazy cravings.
Now more than ever I need him.
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We sat in Carol's consultation room, waiting to be given the results. They had me pee in a cup and placed the lid tightly on top. I had left the cup on top of the metal tray inside my room and waited impatiently, Logan sat with his elbows resting on his knees, palms together in front of his lips. His knees wouldn't stop shaking, making vertigo in my stomach increase dramatically the more time passed by.
I glanced over the posters of wombs with growing babies inside, lactating and nutrition posters pasted on the wall. I was so nervous, my palms felt cold and clammy. "Hello, hello." the doctor knocked, making her way inside followed by a young nurse.
"Hi, doctor," I said shyly, or...more like nervously. Logan stood up quickly, startling the doctor. "Well, look at you Logan? You've become such a good-looking man. Ugg...." she says placing her hand over her heart. "I am so happy to see you two back together. You always made such a cute couple. So, Sophie." she says looking at me and walking towards the tray. She places gloves on, opens the small cup, and grabs a tiny rectangular-shaped test. "Let's take a look to see if we're in for another baby, shall we?"
We were in a small town, so word spread fast that I was back, and not just that... But I had come back with a son, and indeed... Was Logan's. She inserted a small squirting tube, grabbed a bit of the fluid out, and dropped just a few droplets into the test. Logan and I looked at each other eagerly, my nervousness unraveling inside of me. I could hear Logan's heart beating fast as he came, and hugged me from behind, around my waist.
It wasn't even a minute when the test strip came in full sight. Followed by a second line. My eyes went wide, filling with tears. I felt a big knot in my throat as I involuntary whimpered in joy. "What.., what does that mean?" Logan asked the elderly doctor, making her give him a joyful smile.
"Congratulations you two. It looks like you're going to be a daddy again, Logan." his eyes went wide, his hands gripped his hair, interlacing his fingers in his wild curls. "I.., I am?" he said, chuckling. He covered his mouth, grunting. He quickly turn-around, picking me up and spinning me around. "Yes. Oh, God, yes. Baby, thank you. I'm... I'm going to be a dad...again." he says cheerfully, tears building up in his eyes as he places me back down, and kisses my lips. The doctor chuckles, allowing him to have his moment with me.
"Now, let's take a look at you first, and then we can check on the little slugger, shall we? I'll have a nurse bring you a gown, and I'll be back to get started." oh God, I hate this part. It is so uncomfortable to get checked. It's a whole pap smear checkup. It feels so uncomfortable. But, hey... On the bright side, I can cancel my appointment.
I nod, wiping away my tears, and taking a seat on the chair. Logan becomes unease. Rubbing my stomach and kissing me senselessly. "Well, I guess it's official then baby...we are unexpectedly....expecting a new baby. You have no idea how happy you made me. I love you so...so damn much." he whispers, engulfing me in a big bear hug, kissing the top of my head.
"Unexpectedly...expecting," I whisper. Unable to believe my eyes and ears. Now... To get checked and, hopefully...be able to see my baby for the first time.
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