Gabriel’s POV:
As my anger completely took over my rational self, I stood up from the bed frantically and rushed towards Zordan, raising my long claws up in the air. I knew the aimed attack towards the Crown Prince of our kingdom was a heinous sin, enough punishable to be considered for a gruesome death penalty.
An omega like me would never be able to put up against a true blood alpha like him, and I knew it was my suicide attempt. I was certain that he would attack me back and that’s how I was desperate to get rid of this cursed life, at least in his hands.
But…
The moment I flared my claws up to stab him in his chest, to my shock, Zordan didn’t move an inch from his position! He stood still like a rock as if he willingly wanted to accept my attack! But…I didn’t expect this to happen!
I had presumed that his hostility towards me would definitely act his instincts quickly and he would pounce back on me! But…what’s happening? Why isn’t he doing anything to stop me? At least he should defend himself back!
THROB!
When these sudden muddled thoughts hit my mind, a sharp pain stung in the back of my head which disrupted my balance. Acting quickly, I was barely lucky to stop myself from stabbing him at the last moment. But my claws dug a deep graze on his arm while I was diverting my hands away from him. And to my shock, he didn’t even dodge that attack too!
But he was quick to notice my wobbly state and hurried close to hold me by my waist. After getting a grip over myself, I sensed my canines had started to disappear along with my eye color returning back to my usual form. My claws also started to disappear as the surge of anger started to tone down inside me.
But a sudden blackout darkened my vision for a brief moment, and once again, Zordan held me tight in his arms so that I won’t tumble on the ground. I could sense his sweet scent of blood filling up the room which made me realize that the wound on his arm from my claws must have started to bleed.
“Are you okay? That’s why I told you not to exaggerate your strength in this fragile state. Shall I summon the physician again?” His concerned deep voice felt a bit soothing for me, while I could grasp the warmth of his big hand holding my waist.
But, a bitter humiliation overwhelmed me from inside when I retrieved my senses back. I wanted to hurt this man but…why does he still look concerned for me? Just why is he making me so confused?
I forcibly pushed him away from me and lifted my teary gaze to gaze deep in his eyes. His big, rolled onyx eyes looked sincerely worried for me which even stirred the bitter heartache I was enduring inside.
“Why are you doing this!? Just why the heck you are acting so kind towards me still now!!? I tried to attack you, but how could you not dodge that at least!? I was about to stab you, Zordan!!” Tears streamed down my eyes as I vented my frustration on me with a shriek.
But he still didn’t show any trace of discontent, rather stood still with a soft sad smile towards me, “But you didn’t. Why did you stop yourself in the end? You…had the perfect chance to get me killed today, Gabriel.”
“Shut the fuck up!!” I clenched my fist, as my throat stifled with the urge of wailing out aloud. “Why are you doing this to me? Just why didn’t you stop me? You…You…” My words trailed off as I cried bitterly, unable to cope with the agony inside me.
He watched me quietly for a few seconds and with my head leaned down at the ground, I could feel his approaching steady footsteps towards me. Slowly as he came closer, he wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in his embrace as if he was trying to comfort me.
Strangely, this time I couldn’t push him away, but I felt a little comforted. He patted my head a few times and spoke gently, “Gabriel, it’s not your fault. I marked you without your consent, so I deserved your wrath. Moreover, after what I did, I know you hate me but don’t torment yourself too hard. When the time comes, I will let you choose whether you wish to stay or leave me. I don’t mind even if you wish to kill me…
But, until then, can you let me stay with you a bit longer?”
His soft voice sounded like a painful plea to me which made my heart ache even more bitterly in grief. I couldn’t push him away but sobbed helplessly still. He was warm and his presence had always comforted every wound I bore in my heart.
As expected, Zordan knew me well too much, he was aware I won’t be able to hurt him in the end and thus he didn’t even dodge my attack. But, what if I really had mustered the courage to stab him? After what he did to me…I really wanted to hurt him! I wanted to make him miserable but once again…I was failing at everything.
Why is my love greater than the hate I bear towards him? Why couldn’t fate let me be happy at least this time?
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