I was reading a book in the bedroom. This is one of the guest rooms here in Kylie's condo.
How many times mama called me I didn’t answer that. I'm not angry yet. I just can't go to her because of what I did.
I folded the book and picked up my cellphone. Still nothing, just another month but still nothing.
I have too much doubts. I couldn't, but I couldn't do anything. Even one of Sebe's cousins says nothing.
I was startled by the slam of the door, Kylie slammed it open and gasped as she faced me.
"You are rushing?" I asked coldly.
She shook her head immediately and rubbed his chest holding her cellphone. She heaved a sighed deeply and came near me.
"Did you open your facebook account?" She asked.
I raised an eyebrow.
"No ..." I don't like that. But if necessary, it also opens. He handed me his cellphone.
"Oh! Look!”
I was surprised so I took that and looked.
My heart pounded when I saw the picture of Eli and Sebe. Eli posted an hour ago.
Tears welled up in my eyes and Kylie's cellphone fell on the table.
I thought he would fix something there? I thought for us he would fix there?
Did Eli follow him there? They look so happy together in that photo. On that one beach. That Eli was sitting on the sun lounger. And they are kissing.
And Sebe's tattoo on his right back were visible. Her hair is so padin. He really has no doda.
"Sorry Nat, I wouldn't have shown up this to you but I can't stand it."
I bent down and bent my elbow on the table and squeezed my senses.
"Nat?" Kylie rubbed my back.
"I-I'm fine." I'm shaking.
"You're not okay." she hugged me from behind. "I don't know what to say Nat. Even I can't believe it." He said softly.
Is Sebe just playing with me? He said he will fight for us? But what is that? What is that picture?
Their fun was there. They look like a happy couple. He made me look stupid. he's really a playboy. He's not really going to lose that.
Eli is his longest girlfriend! Three years is not easy to forget Nat!
I 'm stupid! How talented I am in school! This is how stupid I am in love! And the worst! I gave myself to him!
Kylie hasn't talked to me yet. I told him I wanted to be alone.
I locked myself in the room. The window is open. Only moonlight is the only light in the room.
No texts and no calls from him.
Stupid. Why should I wait any longer huh?
I loved him and I believed in everything. I gave myself but in the end I repented. In the beginning, in fact, I was the only obstacle to them, right?
If I hadn’t known him, I wouldn’t have loved him now no one would be hurt.
I got up from sitting on the bed. Not afraid of the darkness of the surroundings inside the bedroom.
I stood beside the window. I shivered when the night wind blown my hair.
Immediately my tears flowed. i did'nt bothered to wipe it.I dont want to hide myself anymore. I'm not really that strong and cold Natalia that they've know.
I am fragile. That is the truth.
I am weak, I am breakable and I'm not strong.
I looked at the moon shining beautifully in the sky.
The moon ..
Sebe's my moon before. My light in the dark. He guided me, to make and choose the right way. He lighten the right path for me. But in the end, I will also leave. When I am in the light.
I looked up at the moon.
"S-Sebe w-why?"
I don’t know how many buckets I cried what time I fell asleep. Even though I may be sleeping well, I still feel the same pain, right?
When I woke up that morning I had no appetite.
Still nothing..
Why am I still hoping? Huh?
How quickly you became us. Recovery is just as easy. How happy I was then. That was now retrieved in just a twinkle. I already told Kylie I wasn’t going in. Nothing enters my brain when I’m like this. My stupidity outweighs my intelligence right now.
Swollen eyes I looked at the reflection in the mirror. I thinned, the eye deepened and there was black under it. I took out my phone. My hand trembled as I held it.
I want to ask. The amount I also wanted to tell him. I took a deep breath.
I thought about it a few times last night. This is my way to get rid of the pain. I want to escape from pain.
I immediately typed my message for mama .
To Mama: Ma, I am going to Isla Constancia. I'm sorry for everything. I love you. See you there.
Isla Contancia, island somewhere in Visayas. Near Iloilo.
There Mama builds her Resort. I will stay there. As far as I know we have a rest house there.
That's where I'm going.
I have to forget at least once. Maybe Sebe and I aren't really together yet. he did not fight me. That only means one thing. He does not love me.
My decision is complete. I am leaving.