I couldn’t seem to believe that I could get through the worst nightmare of my life.
Back then I had no idea what was going on in the world. But now it's different.
I am just a simple girl before. Just being able to read a book that is amazing is ok with me. Just perfecting the exam makes me so happy.
Just what a life right?
Until ... I met Sebe. In the short time I have met him at school. I secretly admire him. He's the man I really like. A matured and serious one.
When I found out he was engaged to Eli I was hurt. I thought I had no hope. I'm at the point, that I’ll just cry and let go.
But Sebe's fight for us ..He has been in New York for eight months, it's worth my longing for him.
I love him ... even if we fight. Separately, he went into a coma because of me ..
In the past two weeks, its unbelievable but, Sebes recovered so fast. Maybe because of the vitamins and fruits that he eats and drinks every day.
His thin body returned to normal. And its really intimidates me. How the veins in his arms clenched. How his muscles flexed. Dammit!
Am I fantasizing about him?
Damn you Natalia! He's your soon to be husband! You can touch anything you want!
Baby Sapphire is at home. Her nanny and Mama taking care of her. while I was watching Sebe. I'm currently putting away our food. Her mommy and daddy just came home.
He can go out tomorrow. It's really a good news! He was also here in the hospital for almost three months. It's different at home ..
Sebes was currently putting his shirt on when the door opened. Shawn spat. He smiled at me immediately.
He was carrying papers that I think are for Sebe.
I smiled back. I would have been closer when Sebe spoke.
"Baby, can you help me with this?" he said in a sleeve of his t shirt. It wasn't easy to wear especially since it didn't fit the muscles of his arm. And now I am wondering if his body is still the same or he has become even more muscular?
In the days I cared for him I realized we miss each other. We used to cuddle all night. She is sweeter now than she was then. But he was still the same. He's sweet but so serious!
Sometimes mama brings Sapphire here but only once. because I don't want him to get sick from here in the hospital. Sometimes as much as I can I go home and watch the baby for a while.
It's also good that we can go home tomorrow because I want to be with baby. When it's over, his arm is wrapped around my waist.
Volts of electricity kicked my system.
Shawn professionally told Sebe his condition.
"I am glad you finally recovered." Shawn folded his document and shook hands with Sebe.
Sebe accepted that and nodded seriously.
"Thank you."
Shawn turned to me.
"Can we talk?" He asked seriously. My chest throbbed when I saw Sebe's jaw tighten.
"Uh .."
"Could it be outside"? He added and glanced at Sebe. I could almost hear my own heartbeat with extreme nervousness.
"You two can talk here." Sebe suddenly said. I blinked and didn't know what to say. Sebe is also due to nervousness and fear.
I don’t know why Shawn said this vulgarly right in front of Sebe.
"All right, I'll be next .." I think we need to talk. I think he has something to say.
Shawn smiled and left.
"What's that Natalia?" He immediately told me angrily when the door closed.
Here he goes again. He used to call me baby. But if she is serious and angry, she will call me Natalia. I closed my eyes firmly and sat down next to her.
"Sebe calm down. We'll just talk .."
"I'm just in a coma but I haven't forgotten how I saw you in Iloilo then! He even hugged you for fuck sake!-".
He might get tense.
"Sebe! What are you saying? Yeah I know! But because we're friends!".
"Friend huh?" he scoffed.
"Please, don't be mad. I don't want us to fight. I've learned my lesson. We can talk properly. Please, don't be mad .." I swear I didn't recognize my own voice right now .
I could see his jaw tighten. I looked at his handsome face. beside his jaw dropping looks, I also loved his mannerisms.
His nose touched mine. My chest was throbbing with throbbing.
"Okay..just talk."
I nodded. "Just talk". I said.
"Keep distance, no touching .." I was almost embarrassed by what he said.
"Yes .. No touching .."irritate I said.
"Please kiss me baby .."
I squatted down to reach him but my hair almost stood up when he grabbed my nape and kissed me.
We are no longer in the hospital. I moaned when he sucked my tongue.
Immediately his kiss dropped to my chest. Even though he is in a coma, he still hasn't changed.
I looked up as he bent down to kiss my chest. I arched my back to give him more access to kiss me there.
He cursed .. especially my breast is still big because of the milk.
My lips parted as he licked it hard.
"Ah! ~ Gosh .."i cant help but to moaned.Kakaibang init agad ang bumalot sa akin.His tongue expertly sucked my nipple. Damn it!
I was almost embarrassed because I knew he tasted my milk there he just didn’t drink it!
"Sebe!" I pushed him but he didn’t stop!
He licked his lips and smirked. He kissed me one more time.
"I can't wait to see our baby .." He kissed my collarbones so I closed my eyes.
"I can't wait to bed you. I really can't .."
Every move I make is always shy because he looks at me teasingly. I don't know if it was caused when he was in a coma but he used to be like that.
When I finally got out Shawn and I immediately talked. He's really a good friend. He helped me a lot in Iloilo.
He helped me in my checked ups! To my papers! In my meals! he's really good.
On the rooftop of St. Lukes. We looked at the sky of Manila and the setting sun. My hair is blown away by the wind. We were both staring at the sunset.
"I am happy for you .." He finally said. I smiled at him.
"Thank you, I don't know how I can repay all the kindness you did to me in Iloilo .."
He shook his head and put his hand in his uniform pocket.
"You don't have to, just be happy. It's enough for me."
He bowed immediately. My heart really melt.
"Thank you .."
My lips parted when I saw his eyes were red
What? Is he about to cry?
"You know, I really love you Natalia."
He looked up and closed his eyes.
“Letting go of my feelings for you is not easy.” He looked at me.
"But I have no choice"I love you but I know your happiness is hers. I won't force myself. I didn't own you in the first place."
When he laughed.
My heart ached there. All this time I knew nothing. I only think of him as a friend.
"S-Shawn, I-I'm sorry .."
He smiled.
"Don't worry about me. Can I hug you for the last time?" I grinned.
"Of course.."
Two months passed and a lot happened. Baby Sapphire is three months old. She's really adorbs and cute!
He is not heavenly. His face was just serious. maybe he got Sebe to always be serious.
Now it's my bachelor's farewell.
This is all Jenn's idea! Because Sebe and I will get married tomorrow! I don't need it like this!
It's already eight o'clock and I haven't done anything because Sebe is also my stag party. it's his cousins idea, of course.
I know the woman was there! I don't know which bar! I left the baby with mama. She know's about this. Mama is also in favor of watching over her grandson.
"Come on Nat! Enjoy your party!" Some of my friends were invited! They are cheering me up.
We’re in a high end bar just here in BGC. Kylie isn’t because it’s pregnant. Some I know others I just face.
Three men were dancing in front of us and turned topless.
I almost hid behind Jenn. the stereo noise and everything is too much noise.
They really planned this! The alcohols! The chips! The rented bar! The three boys dancing stripped on our front!
I think it's all a sin. A lot of games have taken place. the ones with me he took pictures of. They did a lot of outrage to me!
I was seated in a chair and three masked men danced right in front of me. There is also a cake curve ANO nang lalaki. I could hardly have eaten that before!
It's all very bad I've experienced tonight! It's late at night and I can't help but think of Sebe.
I felt like I was going to explode with so much excitement for our wedding. Even though the ringing and screaming was loud, we were shocked when the door slammed.
All of us gasped.
Sebes wearing a black v neck shirt and a pants. He's walking towards me. It's as if I heard nothing but the noise of my heart.
What is he doing here? He must be at his stag party! Before I could react, he immediately pushed me away.
Jenn laughed to the side.
"Enough Natalia! I'm not happy anymore!" He dragged me towards his car. We left my companion there inside!
He's so rude!
"What? Aren't you having a party too? Why are you here ?!" I asked back.
He opened the front seat so I entered while he was still at the door. He put his arms on my seat while the other was already on my thigh.
My chest is throbbing.
"Enjoy ,? Do you think I can enjoy if I see such pictures on facebook?"
"I-Its just a game!" I tried to explain but he closed the door. What a dog!
I was blown away by the wind. He immediately entered and operated the vehicle.
"Let's go home..Let's do the fucking party in our room." He smirk devilishly.
"I'll make sure you'll enjoy this." He grinned and I just rubbed my forehead.
I secretly looked at him while he was driving.
I secretly wiped away my tears. From now on, I will expand my understanding of him. From now on, I will wake up one morning because I know someone is waiting for me to wake up, Sebe and baby Sapphire.
I reached for his hand holding the steering wheel. He glanced at me immediately with a frown.
"I love you .." I whispered.
He smiled and held my hand while one hand was driving.
"I love you more Natalia Grace Montemayor." He grinned and kissed my hand.
Even this life of our's is full of struggles but in the end. We will all end up happy.
All the pain, the tears and the sacrifices.Is all worth it. Tomorrow is the day I am going to marry the man I ever love.
I am Natalia Grace De Vera soon to be a Montemayor. Is now signing off.
Till infinity and beyond.