So that's it.My day became natural again. School and home only. I'm happy. Yes, I'm happy. Sometimes he was with someone. Sometimes male, sometimes female, sometimes his cousins.
Like what he said before when we were on the cliff. I just go with the flow. I'll enjoy my life. I just seem to trust how I feel. Maybe I don't know much yet. I look too young. Is the nineteen still young?
So what? I am very aware of the world I live in. Every time we meet, he smiles at me. But we don't talk anymore, our meeting is slow.
I think he's avoiding me. I know I don't think of him as just a friend.
"Are you stupid again Nat?" Kylie commented to me.
I folded my book and picked up the reading glass I was wearing.
"I'm so stressed," I rubbed my forehead. I'm soaking wet from studying. I think I will beat Albert Einstein and Arms Strong.
She laid the sandwich and juice on the table in front of me. She smiled.
Kylie is a sweet and feisty. With the three of us we are closer but Jenner is really my friend too.
"I bought that.”
I study just to subside my attention, I was just forcing myself to have fun.
I don't know but I miss Sebe's presence. That feeling you missed him but he's avoiding me. I can't do anything to alleviate this. I don't know why. What we talked about on the cliff back then was almost two weeks ago. His words made a mystery in my brain.
He had to fix something so he can choose what he really feel and want. What's that? fix what?
"Fuck! Fuck!" Panting, Jen suddenly sat down in front of us, which was lost in my reflection. Kylie coughed because she was drinking her juice.
"Fuck fuckin your ass Jen! Why are you shouting ?!" Kylie shoutedd and wiped her skirt that had been shed.
Jen look so dismay and look at me. I don't know but I was nervous. But I manage to 'act like nothing.
"You like Sebe right?" I was surprised by Jen's question. And I shot up my brows.
Why she's asking?
"Why are you asking ---"
She cut me off.
"Damn! Tell me! I know.I just want to hear from you personally-- "
"Go straight to the fucking point Jen!" Kylie snapped at her.
Jen put her cellphone on the table.
“See it for yourself,” she said to me.
My heart pounded at what I could read on her cellphone. My hand was shaking when I took it and I could hardly breathe.
My eyes narrowed as I read it carefully. It is a website where the lives of the high ones are legitly updated Elites family where is Montemayor Empire belong.
My chest throbbed at what I read. The Merging of HMC Company of Montemayor and Lee Empire Group. The two most Powerful name in the Industries is now became one.
Sebastian Montemayor and Elizabeth Lee confirmed Engagement two days ago!
My chest throbbed so hard I couldn't stand it and put the cellphone back on the table. Kylie immediately picked it up and read it.
My hand was clenched as I bowed my head. Is it so? Is that why we can't? He's engaged? Is that why he's avoiding me?
My chest is too tight. I want to cry but not in front of them.
I immediately stood up.
"B-bathroom ," I stuttered as the pain struck in me. My books are about to fall apart.
Jen looked at me worriedly. "Nat, are you okay?"
I nodded.
"I'm leaving"
But before I could leave they saw my tears flow. Shit!
"Nat," Kylie called to me again.
But I did not look back.
I don't want them to see me like this. I don't want them to see how I really feel. That even I myself do not know but now I know.
I'm hurt because I love him. I cry because I love him. Shit!
He's engaged? What can I do there? My pace slowed. I feel like I'm going to fall.
I leaned against the wall in a hallway I knew no one could see me.
"Shit!" I sighed and moaned covering my face with my palm.
until I sat down with no one to look at me.
My back is leaning against the wall.
"He's engaged," I stated like an idiot with myself.
Moments later I heard footsteps approaching so I stood up and rubbed my cheek. When look down I saw a pair familiar shoes. I cried even more. I remained still looking on that pair of shoes.
He heaved a sigh.
. "Don't cry." I remained silent. I didn't look at him. My tears just flowed.
My first love is now my first heart break.
"She has a reason.Talk to him. " Damon said to me. Talk to him? He think I could?
"I-I can't."
He grabbed my arm and pulled me even closer to him.
"Why are you crying?" He asked me gently. I can see the softness now in his expression. I don’t need his mercy.
"Because you love him," He answered his own question. Fuck. He's right.
He licked his lips.
"Crying can't help Natalia," He parted the strand of my hair and placed it behind my ear. "Sometimes we have to face our fears. So talk with him, face your fears."
He can read my mind? Why is he an expert here? Or maybe he already loves so much that he cares a lot in this situation. Because if I? The only pain I feel right now.
"There's nothing I can do Damon. I can’t. It's really like this isn't it?" I said and sobbed again. "It's just a pain cause of love." I was shocked when he pulled me up and hugged me.
"If only I could."
I was even more shocked and moved to tears by the words he left out.