Pang of emotions kicked in me. What did I do to make this happen to me? Did I deserve this pain?
I wiped the tears from my eyes. My eyes roamed around inside the not so expensive room. Clean and airy. There is a Tv in front of the bed. There is a small bathroom. There is a table on the side. There's a refrigerator I don't know works. There is air conditioning, a rice cooker with a heater and a microwave.
I approached the large window just to the side of my bed. I can see the expanse of Iloilo. yeah, I'm in Jaro Iloilo.
My plan to go to Isla Constancia did not go through because I could no longer take the boat trip because I was pregnant. I was just lucky with the plane I boarded earlier.
It's also a reason that I didn't go there because I knew Sebe would look for me there because he had already found me there. The afternoon wind blew my hair and it exploded.
I hugged myself and immediately burst into tears.
The fuck ..
It all happened only yesterday. It's not in my plan right now. I am now on the 14th floor of the condo unit I rented. Its not expensive like Sebe's unit in Manila. But it's okay with me.
I rented this room good for one year.
I have no plans to return to Manila. I'm not carrying anything. Only my body.
I don’t know where I drew the courage to persevere today. Maybe because of my baby. I don't want to be fragile now. How is my child when I fall down?
It's just the pain. Even so much pain he did but I still can't deny that I still love him dearly. Very dear.
My heart is very unfair. Can I love myself now?
Moretears came out of my eyes and my sobs enveloped the whole room.
I am pregnant and I dont know how will I face this. I feel like a piece of shit right now.
It’s like ‘when we were just Okay. Then all of a sudden it was withdrawn. I feel it. Ever since that Claire arrived his time for me has been split.
I tried to throw away all my grievances and anger at that time. But now I'm full to the brim. I'm full to the brim. Especially from what I saw.
And now I am wondering. How many times could they have done that huh? I am also at fault . I knew something was wrong but I still ignored it.
All my emotions were suddenly thrown away when my cellphone rang. I blocked Sebe's number.
I wiped my tears and took them to bed.
"H-Hello?" My voice croaked. By the way, Kylie ... I really want to cry now.
I know mama and mommy Christina also know something because they always called me and I didn't answer.
"My God! Natalia Grace !!" She gasped.
"What?"
"Where are you ?! What happened? Why did Tito Eduardo punch Sebe? Gosh!".
I covered my mouth. I know they already know. Maybe Sebe told about it. Tears welled up in my eyes again and the sobs didn't go away.
Kylie cursed.
"Tell me, please .." She pleaded.
"I am going to kill Sebastian right now!" She hissed.
"I can do it for you baby."
I heard Clinton say on the other line.
"Shut up!" Kylie hissed.
I gasped softly.
"I saw him. He cheated." I cried the last words.
"He kissed C-Claire." I sobbed.
"I told you so!"
"I dont know what to do it but...." I sobbed again.
"Please take care the baby .."I heard Clinton say that. He care for the baby.
"I will."
"That's what he did! But he's so mad! He's really a mad ape Natalia! He's searching for you!"
My chest throbbed. I know. I knew he would look for me. That is why I am here in Iloilo. I did not go straight to Isla Constancia.
"Make him suffer Natalia .." I heard Clinton add.
"What! I told you not to butt in there!" I heard that the two were already fighting.
"By the way, are you okay? How's your tummy? Please be safe." Kylie added ..
I sniffed.
"I am fine. The baby's fine."
"Where are you?" He asked.
"I-I'm sorry but ---".
She interuppted me. "Yeah, I shouldn't have asked. But wherever you are. Be careful please."
"I will. I will." For my baby.
"Gosh! But Sebe can track your phone !your phone being wiretapped remember ?! "
I rubbed my forehead at what he said! Why didn’t I think of that?
"Okay, I'll hang up now! I'll contact you when I buy a new cellphone. But please don't tell him about me." Please.
"Yes ofcourse! Must be the FUCKBOY"
She emphasized the fuckboy words because maybe clinton who also cheated once.
"He deserved a lesson!"
Why can't all their cousins be content with one?
After the call I immediately approached the window. I checked my cellphone first and saw my wallpaper Sebe. He's sleeping on my lap and my hand is the only sight there combing his hair.
Another bunch of tears escaped in me.
By the time it is destroyed. My love for you is also ruined Sebe.
I immediately threw my cellphone out the window. I don't have a pack if anyone gets hit in the chin.
A week passed and I was relieved because nothing was bothering me. I go back to the beginning. I bought extra equipment for my room. I bought stocks of food and rice.
‘At first I wondered why my bank account had increased so much. I know Sebe is the reason for that. Because Mama and Eduardo don't know my account. Only Sebe manipulated that.
Maybe he made sure I didn’t beg huh? I’ll admit it wasn’t a joke what I went through a week later. I feel like a living dead.
I am numb every hour and minute. I brought a new cellphone. I immediately contacted Kylie. I didn't text or call mama. because I knew he would tell Sebe.
Sebe did something wrong but mama would prefer that we get along. I know her. I know my mom.
"Congratulations! It's a girl." My Ob gyne Miss Dela Torre told me.
My tears flowed. I was lying on the bed and the 3D screen where I could see my baby’s mold myself and I could hear his heartbeat.
I was the only one who went. I am becoming independent now. I was able to do it alone. Although it's a bit hard to move because my tyan is big. six months next month.
While my OB was writing my vitamins I couldn’t help but picturan the 3d picture of my baby. I painted it and passed it to Kylie.
Photo sent!
Kyle its a girl.I am so happy.
Only Kylie is the only one I can trust now. I have no news from Sebe because that's what I asked for.
I can face this. I can face this without him. I can handle without him. I put in my bag the 3d picture of my baby that I had been looking at earlier.
But I stopped when my stomach ached.
"Ouch .." I immediately touched my stomach. I was about to leave San Agustin Hospital here in Iloilo. I just got out of Dra. Dela Torre.
"Miss are you okay?" A leaned man asked. I looked up at him.
He's a doctor!
I withdrew my hand he was holding.
"I'm fine, it just hurts a bit .."
"Let me check you." He offered.
"I'm checked." My answer.
He nodded languidly ..
"I'm doctor Mendez, Shawn Mendez."
He smiled.
I smiled back and took his outstretched hand.
"Natalia De Vera."
"Are you alone? Where's your husband?"
"Maybe fucking around ??" I joked.
"Nice to know you."
" I'll go first." I said goodbye when he stared at me for a long time.
"Let me escort you. If you don't mind?"
"I don't mind .."
He's gentle man. He accompanied me and took me in a taxi. Thanks to him.
Immediately my cellphone rang with a call from Kylie ..
"Hello?" I answered.
"I am happy it's a girl!" She chirped out.
"Yeah, right."
"But I have bad news." She added.
My smile immediately faded.
"What bad news?"
"Sebes is a fuck right?"
"I know. What's the point?" I knew he was rich. And I know he's the reason why I have a million in my bank account now.
"He knows you're in Iloilo! I didn't tell! No one told him !sebe is really had his ways Natalia. He has many tentacles! He has a friend what we've call like a Mafia or whatsoever! They helping him to find you! Wherever you are in Iloilo, you are good at hiding! "
It dropped like a bomb.
I couldn't speak so I immediately turned off my cellphone and washed my palm.
"My god! What will I do?" Question to myself. I Close my eyes firmly.
Sebe please give up! Don't look for us first! Because I'm just going to pushed you away!