Days passed like a blur. I tried to forget the interaction between Claire and me. Sebe and I were okay. Each day that passed he became even sweeter to me.
My baby bump is now visible. I feel the baby moving inside my stomach.
It feels weird like this. It was almost imprinted in my brain that I would be a mother. Now I am no longer selective in what I eat. But I still have cravings.
Sometimes mommy Christina and daddy Raymundo visit me. In the past few days, Mama and mommy Christina and daddy Raymundo also met.
I do not have anything to say. I can hardly imagine that you would all be this way. I have nothing to ask for. I am now satisfied with Sebe.
"That's better because he didn't carry out his plan! It's really crazy ." Jenn said and drank the juice on the table.
I got bored. It's also time for him to come here because he can't do anything. In those days, Sebe was always at home and at work. Sometimes it's midnight to go home. But I understood.
I caressed the bulge of my stomach and sat down in front of Jenn.
"She's okay now..I know Clinton will take care of her."
I looked up at Jenn who was smiling.
"Why?" I asked coldly and ate the apple in front of me.
"You have a big stomach! It's been five months!"
"Yes."
She chuckled.
"Of course! He wants you to be small. Wait, even if your stomach is big you two…..?” SHe shrugged.
"You know ! Are you still coming? "
I close my eyes to what Jenn said. Oh dammit. If she only know.
I shrugged.
"He's a monster bed." I simply said he laughed.
"I knew it!"
Unsatisfied at home, Jenn and I agreed to go to Shang rila.
I wore a white dress and a flat doll shoes. I let my long hair fall out. Jenn said she would accompany me to buy maternity dresses.
"Is that so?" Jenn picked up a dress that was hanging and measured me.
I looked at that. It's okay I find it fine.
"How much?" I ask.
She pouted and searched for the tag "Six hundred fifty."
"I'll get it."
He landed in that cart and we walked around.
I looked around to find something to buy. Unintentionally I was struck by the sight of a man with his back turned.
My forehead creased when I saw familiar persons. My eyes narrowed and approached it. I no longer cared about Jenn being there.
"Hey! Where are you?" Jen was a bit screaming.
"Just here." I said without looking back.
Jenn hadn't followed me yet so I approached there. is Sebe in the jewelries section?
I was shocked but I stayed where I was not far from him.
He's like waiting someone? He was able to stand there. Why is he here? Why didn't he text me?
I was about to approach but I stopped where I was when Claire suddenly came out of the jewelries section!
What are they doing here? Why are they together? It was as if a dagger had pierced my heart when I saw Seb grab his waist and they both laughed.
I blinked so hard. I feel the tightness of my chest. Before I drowned there I was back at Jenn’s stand busy choosing.
"Let's go Jenn." I told him in a trembling voice. I never picked up the dress I left that there.
"What? Why? We'll just get there! "
My every step was so fast that it seemed like I didn't have a pack if I was pregnant.
I sighed so that my tears would not flow! I'm a tire mess! Why are they together?
They look so good and happy together! They seem to be so used to each other! well, of course they were kids.
My system got bitter because of that. I have seen enough to feel this way. He didn't text me. Also not calling.
What does he mean?
When she arrived at the glass house, Jenn did not enter. He seemed to be going straight home. which is in my favor. I want to get one.
I’d like to think that’s just nothing. That they were just close because they were childhood friends! I sat on the sofa with my tears flowing.
She's crazy! I am pregnant for fuck sake! He can do nothing!
The silence of the whole mansion made me sad. Sebe suppose to be at my side all the time. But I understood because he had a job.
I felt so alone and hopeless right now. Was my decision then wrong to stay with her and love her? Am I wrong ?even though I was reluctant I cooked dinner. I put the dishes and rice on the table.
Looked at the clock on the side of the table. It's eight o'clock in the evening. Now I just thought that Sebe will be staying up all night for a week.
When he came I would wake up and he would go straight to sleep.
I get up when I wake up. It's ten o'clock! Sebe hasn't come home yet? I looked at the food in front of me on the table and saw that it had not been touched.
I suddenly felt chest pain and anger. I sighed and ate alone. I do not know what to do.
I am so stressed!
When I finished, I went to bed. I hugged the pillow beside me.Middle of the night i felt the bedroom door open.
I was speechless. I kept my eyes closed and tried to hear his movements. I wanted to shout at him and sigh because of what I had seen before but I didn't.
Holding the blanket tightly to my body was at once sinking the bed. It's just a sign that he's turned away from me.
I immediately inhaled the smell of alcohol on him. I immediately felt the touch of his palm on my cheek.
I almost choked when I felt the warmth of his palm gently caressing me. The feeling that we are together under the same roof but I seem to be lacking.
He's being so cold. I am not used to this.
Maybe I need to prepare myself for what I will learn. I know I don't know something.
He’s the only one I’m waiting for to tell me.
That night was over as far as I could. Waking up in the morning is still the same. I haven't reached him yet. He always leaves early.
But I was served breakfast, vitamins and milk in the dining area. Even if he's cold. He remained caring for me.
I immediately looked at my cellphone when it rang.
From Sebe: Goodmorning baby.
Eat your food and drink your vitamins. I love you.
I don't know if I'm smiling or what. But I couldn't help but smile.
I realized that it was no joke to be pregnant. The many taboos. Always moody. When lunch came I decided to cook and bring Sebe food.
I put the marinated chicken and rice in the tupperware and put in the eco bag.
I also adjusted myself. I wore a pink dress and pink dollshoes.
I looked at my reflection in the mirror. Why did I lose weight? My eyesbags are thin and big.
I'm taking vitamins. I also saw that I was pale. I just ignored my appearance and went to the HMC building.
I smile at those who smile at me. Congratulations to the congratulations.
"Good noon mom." Sebe's secretary greeted me.
"Good then." Bati ko.
"Sir Sebe isn't there ma'am." He told me. I raised an eyebrow.
He seemed scared of me. I also can't remember that I talked to him properly. Often it was until I greeted and just nodded.
"Where is he?" I asked seriously.
"Ma'am is in the conference room! They had a meeting earlier. But then maybe he's still there.".
"Okay where is that?"
"Just go straight and turn left at the first door" She smiled.
"Thanks." I said and immediately turned away.
My forehead was sweating and I was nervous. every step feels like I’m going to explode.I don’t know why. Turning I saw the golden door immediately.
I inhaled deeply and slowly opened it.
Claire was sitting there on the washing table right in front of the many chairs in front.
Sebe and Claire fucking kissing. I could see Claire's grip on Sebe's nape and Sebe's grip on Claire's waist.
They're looked so busy huh? That even when I opened the door they hadn’t heard me yet?
I feel like I'm about to explode. my cheeks grew hot and I was angry. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes.
I almost dropped the eco bag with food. They immediately looked at me. I could see Sebe pushing Claire.
They both turned pale.
My eyes glazed over as I looked at them.
"Done?" It seemed to be a whisper because I couldn’t help but scream in pain.
"Baby .." Sebe immediately approached me to hold me.
I waited for him to come closer and slapped his face with force.
"You're pigs! So here it is? Why You're so cold to me?" I shouted when I finally exploded.
I can see the scar of my slap on Sebe's face. That red pate his neck is also red for I don't know why.
I immediately turned to Claire and had no thought of approaching and over her cleavage. I tore his clothes and tweaked him.
Her scream was useless because of my anger. Her chest came out because her upper body was torn. Immediately his hand swayed there.
"Please let me explain!" Sebe and I forcefully pull away from Claire.
I immediately pushed him and slapped him again.
"Don't touch me!" I shout.
My face was wet with my own tears. He immediately looked up and cursed.
"Please ... Listen to me .."
"Hear what ?!" I shouted back.
"How did you fool me? Huh?"
He tried to hug me but I pulled him away.
"Baby .." He pleaded.
I shook. Claire turned around. She was crying and trying to hide her chest.
"What? That's fun?" I shouted and turned to Sebe.
"Because I don't want to!"
"I don't want to see your face anymore! From now on you won't see us! From now on,
I swear he doesn’t know you as a father! ”I shouted.
Sebe shook his head and I could see the criticism in his eyes.
"Fuck, baby. You can't do this. I love you so much .." he almost knelt down in front of me.
"I can." Where I said. "And we're done."
I parted his hand.
"No wedding is going to happen!"
I immediately left the conference room. I do not know what to do anymore.