Kai POV
Tish is trying her best to cheer me up. She is waltzing into the bedroom in different outfits. Each one is more inappropriate than the last. The smirk on her face lets me know she knows what she is doing. She is waiting for me to tell her they are all wrong for Kaden's Alpha Initiation Ceremony, but I am not in the mood.
She disappears out of the room and returns just a few moments later. She is wearing nothing but a black corset, a thong, and a garter belt. My cock springs to life, but I try to ignore it. I still don't trust myself with Tish yet. I worry that I will hurt her.
There are moments during the day when I look at her, and I am not sure who she is. Then, her honey scent hits me, and I remember. I just worry that one day, I won't remember, and I will do something horrible. When I don't remember who she is, the most terrifying thoughts run through my mind. A voice in my mind tells me to kill her because she is an outsider.
I am so lost in my thoughts that I don't notice Tish walking toward me. She gently pushes me back on the bed and straddles me. Her hips wiggle on my cock, and my hands grip her hips to hold her still.
"Slow," I remind her.
"I know," she frowns. "You just haven't said anything about my outfit for the ceremony."
I lift her off me and get to my feet. I am running my fingers through my hair, trying to calm the storm that is raging inside of me. I am pacing in front of her. I know I won't be able to fend her off forever, but tonight is not the night. Not when my brother is getting a title that belongs to both of us.
The doctors say I am not ready for the title and that my moods are still too volatile. I haven't lost my cool in days, yet my birthright is still being held from me. Tish runs her hands over my shoulders, and the tingles of the mate bond do little to soothe me. I pull her hands off my shoulder and disappear into the small closet.
I push her clothes around, looking for the black dress I bought for her the first night she arrived. I finally find it shoved in the back. It is understated and perfect for the occasion. As I back out of the closet, I see Tish sitting on the bed. Her eyes are a little red and puffy, but there are no tears. I toss the dress in her direction, and it lands on the bed beside her.
She wrinkles her nose as she looks at the dress. "This is awful," she groans.
"It is the perfect dress for a Luna," I tell him.
"I am not the Luna," she reminds me.
"But you will be," I reply. "You should get ready. The ceremony will be starting soon."
She opens her mouth to speak to me but closes it promptly. Grabbing the dress off the bed, she storms into the small bathroom across the hall and slams the door shut. A wave of guilt washes over me. I haven't exactly been the best mate since I got out of the hospital.
I knock on the bathroom door, but she doesn't answer. Once again, I have fucked up. I lean up against the bathroom door and pout. The front door of the cabin opens, and Kaden comes in. There is sweat on his brow. He does not look good.
"What's up?" He asks nervously.
"What's up with you?" I respond.
"Nothing," he mumbles. "Just looking for Tish."
"I think she is changing," I tell him.
Suddenly, the bathroom door opens, and I fall back onto the floor. My head hits the floor roughly, and stars flash behind my eyelids. I rub the knot forming on the back of my head, and my eyes flutter open awkwardly. Through my blurred vision, I see Tish's green eyes staring down at me.
Slowly, I pull myself to my feet and brace myself against the sink. Tish approaches me slowly from behind and rubs her fingers against the back of my head. The pain eases under her touch, and I lean back into her. I can't believe I have been denying us these interactions.
Turning around, I look Tish up and down. She has put on the black dress and she looks absolutely stunning in it. It is the appropriate length, but it hugs her curves perfectly. She looks classy and sexy.
I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her close to me. Her body crashes against mine, and she giggles. My lips come crashing down on hers for the first time in too long. The kiss is hungry and passionate. Our tongues tangle together, and she moans into my mouth. I lift her up by her hips, and she wraps her legs around my waist.
Our lips never part as I carry her into the bedroom. I toss her onto the bed and slide my hands up her thighs. I unsnap the clips of her garter and slide her panties down. She is breathing heavily, but she isn't looking at me. I turn my head, and Kaden is standing in the hallway watching us. His arms are fidgeting by his side and he looks like he might cry.
I glance back at Tish, and she shrugs her shoulders. I lean back over her and whisper into her ear. "Today shouldn't be about us. But I promise to fuck you into next week later."
Tish pushes her lip out in a pout as I slide her panties back onto her, but I know she understands. I pull her to her feet, and she hikes up her skirt, fixing her garter. When she is finished, she shimmies her skirt back down over her hips and spins in front of Kaden.
"Do I look appropriate?" She smiles.
"You look lovely," he smiles in return, but it doesn't reach the corner of his eyes.
"Are you ready?" I ask him.
"No," Kaden answers. "We were supposed to do this together. I don't know how to do this on my own."
"You have already been doing it on your own," I remind him. "You were always more suited for this title than me."
"That's not true," he whispers. "We were meant to do this together."
"Well," Tish sighs. "Someone has to be Alpha."
She holds out her hands for Kaden and me. When we take hold of each other's hands, electricity travels through us all, causing Tish to gasp. The bond between the three of us is growing stronger, but Tish doesn't give us time to dwell on it.
"We are going to be late," she says. "The Alpha Ceremony is beginning."