Morena’s P O V
“Morena, how long are you going to ignore me?” Leander asks as I do ignore him and stare at the wall in front of me. I felt devoid of all emotions with Osk gone.
“It has been days. Just say a few words.” He begs. I still give him the cold shoulder not even sparing him a glance. I hear him curse as he storms out of the room. I take a breath of relief that he was gone. I could not stand him next to me. But my pleasure does not last long as he storms back in and sits on the chair he usually sits in, right next to my bed.
A few minutes later, there is a knock on the door and Asher comes in. He has been visiting me every day. He would just sit silently next to me and I appreciated the fact that he did not push me to talk. unlike his asshole brother.
“Are you okay?3 he asks sitting on the edge of the bed right by my feet. it seems this time he was not going to keep quite. I was sure Leander was the one who called for him when he left just now.
“Yes.” I curtly reply and they both seem surprised I actually answered.
“I am glad to hear that.” He says giving his brother a look. Leander was probably going to jump into the conversation. “Anything you want?” he adds.
“Osk is gone.” I simply say.
“What?” He asks not understanding.
“My wolf is gone. I have been calling for her ever since I woke up but she does not answer me. I can not even feel her presence.” I choke out. “She is gone and it’s all because of him.” I add and I hear him take a large intake of breath.
“You are not sure if she is gone yet, Morena. let’s not jump to conclusions just yet.” Asher says trying to calm me down. “You do not know that. I said I can not feel her. I feel empty.” I bite out with rage.
“You have been through a lot, Morena. Your wolf has been through a lot. Some wolves just withdraw when the go through a traumatic injury. They need time to heal so they go away.” He explains. But his words fall on deaf ears.
“Morena, sweet heart listen to me. I have lost my wolf once. He went away after I lost my mate and I thought that he will never come back.” He says softly and my eyes widen at his revelation. Asher had a mate? I never knew. He never showed that he was someone who lost their significant other. Poor thing must have gone through a lot. It must be excruciating for him to tell me this. I must be in a miserable state for him tp pity me enough to tell me this.
“He came back?” I ask hopefully with a teary voice.
“He did. I was his partner. His mate might have passed away but he was a part of me. He was bound to come back to me. he just needed some time to lick his own wounds before coming back to help me heal mine.” He calmly say but I can see the pain flash in his gaze.
“So she will come back?” I whimper out.
“She will. You both need time to heal. You have been through a lot. If she was completely gone Asolf would have felt it and he would have gone mad. The fact that Leander is next to you in one piece is only a sign that your wolf is okay, Morena.” He reassures me before excusing himself. he probably wanted to be alone for a bit. Talking about it to me must have opened a lot of closed wounds. I appreciated that he cared enough to open up to me. I now had hope that Osk would eventually get back. I just needed to be patient enough and wait for her.
“Morena...” I hear Leander call as he places his hand on mine. I quickly jerk it off. Finally Having rough strength in my body to push him away. “At least look at me.” He begs. I turn my gaze to him. I felt empty towards him. I felt nothing. I blocked everything out of my heart and mind when it came to him.
“I apologize.” He says when he realizes I was not going to say anything to him. “I was taken over by rage that day. I could not see in front of me. I am not making excuses. I had a lot going on in my pack and everything was a risk to the safety of my people. I was told that I would never have a mate as soon as I shifted and the reality of my pitch black wolf was revealed to the world. THat thought has been drilled into my head ever since I was sixteen.” He explains. I do not answer him so he takes that as a sign to continue talking.
“I made the biggest mistake of my life when I threw you in that pit.” He says and I visibly cringe at the memory of him telling me goodbye as he pushed me down with no sign of mercy. “I know no words would make up for my fuck ups, baby girl but I am ready to prove them right. I will spend the rest of my days proving that I am worthy of your forgiveness. I am spending my days working for my redemption. I might have a fucked up and twisted mind, Morena but that is on me and I am sorry you got harmed in the crossfire. I would do anything you want, you just have to say the word.” He continues.
“I just wanted to be your mate” I interrupted him. “I just wanted you to be my mate. and now you are not ever worthy of that.” I say with finality as I turn to stare at the wall in front of me.