The ride to the track for testing didn’t contain its typical edge of excitement. In fact, the mood was far more somber than normal. To my left Jordan stared out the windshield, to my right Aiden out his window. There was a huge elephant in the room…and I was it.
“I figured you’d be mad.” I nudged my brother’s arm.
He blinked once and looked at me as if I’d spoken in tongues. “Mad about what?”
“About Jordan and me.” I picked at my cuticles.
Jordan laughed. “Yeah, I wasn’t expecting that to go smoothly either.”
“Jesus.” Aiden snorted. “Do I look stupid?” “Is that a trick question?” Jordan’s brow lifted.
“Ha ha—no. I’ve been waiting on this one since before I married Wendy.”
“Really?” I was genuinely surprised.
“Yeah, I can’t believe anyone is surprised by the two of you hooking up. It was bound to happen sooner or later.” He grinned over at Jordan. “The rest doesn’t need to be said.”
“What?” When neither answered me I needled Jordan with my elbow. “What doesn’t need to be said?” He squeezed my knee. “If I hurt you, he’ll kill me.” One look at the devilish twist of my brother’s mouth and I understood why it didn’t need to be said.
I’d never thought about it before, but there was a wild streak to Aiden Casey. A part of my brother that could never and would never be tamed. He would rip Jordan apart if he had to.
The night was an off night for everyone, Jordan’s time slips proved it. Not that he’d ever been a huge fan of testing at the track. We were all on edge, all worried about Devin and my sister. Nobody’s head was in the game.
“It’s a street car, meant to be raced on the street,” Jordan grumbled as he sat in the car with a laptop propped on his knees.
“There’s some rubber on it man, the street can’t get any better,” Vic argued.
It wasn’t the surface or the car that was the problem. It was the driver. The look Aiden shot me over the roof of the car was in agreement. Jordan hadn’t been right since we’d got word that Devin was testing almost a hundred miles away to avoid us. Devin had never tested without Jordan before and it weighed heavily on him.
“Hey.” I leaned in the open door. “You all right?”
He glanced at me before pulling off the hat and rubbing his head. “No, not really.”
I closed the distance between us and pressed my lips against his. My kiss was soft and meant to be fleeting, but he pulled me close and held me there. Jordan took his time with it, as if he were committing every part of my mouth to memory.
“Cut it out!” Aiden called from the other side of the car. “You can’t kiss my sister in front of me. It’s weird.”
Jordan’s response was to kiss me again, this time
slower, more lingering, and with a considerable bit more tongue than before.
Aiden groaned and tossed a wrench, loudly, into a tool box.
“I’m with him, it’s going to take some getting used to,” Vic commiserated.
Jordan eyed me in an almost predatory fashion as I moved out of the car so I didn’t offend my brother’s sensibilities. “You’re gonna have to get used to it. I like kissing your sister, Aiden.”
I burst into giggles at my brother’s blank stare. The pressure that surrounded us started to give. From then on, everything was much more natural.
The last few test hits were much better, both car and driver responded aggressively. On the last one, Aiden whooped and tossed a fist up in the air before he jogged to the trailer. “That’s how you win SKS, baby!” He shouted at Jordan over the roar of the engine.
It could be this way. I’d never believed I could feel like this. There were some things missing, but there was happiness. I could be happy. I could have love. My sister, Devin, the rest of it would work itself out.
I could have my own taste of happily ever after.
I spent the rest of the week at Jordan’s. It made things easier for my parents without the tension of feuding sisters under the same roof. Breanna couldn’t change who she was and neither could I. My dad was right. She was hurt. She’d move on. It would just take time. I could give her time.
Spending every night with Jordan, falling asleep with him wrapped around me, and waking up to him every morning made me forget everything else. I lived in a bubble of Jordan and SKS preparations. I carried my invisible scars alone for long enough. I deserved some sort of reward.
My nights with Jordan were that reward.
Still, the biggest scar that remained was self-doubt. “Do you regret this?”
He glanced at me as he leaned over the engine. “Nah, either they’ll get over it or they won’t.” As with so many other things, that was the end of it as far as Jordan was concerned.
He had no regrets being with me.
I spent the rest of the day helping Jordan and Vic. The prize money for SKS wasn’t the reason any of these guys raced. It was barely enough money to put a new set of tires on any of these cars. They raced for the title King of the Streets, for the pride and bragging rights. In the end it would come down to one of a select few with one of those being Jordan.
For the first time, I’d be going to Street King Showdown without my sister. Breanna’s absence over the week had made it clear she wouldn’t be going with us.
Devin wouldn’t be going with us either. We had heard through the grapevine that he’d found himself a new crew. Making sure it was filled with people Jordan didn’t care much for. It was blatant disrespect executed with purpose.
I could practically peel away the nervous energy that flowed off Jordan as we walked to see my parents.
My sister’s truck was long gone.
“Way!” Luke screamed, his little mouth struggling to form the “r” sound. A bolt of excitement hit me. My nephew had never said my name before. Across the kitchen, my brother grinned proudly.
“Hey, Luke-bug.” I kissed his soft, chubby cheek and hugged him close. The kids made dealing with their mother bearable.
Wendy sat at the kitchen table, patting the back of the baby she held to her shoulder. Never sparing me a glance, she looked forlornly out the window. I pitied her. Wendy would never be happy, she’d never know what I’d found. And it wasn’t for lack of trying on Aiden’s part.
Aiden bent and took the baby from her. There was a sadness in his eyes. Until he looked down at the baby in his arms that drifted off to sleep. “There’s my girl,” he whispered to her.
Jordan’s fingertips rested against the small of my back, steadying me. Regardless of my sister’s antics, this was my family too. They always would be.
“Da—ee!” Luke squealed.
“Yup, that’s him.” I leaned in to place a kiss on my brother’s cheek. “You ready?”
When Wendy abruptly stood and snatched her purse, we were all caught off guard. “I forgot something at the house. I’ll meet you at the track.”
Aiden watched her leave, without trying to stop
her.
“What was that about?” Jordan leaned a hip against
the kitchen counter beside my dad.
“Man, I can’t keep up anymore. I probably didn’t say good morning in the right tone of voice or notice the new shade of nail polish on her big toe.” Aiden rolled his eyes for emphasis.
“Maybe it’s the hair?” I tucked a strand behind his ear, marveling that it had grown that long so quickly.
“Oh yeah, she hates the hair.”
“Does it matter what she thinks of it?” Jordan opened the soda my dad handed him.
Aiden’s unhappiness was obvious. But there was something else I had missed. I saw it now when he looked at his daughter then tweaked his son’s nose. The spark that made my brother who he was had been missing for a long time. But, it was there again, starting to shine beneath the surface.
Mentally I cheered. I’d never want a relationship or marriage to fail, but I truly believed this one was doomed from the beginning. Wendy wasn’t made to be a mother or a wife. Aiden and the babies deserved better.
When I put my toddler nephew down, he teetered over to my dad, who tweaked his nose just as Aiden had.
“Every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check to see if it’s the morning she’s finally left.” Aiden lacked any real emotion when he said it, as if he’d already given up.
“Oh, Aiden.” My mom sighed as she appeared in the doorway from the living room. She kissed my brother’s head before scooping the baby from his arms.
“Good luck, be safe,” she called after us as we left, her gaze settling on Jordan. The look of love in my mom’s eyes as she waved goodbye to us said he was as much hers as her own children. He always would be. From the gentle smile on his face, I figured he knew.
The four of us crammed into Jordan’s truck on the way to the track. There was one critical piece of our life, our family, missing.
“Has anyone heard from Devin?” I looked from one to the other, getting nothing in response.