Katia pov
“What happened Katia? Why did he reject us?” Aza whimpered in the corner of my mind. “What was wrong with us?”
“I don’t know Aza. I was so afraid of this. The pain, it hurts so much.” Tears were running down my face smearing the fake make up and blood still on my face. We have no strength to shift, and we just keep running on pure heart break and pain.
My wolfie is devastated she had so much faith in out fated mate. He didn’t even try to get to know us. “Why Katia? Why? We are small but we are a woman grown now. He does not know what we have been through, but he called us weak.”
“He believed us to be a child playing at make believe, Wolfie. Why could he not see us? What is wrong with us? Where is our love? Our happy ending?” Wolfie and her girly that is what we are. What we have always been. Aza my loving Wolfie has always been with me ever since I can remember she has been in my mind talking to me and giving me all the love, she could. I have done the same for her. This world has shown us that there is nothing and no one out there for us. That we will never be that perfect all adoring love from a fated mate. We weren’t good enough for him. He didn’t want us.
“Wolfie, Kelp keeps talking about how special we are because of this moon touched thing. I think it is only special for some people. Not for us. I think it is some kind of punishment for us. If this is special, it is too painful, and I would have liked to try normal instead.”
“I don’t know girly, I am tired. How about you? I am tired of us having to fight all the time for our life. I am tired of watching them hurt you. We have always tried to be good. You did everything those people who raised you told you to do. We went without food. Froze during the winter without the right clothing. You have done nothing to earn the treatment you found at any of their hands.” The pain in Wolfie’s voice was heartbreaking and I could feel my heart shattering even more. It was like shards of glass stabbing into and ripping my heart to pieces. Somehow together we continued to stay upright and gather strength to keep going.
Mark, Kelp, Doc, Coral, Eric, and the rest can feel the pain we are feeling. We can hear them yelling at us. We know they love us, but it is not the love we were promised by the fated mate bond. It is not enough. All of it, all the pain from the last almost seventeen years is coming together and striking at us. It is unbearable and we want to fall to our knees. Just lay there and let it destroy us. Aza and I don’t, we continue running.
Running with everything we will never have, because of his rejection, going through our minds. No love, no laughter, no romance, no love making, no kisses and hugs, no children, no sweet promises of a wonderful future, no anticipation of my love’s return when he must go away without me, no holiday and birthday celebrations together. No memories to cherish when we eventually pass from this earth.
There is no future for Aza and me. Nothing but darkness, pain, sadness, hurt, confusion, and wanting to know why we were not good enough. “Aza, I think it is finally time to just give up. I don’t want to do this life anymore. I fought like you, Kelp, and Mark, asked me too. I waited for our fated mate and there was still nothing. I just want the never-ending pain to stop.”
“I agree with you, Katia. It is never going to be different for us. No matter what we do. How much we stay quiet, still, or try to live and have a life, it will never be what we deserve.” Our mind and body are weakening the longer we keep the pace we have been at. Aza and I have run for so long and far we have no clue where we are. Our legs feel like they are on fire, but that pain is nothing compared to the pain of the mate broken mate bond in my chest. It throbs with white how pain shooting like lightening through my heart.
We no longer hear the others yelling for us. We left them behind. They will be fine without us. They will stay together and continue to form the new Moon Touched pack. Aza and I will watch from the other realm as they find their happiness with a new Alpha and hopefully it will be a kinder world for them. The tears are still rolling down my cheeks. I guess you never run out when your heart is shattered, and you have nothing left.
“I hope they all understand, Wolfie. I don’t want them to cry for us. I hope they remember us with love and no that we tried.”
“They will girly. Mark and Kelp will not let anything tarnish us. They will sing our praises until we meet them again. You know they will.”
In the distance, there was a rush of loud running water and what sounded like laughter in the background. Glancing skyward there is a huge waterfall. Any other time Aza and I would have taken the time to admire its beauty. Not this time. This is the answer to our problem. We just keep running and let the majestic beauty of the waterfall sweep us away.
We came to a cliff with a waterfall. The pain is unbearable, and the hurt just keeps pounding at me. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, all there is for us is torture, hate, and rejection. I need it to stop. My sweet girl, and I just want peace.
"I'm sorry, my sweet girl," I say to my wolf. I'm sorry you have been stuck with me and have had to suffer everything I have, I think. She whispers," it's not your fault, Katia."
The edge of the cliff to the waterfall is approaching fast. I keep pumping my legs and arms letting all the torture, hate, and rejection continue to feed the pain and propel us forwards. Spreading my arms wide, with tears still streaming down my face, I leap and fall, not making a sound, waiting for sweet oblivion where we feel nothing ever again. "I love you, my sweet girl! Until we meet again, " I say to my wolf. She replied just before we hit the water, "I love you too, Katia. I have never regretted a moment with you."