Molly
It's early morning but I've not been able to sleep too well so while everyone is still in bed I decide to head downstairs and make a cup of coffee and enjoy it on the porch, maybe even watch the sun coming up. It's a little chilly so I grab the throw blanket that's on the swinging chair and wrap it around me before holding on to my coffee with both hands while leaning on the wooden fence that runs around the outside of the porch.
As I enjoy my coffee my mind begins to wonder. It's been five days since I agreed to give me and Christian a chance and so far I don't regret a thing. It's crazy to see such a different side to him now but I've quickly come to realize that he thought he was protecting his family and I can't say that I wouldn't act the same in that situation.
However, the person that I first came to know wasn't the real Christian, that I know very well now. The real Christian is amazing, he's caring and kind and so so sweet but he also has an edge that makes me think that he'll be quite the storm in the bedroom and even though we haven't experienced that side of our relationship yet I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't hoping that we will get there soon.
When I look back at this past year it seems crazy to me to think about how I was convinced that I would never meet anyone else or would be willing to try with anyone and as much as I was second-guessing Chrsitsam, I am so happy that I agreed to try. I've been more happier in the last five days than I have been this whole past year.
I was a little worried about how his family would take it but they have been amazing as always and I feel bad for ever doubting them. They don't treat me any differently even Jack still likes to flirt with me which drives Christian up the wall and makes me enjoy it all the more.
And the kids? My God do I love being around them. I loved being around them before but it feels different now and even more special. I want to make a good bond with them because if this does work out then I'm going to be in their lives forever and I want them to be happy with me around. I was worried after how Amy has treated them that they wouldn't want to build any kind of relationship with me even a friendship but I couldn't have been further from the truth. Sophie has been clued to me day and night and I've loved every moment.
The back door creaking behind me makes me jump slightly, it's just gone 4 am, who the hell is awake? "Good morning darlin'." As always a smile takes over my face when I see Chris walking towards me. He's only wearing his pyjama bottoms and a hoody and yet he looks God dam yummy. His hair is all messed up from sleep and yet somehow I prefer it to when it's been brushed. "Good morning."
He walks up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. "Why are you up so early? Are you ok?" He brings one of his hands up from my waist and takes my cup of me and helps himself to some of my coffee. Once he's satisfied he hands it back and puts his arm back around my waist. "I'm ok, just couldn't sleep. Why are you up?" He doesn't seem happy with my answer. "I woke up to use the bathroom and came down for a drink, saw you through the kitchen window."
He grabs hold of my hips and spins me around so that I'm facing him and takes another drink of my coffee before placing a gentle kiss on my lips. "So why couldn't you sleep, sweetheart? And before you try and palm me off with some bull crap, don't because I will know." He's quickly learned that I'm not very good at lying to him, not since we've been together anyway. The stuff I was keeping from him before was different and he understands that but we've talked about it all and he has even told me everything about him and Amy and I have to admit that it feels good to be on a somewhat even keel from the very start of our relationship.
"It's just... I don't sleep very well anymore. not since the fire." A look of understanding comes over his face as he pulls me into him and gently rubs my back. "That makes sense. Why didn't you say anything? Does Tom know?" I shrug my shoulders then take a sip of my coffee and enjoy the strong taste, I don't know what brand this is but I like it. "I don't know, didn't really think about it. Tom used to know, he used to stay awake with me. We both thought it would get easier but when I realized that it wasn't getting any easier I pretend that it had so Tom would sleep because I felt guilty keeping him up."
"That night I came into your room... you suffer from nightmares of that night don't you?" I nod but stay quiet for a moment. “It's strange because most days now I barely think about it but it seems as soon as I'm sleeping it all comes back to me and I relive it over and over again. They did stop for a while but.. It....” I stop talking and feel embarrassed about what I almost said.
“It what Molls?” I shake my head and look down. He hocks his finger under my chin and lifts it until I have no choice but to look at him. "Talk to me baby, there's nothing you can't tell me." I already know this and we have already agreed to be honest with each other no matter what, after both of our marriages we both need and want it but still, embarrassment is gripping me hard right now.
"After Archie died Tom stayed with me every night and we... shared a bed then when we went traveling we shared a bed most nights and I found that they settled but... since... since we've been back they have come back worse." I look down at the floor feeling like a child.
"Look at me, sweetheart." I shake my head no. I'm feeling like a child so I may as well act like one. "Molly, please look at me." His voice is soft and pleading and doesn't leave me much choice so I look up at him and instantly get greeted with a kiss. "There's nothing wrong with that Molls."
"I'm a grown woman and I'm admitting that I have nightmares when I sleep in a bed on my own? I'm like a bloody child Chris!" He shakes his head but doesn't say a word instead his lips wrap around mine leaving me speechless and more than turned on. Fuck this man can kiss!
Christian
Talking to Molly this morning was hard but the moment I saw her out on the porch at four in the morning I knew something was wrong plus Tom mentioned to me yesterday that he didn't think that she had been sleeping much in the night. I'm glad she told me what was wrong and I get why she didn't want to say anything but I do not want any secrets between us no matter how small they may seem to one of us although I don't actually think her suffering is a small thing at all in fact, I'm not surprised, she went through a lot that night but I'm going to put a stop to it. There won't be any more nightmares, not if I can help it.
"You ready Chris?" Tom walks into the kitchen with my dad right behind him both looking just as eager as I am to leave. The day has finally come, today Amy signs over the full rights to my kids and stops fucking with them and fuck does it feel surreal. Thinking of today has me thinking about the money, and how Amy can sell her own kids I will never know but it also makes me think about Molly. We haven't spoken too much about it yet but she has promised to tell me all about it and her company once things are done with Amy and they will be today no matter what!
"Yeah, just give me a sec and I'll meet you out front." They both nod and head through the house as I step out of the back door and onto the porch. "Hey, how are you feeling?" Molly's beautiful smile makes my heart pound and her body in that little red summer dress makes my dick hard, I know it's not the time for it but my dick doesn't seem to care. "I'm ok darlin' you ready to go?" She steps towards me and I quickly reach out and take her hand. "You sure you want me to come? I don't mind waiting behind."
"I'm sure baby, truth be told I think I need you there with me." Her smile gets bigger as she gently squeezes my hand and then reaches up to place one sweet kiss on my lips. That's the first time that she's sought me out for a kiss and fuck do I love it. I always love how short she is and the fact that she has to reach up to kiss me. I also love the shy look that she's got on her face right now. "Don't be shy sweetheart, you can kiss me anytime you want!" I lean down and give her another kiss then pull her down the porch and around the front to the truck.
"What's up buttercup!" Jack shouts from the passenger seat of my truck where he's sitting next to Tom making Molly laugh. "What are you doing here dipshit? I thought you were down at the bar today with Callum?" They've both been working tirelessly to get the bar back up and running and luckily there wasn't too much damage to it so they reckon it will be ready to open back up in just a few days. "He's gone to get some supplies that we need and Zack's gone with Mom to take the kids out for a few hours so I thought I'd tag along, plus there's a good chance of either Tom or Molly slapping that bitch today and I don't want to miss out on that show!"
I roll my eyes at his answer but can't help but laugh at him. "Fine but one of you get in the back, Molls is sitting up front." He gets a sly smirk on his face and I instantly know that I'm going to want to push him in just a few seconds. "Molly can sit on my lap, that's no problem with me." And there it is. "Fuck off knobhead!" Everyone starts laughing including Jack as he hops out of the track and I help Molls in.
I can't believe this day is actually here. Today I get all the rights to my babies and their useless waste of a space of a mother can finally do one and leave them alone. I'm not going to let her ruin their lives any more than she has already tried to. They will be raised in a loving home with a crazy but loving family and hopefully, I'll have Molly by my side. Let's get this done!