Molly
Last night with Christian was incredible. Sex with Archie was always good, real good but with Christian... Fuck it was hot, intense, passionate, and just something that I've never experienced before. The tingle of soreness that I have between my legs whenever I walk around also makes me smile as it's a constant reminder of one incredible night.
I don't remember anything after we had sex other than him laying down beside me then I must have passed out. The man literally fucked me to sleep, yeah that's new for me too. He was gone when I woke up but after seeing the time I realized that I had slept in something that I haven't done in a long time and he was gone on the school run so I decided to get a shower while he was not here.
I step inside the shower and hmm as the hot water relaxes my aching muscles, I don't remember ever aching so much after sex before so either I'm getting old now or Christian is a God in bed. If last night was anything to go by then I'm going with the latter and from what he said last night about it only getting better from here on out I have a feeling that I'm going to have many aching muscles... often and I can't wait.
I take my time washing my hair and shaving all my areas before taking some of his body wash and squirting it onto a scrubby, I'm sure he won't mind. I take my time washing all my body and aching muscles when a realisation hits me and I find myself standing under the water frozen in place. "Oh, shit! fuck! shit! fuck!" I drop the scrubby onto the shower floor and press my hands on the shower wall to support myself as I struggle to hold myself up. "Molly, you stupid girl!"
"Molly, are you ok babe?" I spin around to find Chrsitan standing on the other side of the glass shower door watching me. Oh great! he properly thinks I'm crazy on top of stupid now, well-done Molls! "Yeah, I'm fine, just grabbing a quick shower. I hope you don't mind me using yours, Tom was in ours." I try to sound cheerful and act like nothing is wrong but I'm not sure how well I actually do.
"Of course not darling, You can use it anytime you want." I smile at him and nod and turn my attention back to my shower and make quick work of washing up so I can get out only I'm taken aback when I hear the door to the shower open and two strong arms slip around my waist. I feel his hot breath on my neck as he places a kiss there then shiver when he reaches my ear and whispers.
"Now that we have that covered, would you like to tell me what's wrong sweetheart?" He sounds concerned but his tone also tells me that he's not going to just let it go, he knows something's up and he's not going to back down until he gets what he wants but still, I try. "Nothing's wrong." I try to turn sideways so that I can get past him and out of here but he just uses my movements to his advantage as he turns me to face him and tightens his hold on my hips. Shit! "I thought we wouldn't lie to each other Molls. Is this about last night?"
He's right and I never want to lie to him so I nod my head but don't say a word. Suddenly a sad look comes over his face quickly holding my attention. "Do you regret it? I know I said that once we went all the way that you were mine forever but I wouldn't ever force you to be with me no matter how much I want it." Oh shit, he thinks it's about him. Fuck! "No, no that's not what this is I promise. I... I really enjoyed last night." I feel my cheeks heat up with my words but assuring him is worth any embarrassment that I feel.
I watch his shoulders sag with relief as a beautiful smile covers his whole face. "Oh, thank fuck for that!" I can't help but let out a little laugh at his words and step in to give him a gentle kiss. "So what's wrong baby?" I lean my head into his chest hiding my face from him as more embarrassment washes over me. I feel one of his hands leave my hip and seconds later he's cupping the back of my head. "I don't want to say." Between the noise of the water hitting the shower floor and my face being squashed into his chest I'd imagine it's difficult for him to hear me.
"I don't want you hating me." I know he hears that as I feel his body tense up then he gently pushes me back a little and lifts my chin with his thumb so that he can see my face. "Why the hell would I hate you, sweetheart?" He doesn't sound angry but he's definitely not happy either. I close my eyes as I rush out the words. "We didn't use anything last night and I'm not on any birth control. I stopped after Archie... And I've not needed it since. I'm so sorry Christian. I swear I didn't do it on purpose!"
I brace myself to look at him ready for his anger but instead, he looks shocked and then realization seems to hit him. "Fuck! We didn't use a condom. I'm so sorry Molls I don't know how I forgot, I've never forgotten before!" Wait he's apologising to me? I'm confused! "I was so caught up in the moment that I didn't even think about it, that's how crazy you drive me, how badly I want you all the time. I didn't even think about it this morning."
I blow out a breath that I hadn't realized I was holding. "Why did you think I would be mad at you, baby?" I shrug my shoulders. "I don't know. I guess I thought that you would have assumed that I was on something because I didn't mention anything." He shakes his head then reaches around me turns off the shower then wraps us both in towels before taking my hand and pulling me out of the shower. He walks over to the sink then grips my hips and lifts me up sitting me on the unit and placing his hands on either side of me while leaning down so that we are face to face.
"That's not how this works, sweetheart. You are not solely to blame for this. We both forgot about any protection so it's on us both not just you ok?" I give him a nod but I still feel bad about it and scared... really scared. "Now the question is where do we go from here?" If only I knew. "I don't know." He walks over to the towel warmer next to the shower and picks up another towel before coming back over to me and gently drying my hair with it while he seems to be thinking. "We'll, first of I'm clean. I got checked after I left Amy and I've always used protection since." That's good to know but for some reason, I hadn't even thought about the idea of catching something from him.
"I'm clean too. I got checked at my annual exam after Archie died and haven't been with anyone until you." He nods but doesn't seem surprised which is nice to know but it's not the real issue here, we both know that. "What if..." I swallow the lump in my throat as I struggle to talk but still, I can't get the words out. "What if you get pregnant?" He's so calm as he asks me but inside I'm freaking the fuck out, maybe he's freaking out inside too. I nod but stay quiet. "We could get you the morning-after pill but only if you want to?"
"I... I don't really want to take that. I have taken it before, years ago, not long after Archie and I got together and it made me really Ill but this is way too soon. you... I... What am I saying? This isn't a conversation that we have had yet, obviously. You may not even want more kids! Oh, Jesus, I'm going to be a single parent. I don't think I can do it alone. Am I even ready for this? What if I ca-"
"Molly, darling stop!" He gently grabs my shoulders before running his hands up and down them while I go bright red from the embarrassment of my rant. Well done Molls! "So many things to answer. Ok, so if it made you Ill before then you can't take it, I won't have you suffer. No, we haven't had that conversation yet and I have said many times that I am done with having kids but that's because I didn't think I would find anyone that I would want them with and I know this is soon Molls, but with you, I could see myself having more kids. Lastly, you will never be a single parent, not if I have anything to do with it."
"I don't... What are you saying, Chris?" He gives me a small smile then leans in and leaves a small kiss on my forehead. "I think we should just let nature take it's course. I'm not saying let's try for a baby yet but if we are meant to have a baby this soon then I say let it be but I will do whatever you want with this Molly, this is your body and your choice. Do you even want kids?"
"I've always wanted kids, maybe not this way but I know that I don't want to take the morning-after pill but Chris, are you sure about this? If I'm pregnant, are you sure you're ok with it? Are you sure that we will be ok? We've been together one day... This is nuts!" I can feel the panic building up inside of me and it takes all I have to keep it under control.
"Breathe sweetheart." Ok, maybe I'm not hiding it as well as I think. "Yes, I am sure. I am sure that we will be ok, I wouldn't have gone into his relationship if I wasn't absolutely sure because of the kids. Yes, it is soon but Molly if you are pregnant then I know that we will be ok. Yes, it nuts but if it's meant to be then it will be."
I'm not sure what to say at this point but thankfully I don't have to think about it for too long as he leans in and kisses me. His kiss starts out slow, sweet and passionate making me melt inside but soon it turns hot and heated and makes my insides feel like they are on fire. He cups the back of my head with one hand while the over one takes hold of my towel and pulls it loose from my body.
I build up some courage and run my hands down his muscled chest. Jesus his body is out of this world! I run them back up his stomach only this time I lightly scratch him with my nails and feel ten feet tall when he hisses as I lightly scrape his nipple. His reaction has me feeling braver than ever and before I can change my mind I quickly pull his towel free. He steps in closer to me before pulling open a drawer under the sink and reaching inside. "Wrap your legs around me, baby." I do as he says and feel myself getting wet as I watch him quickly roll on a condom.
He gives me a smirk and wink making me laugh at the meaning of him remembering a condom but then my laugh is soon replaced by loud moans from both of us as he gets a firm hold on my hips and slams himself inside of me. "Fuck, you're so goddam tight!" he hisses as he pounds into me and then once again he rocks my world!