Christian
"I'm sorry say that again?" Molly looks a little nervous but still, I can see the ghost of a smile on her beautiful face. "I said I'm pregnant, Chris. I'm sorry about the blunt delivery but I didn't know how to tell you and I want you to know so that you can be sure that me moving in with you is really what you want." Is this girl serious?
Aside from making this girl my wife, I couldn't think of anything more I could want. Fuck I don't know what scares me more right now, the fact that I'm thinking about marrying her so soon or that the idea of marrying her so soon doesn't scare me. After the shit show that was my marriage to Amy, I never thought that I would want to be married again.
"Chris?" The small tremor in her voice brings me back to the present and her sad face. Shit, I was so lost in my own thoughts that I've got her worried when she doesn't need to be. I place a kiss on top of her hair and watch as a shiver runs down her body only it is more a shiver from her being cold rather than from the kiss. "Let's get out of here and you warmed up then we can talk yes?" I give her a reassuring smile to hopefully help her but I can still that she is nervous.
Once we are out I pull her into the bedroom and make quick work of getting us both dried. I walk over to my... our closest and throw on a pair of sweats then grab one of my tees for Molly. When I come out of the closet she is still standing in the same place as I left her breathing hard. I walk over to her and cup the back of her head and gently pull her into my so that I can place a kiss on her head.
I bring both of my hands up to cup her face gently stroking her cheeks with my thumbs, "Breathe sweetheart." She instantly listens and lets out a long hard breath. I put my tee on her then take her hand and pull her over to my bedroom window and take a seat in the chair that I have there then I tug hard on her hand and pull her down until she is straddling my lap facing me.
She tries to get up so I place my hands on her hips and stop her. In the beginning, her insecurities surfaced daily and I've worked every day to build her confidence. To show her how much I love her size. To show her how much I love picking her up and having her on my lap and how she has nothing to worry about when it comes to her size and lately, they have been pretty much non-existent so seeing her like this hurts but it's also something that I'm not letting eat her up again... never again!
After a few seconds, she stops struggling and remains on my lap but she doesn't look at me, she keeps her focus down toward my lap. Nope, not happening! "Look at me beautiful." She doesn't move a muscle, it's as if she's gone back to day one but I don't get why. "Molly, please baby, look at me." I sound desperate but I don't care because I feel it and for whatever reason it appears to work and her head slowly comes up until she is looking straight at me, our faces so close that I can feel her breath on my face.
Talk to me, baby? What's going on in that head of yours huh?" She sniffs then I watch as several tears run down her beautiful face. "I... I..." she shrugs her shoulders seeming unable to answer me. "It's ok darling take your time. I'm here when you are ready." She gives me a gentle smile as she works to stop her tears and by fuck do I prefer her smile to her tears. A few minutes of silence pass and I'm about to try and get her to talk when I feel her entire body stiffen up and watch her sit up straight, square out her shoulders and hold her head up high leaving a sinking feeling in my gut.
"Chris, I love you and I know that you love me too but I also understand that the kids will always come first and after the last year that they have had they need your attention more than ever." I go to interrupt her but she holds her hand up to stop me. "Please let me get this out." I give her a nod as my stomach starts churning. Part of me doesn't want to hear any of this but a bigger part of me needs to hear this.
"I may not have known about this pregnancy for long but I already know that I will be keeping this baby, I can't get rid of it... I just can't. That being said I understand if this isn't what you want. I have made my decision but that doesn't mean that I expect you to do this too. You have a choice like me and I won't judge you so if you want to walk away and concentrate on the kids then it's ok. I won't be mad. I won't blame you, I promise. I'll leave Huston so you don't have to see me and I'll raise this baby on my own."
It takes me a moment to let her words sink in but clearly, my delayed reaction must make her think only bad thoughts as she goes to stand up again only my hands are still on her hips and I'm not letting her up. "Where are you going?" I try to sound as calm as I can but I don't know how well I pull it off, I know I sound pissed and that's because I am. She thinks I'm gonna walk away from her and our baby... doesn't she know me at all?
"I just thoug-" I put my finger on her lips to stop her talking. "You thought that because I went quiet that I was considering what you said, considering walking away, right?" She nods but doesn't say a word. "Well, your wrong. The reason I went quiet was because I was trying to figure out if you were crazy or not. Do you really think I'm going to walk away from you or our baby?" She takes her eyes off me and looks down at her lap looking sad and I'm not sure if it's because she thinks that I will walk away or if it's because she maybe thinks I'm mad at her, Either way, she is wrong... so very wrong.
I hock my finger under her chin and raise her head so that she has to look at me once more then I move my other hand and place it on her stomach. For a moment I feel like I stop breathing, Our baby is in there, a baby we have created together with love. How can this pregnancy already feel so different to all the others? "I appreciate what you said, It takes a strong woman to be willing to take a baby and raise her on her own without any hate towards a Dad who doesn't want to know but Molly that's not going to happen here. I love you and I can't wait to have this baby with you."
She seems shocked but I think she's just overwhelmed with everything that's running through her head right now. "Are you sure? You have to be sure, Chris. We haven't been together long and in a few months we will have four kids. That's a lot for anyone to handle and after everything the kids have been through I would understand if you didn't want this. Please don't feel forced."
Her words bring out the biggest smile on my face which in turn has her giving me a strange look. "Why are you smiling like that?" I'm pretty sure that she doesn't even realise what she said but I do and it's still got me beaming. "You said that in just a few months that we would have four kids..." Realization quickly hits her causing her cheeks to go a lovely shade of pink.
"I meant that you will have four kids..." I shake my head still smiling. "How about you tell me what you really meant Molly." She seems to think about it for a moment then I watch as a stubborn look spreads across her face making her whole body move and in turn make my dick go hard. Fuck I love when her feisty side comes out. "I know that they are your children and not mine, not really but I love them, Chris. I love them like my own and this baby won't be treated any different to how I treat them but still... they're not my children so I'm sorry for saying that."
"We may not have been together too long baby but in that short time, you have taken better care of them than their biological mother ever did. They love you too and it shows because of how Sophie often calls you momma. She may only be two but she knows what she's doing, she's made it clear more than once to me." I stop talking and take a deep breath before saying my next words because I want to make sure that they come out right and I want her to know that I mean every single word. "I've been meaning to talk to her again about it all and Brody too... Molly, how do you feel when Sophie calls you momma?"
The biggest smile instantly covers her beautiful face. "I love it. At first, I wasn't sure what to think or feel when she did it but as time has gone on I've found that I love it, I found that I... I" She stops talking and bites her bottom lip. "Go on baby, say whatever it is. "I've found that I wish that it was true, that I was their momma, that I could take away all the hurt that Amy caused them, that I could have loved them for longer."
Her words hit my heart and make me smile but I struggle to find the words I need straight away so instead I lean forward and kiss her, I kiss her with everything that I'm feeling. "I wish that could be how things had been to baby however, we can't change their past but we can make sure that their future is different and it will be, it already is and if the kids want it then I'm more than happy for you to be there mom but only if that's what you want. I don't want you to feel pressured, you don't have to do it."
This time she's the one that's leaning in and kissing me. She pulls back smiling as tears glisten in her eyes. "I want that. I want that more than anything but it has to be what they want, I won't force them." I nod because I know that she only wants for best for them. Hell, she was willing to give Amy one million dollars for me to get Katie and that was before we were even together. "There is just one thing that I need to say though." She looked panicked but she doesn't need to be.
"I know that we will be together until our last breaths but If for some reason we did split up then you can't just up and leave them. If you are going to be their mom then you're their mom for life regardless of our relationship. I can't have them lose another mom. If I'm being honest I already know that you would never abandon them but I still need to put it out there. Especially for Katie, She's the lucky one and will never remember what Amy has done so this is her one chance at having a normal mom and I never want her to feel the pain of what Sophie and Brody have."
"If they want me to be their mom then I'm their mom for life, Chris. I understand you making it clear but you don't need to worry. Even if they do not want me to bet here Mom I will still always be there for them regardless of our relationship." I know her words are true because it's just who she is. "So we're really gonna do this?" I give her my biggest smile while nodding. "We are baby."
Fuck... we're gonna have a baby!