Lucas' POV
"She's too weak." I shook my head and said, "She's weaker than my mother used to be. If I accept her, I'll be weak, just like my father. She's a plague, Lucian. She'll ruin the whole pack.”
Lucian said, "You have never told me anything about your parents. I only know that they passed away when you were very young.”
"I have never mentioned them to anyone for a reason." I said.
I had always been known as a fatherless demon.
The cursed one.
"Was that because of your mother?" Lucian asked.
I lay on my back and stared at the ceiling of the tent.
Then, I closed my eyes.
That fucking she—wolf.
I could still see the scars and bruises on her chest.
Her thighs twitched and tensed when I touched her.
The way she bit her lips and complied.
Everything.
She reminded me of my mother.
I fucking hated my mother.
"My mother was weak when she met my father. Her weakness and vulnerability evoked my father's compassion and sympathy. He married her to be his Luna against my grandparents' will. Their matrimony was cursed from the very beginning. After they got married, my father had wasted too much time and effort on looking for a cure to treat my mother's incurable disease. But one thing he didn't know, was my mother's existence very the very disease. It's a sin for a Luna of the pack to be weak. Do you know the feeling when you see a strong and beautiful man withering in front of you but you can't do anything about it?”
Lucian stared at me and said, "Yeah, I do.”
I knew he was inferring me.
He was worried about me all the time without any reason.
It was in his nature.
He took care of others and worried about them.
Like what I said, I didn't know what the fuck was wrong with him.
I continued, "His muscles were gone. He couldn't walk properly, so he had to carry a cane everywhere he went. His vision got blurry. He couldn't tell enemies from friends. He used to have beautiful shining black hair, which was darker than every wolf's nightmare. But when he was dead, they were all gone. His soul and pride were ripped away from him, replaced by frustration and fear. He wasn't even able to defend himself when the Crimson Pack attacked our village. Alpha Jacob's father raped my mother in front of his eyes and killed her, but he couldn't even move, because they had taken away his fucking cane. He was crawling on the ground, howling desperately like a fucking dog at the very last moment of his life.”
My eyes were getting wet.
I must have got this fucking vulnerability thing from my mother.
"Anyway," I looked up and said, "I would never ever repeat my father's mistake. I would never have compassion and sympathy for a she—wolf that was even weaker than my mother. Compassion and sympathy are dangerous to the whole wolf pack. I have to reject her."
"Her pack's gone. Her parents are dead. There's no way to know her real name." Lucian said.
I said with hardened fists, "Don't let her fool you. She knows her name. She just doesn't want to tell me. She'll tell me. She'll beg me to reject her. I have a million ways to torture her..."
"Why do you think she doesn't want to tell you her real name?" Lucian asked.
"How the fuck do I know? I don't give a fuck." I vexed.
"She's maddly in love with you, Luke." Lucian said in a matter—of—fact way, "I can see it in her eyes. When women are in love, they can't hide it in their eyes."
"What do you know about women?! They only woman you've slept with is Gianna!"
Yeah, that was another Lucian thing.
He had never fucked anyone except his mate.
Fucking freak.
Lucian shrugged, "You might have had sex with a lot of women and men, but you have never been in love. "
"Is this what you want to do? Stabbing me at my heart like this?" I raised my eyebrows, "Because it works. I'm hurt. Are you happy now?"
"Sorry, I don't know you've still got a heart." Lucian had a fainted smirk on his face.
His smirk made me even more agitated.
"Of course she's in love with me! Every woman falls in love with me as soon as they see me!"
"They have to pretend to fall in love with you, because otherwise you'll kill them. They're afraid of you. They don't love you or respect you."
"Being feared is being respected!" I argued.
"But being feared isn't like being loved." Lucian said, "That girl's afraid of you, but as much as she was in fear, she still couldn't hide her affection for you."
"You're... impossible!" I roared.
Sometimes when I talked to him, I just wanted to bang my head against the wall.
Fuck. There wasn't a wall in a tent.
Lucian smiled and said, "Luke, I'm saying that you can't reject this girl. But, just think about it, is that possible that she isn't as weak as she looks? I was in her tent just now and she recovered herself. She gained the ability of healing herself in her worst moment of life. It takes strength and power to achieve a remarkable feat like that. It takes love to acomplish things that.”
"She was born to be weak. Nothing can change that. She probably wants to kill me. That's why she works so hard to get recovered. You never know."
"You and I… we always have very different opinions about people." Lucian said.
"Yeah, you see them alive, but I see them dead." I said.
"I understand that you'd rather be feared than be loved. But to be feared and to be hated are completely two different things…”
Here it came again. Lucian talk time. Classic.
I rolled away from him and let him see my ass.
He rolled me back to him again and said, "What I'm saying is, you don't have to be absolutely hated by everyone, Luke. Especially when it comes to your mate. You're always a reasonable person. Think about your wolf.”
"Leave my wolf out of this."I warned him.