Louisa's POV
I had no other choice but to follow his instruction and put another finger inside.
The sudden increase of impact on my small hole made me feel extremely painful again.
I looked up hopelessly at Alpha Lucas.
"I didn't tell you to stop. So why do you stop?" he asked.
"Please," I whispered in tears, "I can't do it anymore."
The hem dropped down and covered my legs.
"Do you want me to ask Lucian back to give you a hand?"
"Please don't do that, Alpha. Please show me some mercy..." I choked on my tears.
"So you want me to help you, don't you?" He looked into my eyes.
"Yes, please, Alpha..." I whispered.
He pulled me up and ripped off my gown. Then, he put my waist on his lap.
He was fully clothed, but I was all naked.
I didn't dare to look at him when he pushed his fingers into my pussy.
"Ah…" I screamed in pain.
His fingers were coarse with calluses.
They kept throbbing ruthlessly on the tenderest part of my body.
"This is what you've got, when you tell me that you can't do what you've been told." Alpha Lucas said.
"Please stop! Please! I begged you. Alpha... Please..."
He didn't seem to hear me.
"Please, Alpha. I'll do it. I'll do it myself…" I said.
His hand stopped and got out of my body.
I put my fingers inside my body again and started moving.
"Harder and faster," Alpha Lucas commanded.
I did what I've been told.
The thuds of my hand seemed to make him satisfied.
The burning sensation was getting intense down there.
My whole body was getting stiff.
"Do you want to cum now?" he asked.
"Yes, Alpha." I whispered.
"Well, you don't have my permission to cum." he said.
"Ah…" I moaned and panted.
I was like a broken wind-up toy, repeatedly doing things that I was wired up to do.
Finally, I couldn't hold it anymore, so I begged Alpha Lucas.
"Please… Alpha… Please…"
"What?" he said, "Say it."
"Please… let me cum, Alpha…"
"Is that all that you've got?" he lowered down and played with my nipples.
My whole body was about to explode.
"Please… Alpha…"
"You still don't have my permission to cum," his hand was slowly moving down to my belly.
"Ah…" I cried out and was befouled by his dirty move.
"My bitch should be more durable, should be more slutty. Beg me again," he said, stroking my sacrum.
"Please, Alpha… I'm your slut… I'm your fuck toy… I'm your dirty whore… Please let me cum… I'll do… everything…"
I didn't know that these words could actually come out of my mouth.
I felt so ashamed of myself.
"You can cum now, bitch," Alpha Lucas slapped me across my cheeks and said.
I squirted almost instantly.
Hot sticky liquid burst everywhere.
I felt absolutely exhausted, slipping from Lucian's leg to the bed.
Alpha Lucas said, "When I'm not around, you'll be chained with a collar. Do not ever touch yourself when I'm not around."
"Yes, Alpha," I whispered.
Alpha Lucian looked at my torso and said, "Your wounds are healing by themselves. I thought you would never learn how to do it."
"I'm still learning, Alpha," I murmured, "I'll be good."
He looked at me and raised his voice, "Soldier! Take the branding iron here."
I was horrified and shook my head, "Alpha, please..."
"What? You don't want to be branded?" he smirked.
I bit my lips and didn't dare to make another sound.
"If you tell me your real name, she-wolf, I might spare you the pain. I can reject you and set you free," he drew himself closer to me and said.
His offer was so tempting.
I really wished I could end this misery now.
"Please tell me my real name," I cried out in my mind to my wolf.
She was the only one who knew my real name.
There was no response.
"Please, I'm begging you." I pleaded to her.
Still, silence.
The soldiers took in a hot iron inside.
"On your knees." Alpha Lucas said.
I kneeled on the ground, half-sitting on my feet.
Alpha Lucas walked with the sizzling iron bar in his hand.
"I brand all my horses. So when they run away, people will recognize the marks and send them back to me. Today, I'll brand you as well. This is a reward for you, because it shows that you're mine now."
He held my hands above my head and held the iron bar next to my chest.
"The branding iron was dipped into the venom of snakes. When it touches your skin, it leaves a permanent mark that can't be healed. I'll brand you on your breasts. Now it's your time to show your appreciation."
"Thank you, Alpha, for making me yours," I said in a low voice.
When the burning branding iron was pressed against my skin, I felt a sudden rush of adrenaline into my brain.
It was so strong and powerful that I almost passed out.
My body was trembling in pain and humiliation.
Alpha Lucas' grip was firm, so I wasn't able to move.
I looked at him in the rising white steam.
The burning smell of my flesh and skin made him a bit excited, but he obviously wasn't very happy, because he didn't get the pleasure of watching me being agonized with affliction.
I didn't give him the violent reaction of being tortured, as he had expected.
He pressed the branding iron harder into my skin, but I was just looking at him in a half-conscious way.
I couldn't tell if he was sober or not. His handsome face was filled with hatred and sadistic smile.
I didn't know why he hated me like this.
I had done nothing to him except for being his mate.
Does love have to hurt this much? Am I abominable and intolerable? What have I done to deserve this? Why does everyone want to hurt me like this?
On numerous dark sleepless nights, I had prayed to the Moon Goodness a thousand times for a dark and handsome mate who would love and cherish me.
And an incurable branding mark was all that I had got.
As soon as the branding was done, Alpha Lucas released me.
Then, he lifted my chin and looked into my eyes.
"Why didn't you beg me to stop, she-wolf? Do you want me to kill you?" he asked.
"No, Alpha," I whispered almost in hallucination, "I want to be loved."
I used all my strength and gave him a passionate kiss on his lips.
Then, I passed out into oblivion.