Louisa’s POV
When I went back to the clearing, I saw the big black wolf putting a nest of quail eggs and a chunk of bee hive next to the bonfire.
He then tilted his head and looked at me.
Sticky honey was dripping from his mouth.
I smiled and quickly walked up to him.
I tiptoed and wiped the honey on his snout.
The sticky substance got on my hands and I smiled.
"It’s so slimy." I said.
He looked happy and started to lick my hands.
"You like honey, don’t you, Finn?" I giggled while his tongue was tickling my palms.
He suddenly stopped and looked at me with surprise.
His stare was full of passion and sincerity, which made my face burn.
I lowered my head and said, "I’ll go wash my hands and make some eggs and compote for breakfast."
As I was about to walk away, I found that my sleeve was pulled.
I turned back and saw him holding my sleeve in his mouth.
"What?" I smiled, "I have to cook breakfast. You can come with me if you want. Catch some fish, maybe. That’ll be great."
He didn’t let go of me, still staring at me with his golden eyes.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and gave him a kiss at the center of his snout.
"Can we go now?" I looked up at him and asked.
He looked very satisfied and wagged his tail.
Then, he let go of me and licked my face happily before lifting his chin and growling silently.
I climbed on his back and hugged his neck.
His fur was so soft and fluffy that I could bury my face in his fur all day.
He jumped into the bush and carried me to the creek.
"What do you look like when you shift into a man, Finn?" I asked behind his ears.
His ears flicked.
He didn’t look back.
I knew he was trying to dodge my question again.
It seemed that he would never respond to questions that he didn’t want to ask.
"Are there any reasons that you don’t want to show yourself to me?" I said, "The warlock said that you’re a very handsome man."
He stopped at the bank of the creek and rolled on the grass.
I fell down from his back and rolled with him.
"Hey, big paw! You’re naughty." I giggled.
I lay on the grass on my back and looked up into the sky.
There were some fluffy clouds floating above us.
I guess when people were in love, even the clouds got beautiful.
The big wolf used his snout to poke my hands.
I stroked his back.
"Can you shift into a man now?" I asked him.
There was no response.
"Finn," I kissed him and asked, "do you like me?"
He nodded his head very seriously.
"And the man inside you? Does he like me?"
He looked at me for a brief moment and started to lick me.
I knew immediately why he didn’t want to shift into a man.
His man didn’t like me.
Well, I couldn’t blame him.
No man in their right mind would like a skinny stupid girl like me.
Why I couldn’t be stronger or smarter?
Why I couldn’t be the equal counterpart of a strong powerful wolf like Finn?
I lowered my head and sighed.
Finn detected my disappointment immediately.
He squeezed his head under my arm and put his head over my chest.
I rubbed his head and kissed him again.
I couldn’t help kissing him.
He’s so cute.
I could lie on the grass with him and kiss him all day.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and stroked him with my bare feet.
"Finn, I wish I could be… closer to you." I said.
Finn moved forward, so he was physically closer to me.
"I love you, Finn. And when people are in love, they want to be closer with each other." I kissed his neck and murmured, "I wish I could shift into a wolf, so I could be with you. But I can’t do it because of this collar."
I touched the collar on my neck. It was dipped in wolfsbane water and only Lucas and Lucian got the key.
He sniffed my collar and snorted.
No wolf could stand the smell of wolfsbane.
I wrapped my arms around his head.
"Finn," I said in a low voice, "I’ve already got a mate. He’s a terrible person and he didn’t like me. All he wanted to do is torture and reject me. He want me dead."
He immediately got agitated and wrapped his tail around me.
I knew he didn’t want anyone to hurt me again.
I wanted to ask him to protect me, but the words melted in the air as soon as I opened my mouth.
It wasn’t fair to ask him to take risks for me.
He was a strong and powerful warrior, but I didn’t know if he could fight against Lucas.
The thought of him fighting against Lucas was so terrifying and disturbing that tears came down my eyes almost instantly.
"I’m so afraid of him." I whimpered, "But the truth is, when I’m not with him, I can’t stop thinking about him. I miss him so much, Finn… I can’t help it… Even the thought of him makes me want to…"
My whole body was burning.
I couldn’t stop shivering.
The internal fire of desire was lit up by fear and fed by despair.
I became so dripping wet that I’m so ashamed of.
I jumped up immediately, stripped off all my clothes and jumped into the river.
The cool and sparkling mountain river soothed me down right away.
I scooped up some water in my palm and poured it on my face.
The crystal clear water splashed on my face and hair, which made me feel much relieved.
Finn stood on the bank and watched me for a while.
Then, he jumped into the water and started to catch fish.
I got on the river back.
I splashed some water at him, which made him snort.
He then splashed some water back on me. I gasped with excitement.
Then, we started to have a water battle.
While we were having fun, I saw the warlock running towards the river.
When he saw me playing with Finn all naked in the river, he immediately lowered his head.
It was awkward. So I quickly got back to the river bank and put on the clothes.
"I’m sorry, my Lady." he said, "I’ve heard your Ladyship’s voice and I thought your Ladyship was in trouble. I didn’t mean to…"
"You don’t have to apologize." I said.
Some fish were thrown on the river bank by Finn.
"Let’s get the fish and make some breakfast." I smiled at the warlock, "I’m thinking of poached quail eggs with grilled salmon fillets. Can you help me?"
"Yes, my Lady." he replied.