Hearing Roland's words, Marilyn was slightly stunned. She thought that he had come here to question her about why she was with Malcolm.
However, Roland's apology made her feel even more guilty!
Marilyn quietly looked at him and smiled faintly, "Roland, I won't take what you said and did yesterday seriously.
But I have to make my attitude clear. You know, your life is brilliant and limitless, and you are worthy of a better girl."
Marilyn's tone sounded sad. Roland was a perfect candidate for a boyfriend or even a husband. He was so trustworthy that a woman could spend the rest of her life with him without worries.
But Marilyn knew that she was not the woman who could grow old together with him.
Roland understood what Marilyn was thinking. He had known her for seven years, and he understood her completely.
He smiled bitterly and looked at her with clear eyes. "Lynn, I don't care. My parents and my sister don't care, either. I like your three children very much, but why are you..."
"Roland!" Marilyn interrupted Roland.
She was grateful to him. All these years, he had stayed by her side and silently took care of her, but she had no feelings for him.
She knew her heart. There was friendship and even kinship between Roland and her, except love.
Marilyn added, "Roland, that would be unfair to you. I don't want our beautiful memories to mix with unforgettable pain!"
When Roland heard her words, he stared straight at her and said angrily, "Lynn, is this unfair to me? Have you ever asked me? Have you ever asked if I feel that it is unfair?
If you marry another man, it will be fair to him, right?
Since that's the case, why can't you treat me fairly?"
"Roland." Marilyn also glared at him. "I will never marry again."
With three children, no matter who she married, she would not be treated sincerely.
She had no home since she was young, but she could accompany her three children and watch them as they grew up, which was already the happiest thing in the world for her.
Marilyn was grateful in her heart for everything Roland had done to her.
Life had long forced her to be like a man, and she did not want to rely on anyone anymore.
Roland was stunned by her words and stared at her in disbelief.
After a long time, he laughed painfully. His handsome face was filled with pain, a kind of pain from the depths of his soul.
Marilyn had been quietly watching him suffer.
She had always thought that she was ridiculous. So, she had agreed to Malcolm's powerless request.
Before she gave birth to a child, she had never been in love.
That day and night were to make up for her regrets in the past.
"Lynn, you are so cruel to yourself! So cruel! You even said that you wouldn't marry for the rest of your life!" Roland continued to roar in his heart, 'Once you said so, you must do it!"
But he didn't dare to speak his inner thoughts out. If he did, Marilyn would be sad.
She was the one he had met at his best time, and he was willing to do anything for her.
However, her words had destroyed everything he had. From now on, even in his dream, there was someone he could not have.
Roland had met countless women in his life. No matter how beautiful they were, none of them was as precious as Marilyn in his heart.
Marilyn smiled bitterly and said, "Roland, I have longed for a family the most in my life. When I was in the Chambers family, do you know how I grew up?
"I longed for that family, so I catered to their lives and became an obedient girl.
It was all for the sake of obtaining their recognition. I wanted to let them think that even if I was an adopted daughter, I could be better and more considerate than a biological one.
"But what did I get for all my efforts? Actually, I was just a chess piece for them and a joke for the Chambers family.
"A few days ago, I heard the conversation between Sandy and Velma. Only then did I understand how ridiculous all my previous efforts were.
"When I went to college, Mrs. Chambers didn't pay my living expenses and tuition fees. At that time, I lived a very difficult life.
"Life was so difficult that I even wanted to die. I saw the cars that were speeding past me, and I had the thought of running to them head-on.
"I was alone, and all I felt was loneliness and pain..." Marilyn began sobbing and could not say anything more.
At that time, she had been telling herself that she should persevere for another day and that tomorrow would become better.
Roland knew that Marilyn's life was not easy. But when he heard her personally describe her miserable past, he felt as if he had suffered the same pain.
He knew that the moment she decided to give birth to her three children, she probably had prepared mentally to live a hard life.
Marilyn was so eager for a family. After Elvira came, Marilyn smiled much more often than before.
"Lynn, don't cry. Those days have passed, and you have a home now." Roland comforted her in a soft voice.
Marilyn wiped her tears and said with a smile, "Roland, we've known each other for more than seven years and we're very familiar with each other. But do you know? The people I don't want to hurt the most are you and Jeannie. We've been like a family all these years. I've been so happy and satisfied!"
Heard this, Roland smiled bitterly. "Lynn, I understand what you mean. In the future, I won't, but..."
Roland suddenly smiled and looked at Marilyn. He was somewhat hesitant. "Lynn, if you want to marry one day, just marry me. We can live a life together." His tone was half serious and half joking.
Marilyn smiled and shook her head.
"Roland, I won't have such thoughts, nor will I give you any expectations. Sometimes, hope is crueler than despair. So, you should kill this idea in your heart in the future."
"Lynn ... Lynn..." Roland acted like a spoiled child to make Marilyn happy.
"Alright, now that the matter is settled, you should have a good rest tonight." Marilyn looked at the dark circles under his eyes and guessed that he hadn't slept last night.
Roland pursed his lips slightly and thought, 'It may be even harder for me to fall asleep tonight.
Never mind. I will just wait for her in peace. If she is fated to be mine, no one can snatch her away.'
Roland looked at Marilyn and smiled brightly. "Lynn, can you cook something delicious for me? I've been worried about you and haven't eaten breakfast."
Marilyn glared at him. "Look at you. You're a grown man, yet you don't know how to take care of yourself. Go down and accompany Dominic and Laverne. I'll go make dinner now."
"OK! Lynn, I want to eat fish!" Roland knew that the dishes Marilyn made were delicious.
"Alright! I'll cook for you. But I have to see if there is fish at home." Marilyn took a sip of coffee and got up to change her clothes.
Roland said excitedly, "Lynn when I came, I bought vegetables and fish."