SEPTEMBER'S POV
" I remember everything, Zach." I said.
I watched his face intently. I never knew that I could ever be this talented to read the expressions one can hold through their eyes because right now, I can easily understood the pain his eyes were hiding behind them
Pain? Sometimes I feel too naïve to describe this emotion. But from whatever I know, I can say that there might be something to which I am completely oblivious. I had this gut feeling that Zach doesn't want me to remember any of my past. Be it any reason but I am very sure after today that something chaotic had happened to me, to us. To say that I don't want to know the truth would be a complete lie because I do, I do want to know that what had happened before I lost my memory?
But here, watching him this devastated, I wish I will never have my memory back. I want to remain like this, forever. Since the day, I woke up in hospital, I found Zach being always closer to me. He took care of me, he made me smile, he made my heart alive, he made me love myself and I guess however the situation maybe, he will always be there for me.
Possibilities are enormous. My past will always remain a sweet mystery for me but I want nothing more than Zach. Possibly we used to be very close but then something happened and we broke up, or he might have cheated on me or it could be anything. My past could be anything but the Zach whom I know, I believe that he would've never hurt me. His eyes were wet for me, how come the person like him hurt me be it in my past or anytime?
I sighed.
Fuck me. This past thing is so messed up.
Now come on, September make him smile again. This is your turn to crease away the frown from his face and replace it with content.
"I remember you, Zach. For me, it was when I woke up on the hospital bed and from there my memories rooted you in my existence. I remember you as my husband and that's all I want to remember." I added, after a deep minute of silence which felt like eternity.
"I...I...Oh." He mumbled and if I am not wrong then I definitely saw him inhaling a deep breath of relief.
Okay. You were totally right September, he doesn't want you to remember about your past.
Jesus! I scared the shit out of him, aren't I?
"So?" He whispered, slightly bending his head low to hide his tears.
I liked my lips and took baby steps to him. I took the flowers from him and looked at them before plastering a small smile.
Zach, you've no idea, do you? I've started liking you long before I realized that I actually do. You make my heart happy. What else I can ask for?
I flushed at my thought and sat on the floor. I wiped his tears and attached my forehead to his. The sound of our harsh breathing echoed in the surrounding. Meanwhile, cool breeze touched my face and everything turned beautiful.
Zach's face held nothing but vulnerability. I am unable to figure out everything. This strange feeling in my heart is killing me. It's like there was something stronger between us, something strange which couldn't be described in words. Some connection or something way stronger than that. I have a strong pull towards me. I want him to feel the serenity.
"I would love to be your girlfriend, Zach." I smiled.
My cheeks heated up and tons of butterflies erupted in my stomach. Girlfriend? Wow.
He said nothing. It was as if he was still in shock and was unable to react in anyway. So I did something to pull him back to his senses. I placed a soft, lingering kiss on his cheeks. The taste of his salty tears touched my lips and at that moment, I let my soul free.
The emotions I had trapped inside my heart, I let them go.
"Let's live." I said instead of confessing him that how much I like him.
I hope someday I will be brave enough to express my feelings for him. Someday.
He looked at me and nodded, absentmindedly.
I clicked my tongue and gestured him to smile. He exhaled and forced himself to place a smile on his face but failed miserably.
"September, can I ask you something?" He looked at me and waited for my reply.
Instead of uttering a word, I simply nodded my head.
He held my hand and came forward to kiss my temple. My breath hitched up due to his close proximity.
God! September, control. This is not the right time to go all jellies over him.
"Promise me that one day when you really remember everything then you won't stop yourself from doing what's right."
I gave him puzzled look but he cared no less to elaborate.
I thought to ask him that what is that right thing? But kept my voice shut.
Biting the corner of my lips, I shrugged my shoulders. "I promise that I will do whatever you say."
He forced a smile and hummed. I raised my eyebrows at him asking that what he meant with that hum sound. He shook his head and then I saw a little sign of relief passing through his face.
Why are you so complicated, Zach?
"Why are you so beautiful, my princess?" He asked making me realize that I said that out loud.
I flushed. My Princess?
"So, now we are girlfriend-boyfriend?" He teased, watching my already flushed face.
Oh god. Stop it Zach.
"You know what? I've an idea." I tried to shift the topic.
He laughed and gestured me to continue.
I asked him to follow me and we both went to terrace. Under the open sky full of stars, I asked him to sit next to me. He was confused but didn't say anything just followed whatever I said.
"Let's talk." I said.
"Okay." He smiled
And we both knew that this was going to be a very long night.
****
"Zach, tell me something sweet?" I asked.
He cracked a laugh and creased the skin of my thumb. His touch was soft and soothing.
"You know, my mum used to say that one day I will get my Angel. And now I know that she talked exactly about you."
Awe.
"You know, if you talk this sweet then one day I will definitely end up having diabetes." I stuck my tongue out which made him smile more brightly.
"I am not coating a lie. For me, you're a blessing. Like an angel sent up from the heaven. I wish I could tell you how much my heart craves for you." He added further.
I blushed all shades of red and looked at him. You're perfect, Zach.
I smiled and in reflex decided to kiss his cheeks but I don't know how my lips slipped and landed over the corner of his lips. Everything froze. To my periphery, I found him getting tensed. I held my breath and closed my eyes.
I want to kiss him, don't I?
I stayed still for few seconds before I parted my eyes open. My throat was running dry and at that moment, being this close to him, I wanted nothing more than the taste of his lips lingering over mine.
I don't know if it was lust or whatever but I wanted to kiss him. And so, I did. I encircled my arms around his neck and brushed my lips against him. Time stopped and fireworks exploded inside my belly. "Kiss me." I murmured softly as I knew very well that he won't touch me without my permission let alone kiss me.
He closed his eyes and moved his lips in rhythm with mine. It was gentle at first but soon a strong kind of passion ignited between us. I ran my fingers through his hairs and he grabbed me by my waist.
As his tongue touched my lips, my body shivered in delight. I moaned and without thinking twice I parted my lips. He shoved his tongue inside my mouth and boom. My body sat on fire, my sensation started craving for more. It was heavenly. The feeling was intoxicating. Our tongues collided and that was the moment when I realized that why people always name lust as a sinful pleasure.
I like him, I do but this feeling is different from anything which I've felt before. What's happening to me? Why this all feels so satisfying? Am I losing my sanity?
Fuck everything.
I kissed him back with equal passion and I don't know how, I started unbuttoning his shirt but before this all could go to a step further, he stopped.
"Let's not rush into anything." He exclaimed.
His words were like a bucket full of cold water splashing over my consciousness. I tried to catch my breath and bend my head low in embarrassment. He will now hate me, right? How could I be this stupid? Why was I not able to control me?
"Hey. Hey. Hey....September. Don't cry baby." He panicked.
I blinked my tears away and tried to go away from him but he held my hand and made me sit on his lap. He dipped his face in the crook of my neck and inhaled a deep breath. "It's okay. What you felt was pretty normal. You don't have to be ashamed about anything. Okay?"
I didn't say a thing and cursed myself for doing such a stupid act.
"I am sorry. I..I just want to take things slow with you, okay? It had took me long to learn that connection of two souls before body is way stronger. I just want to build a connection with you which will remain with me even if someday you despise me, okay? I want memories with you, baby." He spoke with so much genuineness in his voice that I couldn't stop myself from smiling.
"I will never despise you, Zach." I couldn't.
Every time you give me one more reason to believe that you're everything one could ever wish for. Zach, you seriously are something else.
He placed a soft yet lingering kiss on my forehead making my heart skip it's beat.
"I have a good news."
"Tell me. What are you waiting for?" I smiled.
He cleared his throat and automatically his eyes were lighten up in excitement. "I have decided to open my own restaurant."
"Wow. That's perfect." I exclaimed happily.
He shrugged his shoulders and once again placed a soft kiss on my forehead.
"You know September, I have this beautiful dream now."
"And what is that?"
"I could see myself as a chef, preparing dishes in my own restaurant where you would come once in awhile and taste everything that I will make and smile. And then someday Claire come with all her friends on her birthday and I will cook for all her friends and then she will proudly say that the man who made all these is my father."
I pictured his dream in my mind and it all felt so real. I want to like that future, Zach.
I want it with you.
A/N
BOOK NAME-PLAYER IN LOVE
" It's Not About The Game But The Player Who Is Known For Breaking Hearts."
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|MAX'S POV|
" Turn off the goddamn alarm." I mumbled, burying my face on the pillow.
" Baby it isn't alarm, your cellphone is ringing." A slutry, annoying voice dropped into my ears.
I groaned and parted my eyelids only to saw a naked woman lying next to me. Scrunching up my nose, I straightened my limbs.
" Hello." I yawned, bringing the iPhone to my ear.
" WHERE THE F-CK ARE YOU? I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU SINCE AN HOUR. MOTHER F-CKER, YOU BETTER BRING YOUR ASS TO MY PLACE RIGHT NOW."
Vishal, my oh-not-so-good best friend screamed from the other side making me roll my eyes at his sudden PMSing self.
Asshole.
" Well, good morning to you too." I replied with sarcasm dripping from my voice.
" F-ck off." He spat and ended the call.
I stared at my phone screen to realize that it was already half past ten in the morning.
" Baby, won't you go for another round?" That nasty woman purred and started brushing her finger over my bare chest.
My eyes fell on her face and to say that I was shocked would be an understatement. I mean who the f-ck cake up her face with makeup in morning? It means she had woke up before me then caked up her face and then once again lay beside me not to mention naked.
Women these days.
I licked my lips and decide to leave from...well wherever I am.
" Baby, won't you have morning s-x with me?" She pouted and trust me it was damn disgusting.
After ignoring her, I grabbed my denim and quickly wore it. As I was going to zip up the zipper, her manicured fingers pressed up against my V cut as she licked my chest with her lizard like tongue.
Without wasting a second, I shoved her aside and ran my gaze to search for my shirt which I am sure that I've thrown somewhere near the bed yesterday's night.
" I love you, Max. I couldn't forget how you gave me multiple orgasms, last night. Since now we are together, should I make our relationship public?" She chirped.
I rolled my eyes and pushed my iPhone in my Denim's pocket.
" Relationship? Hold your tongue, whore. Last night was just one time thing. I guess I forgot to mention that I don't f-ck a same woman, twice." I hissed and spot my shirt lying beside her.
" Pass the shirt, Cindy, Clara or whatever the hell your name is."
" B-But I love you.." And here she started acting like a top class bitch by faking crocodile tears.
In a matter of second, her mascara smudged around her eyes and streamed down with her tears. Her face became more horrible. F-ck, this is getting way much disgusting.
" Look woman, stop whining and-"
I was about to say more but before that could happen, she took my shirt and wore it.
Great! F-cking great.
" I..Love you." She hiccupped in between her sobs. " And my name is Cassie."
I sighed in frustration and walked out of her house. Grumbling under my breath, I turned the engine of my car and drove to Vishal's place.
" What the hell do you want, Vishal?" I yelled as I entered his hallway.
" Are you out from jungle?" Rehan, my other best friend asked.
Oh so this Bastard is here, too.
" Something like that." I replied and sprawled on the couch.
" Why are you shirtless? Don't tell me that the woman whom you had f-cked last night had stole your shirt along with your heart?"
I raised my middle finger at Vishal's pathetic comment and chuckled, dryly.
"I don't have a f-cking heart."
" Why don't you stop all this?" Rehan breathed out.
" Stop what?" I raised my eyebrows and found both of them sharing a look with each other.
" Your player ways." Vishal replied.
I rolled my lips inside my mouth and waited impatiently for them to complete their 'Let's irritate, Max' talk.
" You know I have a very bad morning breath plus after having a rough s-x last night, I am stinking from dried sweat. So can I use your bathroom, brother?" I asked Vishal.
" Why this f-cking formality? What's mine is yours too except Tara." He muttered.
I laughed at the mention of his girlfriend. Both of my best friends has this huge possessiveness with their women when it comes to me. I f-cking love to piss them off.
I walk to bathroom not before grabbing clean pair of sweatpant and T-shirt of Vishal.
It was almost my usual routine to crash at either Vishal or Rehan's place in the morning to at lest get few moments of calmness.
I turned off the shower after having a bath and used Vishal's brush to clean my teeth. Gross, I know but who cares. Changing my clothes, I stepped back into hallway and again sprawled on the couch. F-ck, these days, my tiredness level was at it's best.
" Notorious Billionaire, Max Costello was spotted yesterday's night with the famous singer Cassie Fox. Rumors tell that they had shared a kiss in public while coming out of the club. Were this couple dating or was it just an one time fling for our Mr. Player?"
I rolled my eyes at the news channel broadcast and threw a cushion at Vishal to change the channel but instead he came and sat next to me with his jaw almost hitting the floor.
" Dude you f-cked Cassie.. The Cassie Fox?"
He nudged my shoulder.
" So? What's the big deal?" I shrugged my shoulders.
" Man, she's famous celebrity. She had won numerous awards for her songs." He exaggerated.
I gave him bored look and ran fingers through my wet hairs. " Trust me, I didn't knew her name till morning. She was crying out loud while confessing her love for me. I mean that's pathetic man. Her face was looking damn horrible when mixed with her mascara and tears. Ew, gross."
I shuddered and laughed when Rehan passed me disappointed look.
" Learn to respect women, Max." Rehan said in a stern voice.
Respect my ass.
" I only respect two women. One your wife, Mayra." I pointed at Rehan then at Vishal. "Another your girlfriend, Tara."
" You better otherwise I'll chop off your balls." Vishal snickered.
I smiled, a genuine one, if I may add. Mayra and Tara both are like sisters to me. And I respect them not because they are women of my best friends but they deserve to be respected.
There's this hole in my chest when it comes to sister and somewhere both Tara and Mayra fix that hole.
And talk about other women, they are only good for my bed but only for one night. I feel disgusted to f-ck the same woman twice. Call it my over confidence, I know that no women can resist the charm of Max Costello. After all I've everything for which they are crazy about like money, fame, panty dropping look, class. What else they could want? But if only they knew that behind my façade, I am nothing.
" Are celebrity singer Cassie Fox and Billionaire Casanova Max Costello dating?"
" F-CKING CHANGE THE CHANNEL." I yelled and in a matter of second, Vishal shut the television off.
I pressed my fingers over my temple and inhaled a breath to calm myself down.
Hell with this mood swing.
" I am...I..F-ck.. I am sorry, okay?" I apologized and heard Vishal cursing under his breath.
" Do you want me to take an appointment of psychiatrist for you?" Rehan laughed.
" I am ever ready if that psychiatrist would be your wife." I winked which made him instantly scowl in response.
I sighed and waited for few seconds before deciding to lighten up their mood.
" Vishal, I don't know about her singing talent but I must add that she was quite a screamer." I smirked.
" Who, Cassie Fox?"
" Duh."
" Dude, why had you called me here?" I asked, suddenly remembering that he had ruined my sleep.
" Rehan needed a little favour." Vishal replied.
I nodded and shifted my attention to Rehan who was munching on the bagels.
" I have to meet Drew's class teacher, can you pick Mayra from her clinic?" He asked.
" Off course." I smiled.
I looked at Rehan and automatically my mind started wondering that how lucky he is to have a loving wife and son by his side.
" Max you're so single."
Vishal whined out of blue.
I rolled my eyes at his annoying behavior and shifted my gaze to Rehan who was chuckling at Vishal's statement. F*ck them, they can be so irritating sometimes. I was about to throw a cranky remark but caught my tongue back as a better idea struck into my mind to make them burn in jealousy.
" What can I do Vishal? The two perfect women whom I would have loved to call as my girlfriend are already committed." I faked a little sulky tone.
Vishal's expression turned to curious one as he shared a look with Rehan. I smirked mentally and worked more on acquiring a gloomy look.
" Who?" Rehan asked to which Vishal nodded eagerly.
Seriously? They still didn't get the clue? Well maybe they have so much smitten in the love that their common sense was no more common.
" I am talking about Mayra and Tara. I mean those two are like perfect. I wish they were single so-"
But before I could finish, they beat me with their loud cursing.
" Bastard."
" Asshole."
I doubled over laughing at their funny as f*cked face and shoved my middle finger in the air.
" Beware, you don't know about my charms. I can totally make your Women head over heal for me and then you two would become like a love sick vagabond who will cry their tears out at all those pathetic breakup songs." I added which worked like a fuel.
But after a few seconds they both burst out laughing making my lips to curl in genuine smile. This is good. This all is good. We are once again back to our High school friendship. They both are like my family and at this moment I can ask nothing but their happiness. Now everything's right and I will hope that it will always remain like this.
" But really man, you should get serious and find someone who'll be worth spending your life with." Rehan spoke.
I rolled my eyes but couldn't help to feel the emptiness taking over my heart. Someone worth spending my life with? I swallowed a thick lump down my saliva and avoided that thought.
" Why should I settle down when I can f-ck sexy women, whenever I want?" I raised my eyebrows at them.
Rehan threw a bagel at me and Vishal just rolled his eyes, once again switching on the news channel.
" Max Costello was caught storming out of the Cassie Fox's house this morning, that too, shirtless. Seems like they are having an affair."
I groaned, finding my pictures on the screen. Motherf-cking paparazzi.
I glanced at them who were all ready to throw some mocking comments but before that could happen, I threw my hands up in air and stood up from the couch.
" I am going to pick Mayra." I announced and left Vishal's house.