ZACHARY'S POV
" You sure?" Riley asked, one more time as if he wasn't sure of whatever I am saying.
I nodded.
" I am happy that you've decided to do this but Zach, do think of your safety. What if some son of a bitch decided to attack you? You need something to defend yourself, right?" Blake said.
But honestly, I didn't paid a single thought to his words.
My mind was still battling it's own fight. I don't know what's happening with me and what I am planning to do but the only thing I am sure about is, I'll do whatever it takes to make her happy even if that means risking my life.
Be it my death, but her happiness is everything.
"Threw them in the ocean." I commanded.
Riley clicked his tongue and one by one, they threw guns, drugs all the illegal things in the water.
I sat on the shore and smiled, faintly.
I love her.
I am deeply in love with September.
Every nerve in me, is for her. My every morning, every evening, every single second is for her.
She's dream to my sleepless nights; she's mine but I couldn't have her, forever.
I love her to the extent where I am ready to die every single day for her. She can kill me if she wants, but this heart, which has learnt to beat only for her will love her till my last dying breath.
She's relief, comfort, home. She's an epitome of love.
My skin craves for her touch, not for a sexual contact but her touch smoothes all my invisible scars.
" Zach?" Riley called.
"Huh?"
"I wish she never gets her memory back." He added.
I stilled.
Her memory?
I would've happily agreed to him if I was the same person I was before. I didn't loved her at that time but now my love is pure for her.
I want her happiness even if she hates me. I don't want to force her for loving me but I'll do everything to make her happy.
She might get her memory back, someday and then she will again start hating me but till then, I want to be the reason behind her happiness.
When she had woken up in the hospital, I had made sure that I'll go far away from her. She had suffered enough just because of me and I was very sure that my absence will bring happiness to her.
But when Doctor told me that she had amnesia, I didn't knew how to react. I wanted to go away from her but then, I wanted to take care of her.
I am selfish but this time only because I was worried about her. She didn't remembered anything, I was afraid that how she's gonna survive. And when I saw her, the pain in her eyes was enough for me to stay.
I didn't left because she was vulnerable and maybe at that time she needed my care more than my absence.
I tried my best to make her smile but her condition wasn't all roses. She was scared and I didn't have any option then to be her comfort. She was in pain, afraid, insecure, weak, pale, helpless and my heart knew that I must stay and be with her.
I wouldn't ever understand that why insecurity, though? She's beautiful. Even without hairs, she's pretty. My heart always skips a beat when she's around with her vibrant smile.
September, you're my lifeline.
I love you!
" I will happily go away from her, once she gets her memory back." I replied.
To me periphery I found them exchanging looks. They'll never understand!
" What if she never remembers anything?" Blake asked.
" I've done enough sins, destiny knows how to pay back." I chuckled, dryly.
Let's face the reality. One day she'll remember everything and then I'll leave her, forever.
But that's okay.
I deserve this. I deserve heartache. I deserve pain. I deserve tears.
I don't know how a monster like me gets to spend some time with her. No less than a miracle, obviously.
I will live my life in these moments when she's with me and when she'll again start hating me at least then I'll have some beautiful memories to remember.
Till she gets her memory back, I'll show her that how beautiful she is, how pretty her smile is, how much important she is to me, how much I care about her, everything, I will show her every finest thing in life, I will gift her enormous happiness, be it temporary but I will.
She needs me and this time, I will become a husband she can trust. I will not disappoint her. I will give her everything, till she doesn't remembers anything.
And then, I will leave her for her own happiness.
" Jeez. You're intense, man." Riley tried to crack a joke.
Key word. "Tried."
I pulled the cell phone out of my pocket and went through my photo gallery.
There she is, my princess.
I've clicked hundreds of her pictures to which she was reluctant but here I became selfish and pleaded because soon these pictures will become only thing which I'll have along with her memories.
My heart warmed and automatically something strange started happening in my stomach.
This f*cking feeling.
I smiled.
" Get up." Riley deadpan.
I ignored him, not being in mood to hear his nonsense and fuck my mind.
" You love, her?"
I smiled more brightly.
" Ah. Look who's smiling like a fool." Blake laughed.
And this time, I didn't get irritated instead I was proud to accept that I love her to the core of my heart.
" Come on, scream to the world that you love her." Riley smirked and gestured towards the endless sea in front of me.
I smiled and quickly stood up.
" I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU, SEPTEMBER. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE . I LOVE YOU. I REALLY LOVE YOU, BABY. I LOVE YOU." I screamed to the top of my lungs.
On the background, they both were laughing their ass off but it felt relieving.
I love her and that's the only reality which I want to live despite it being true not for so long.
"I still can't believe that this is Zach. I mean you're so f*cked man. You're f*cking desperate in love." Riley clicked his tongue and once again they both burst out laughing and this time, I accompanied them too.
I laughed, light heartedly.
I've accepted the fact that one day she'll get her memory back and hate me but till then, I can have the pleasure to love and live.
I will try my best to become the husband for her whom she can trust and smile with.
" We are happy for you Zach." Blake smiled.
I nodded and smiled back at him.
We sat on the sand near the shore and for a second I closed my eyes and felt my heart. Warm and happy emotions flooded inside me and I couldn't help but smile.
Maybe that's why they say that love is beautiful. This warm and sweet emotions are way more overwhelming than hatred.
Peace can only be felt through love not hatred.
" So?"
" So what?" I raised my eyebrows.
" What are you gonna do?" Riley breathed out.
" I don't know. Anything which wouldn't involve inhuman things." I replied, unsure of what else to say.
Honestly,I exactly don't know that what I am suppose to do but I've to do something.
I need to earn money. I have to give all the comforts to September and Claire.
I licked my lips and suddenly an idea crossed my mind.
Cooking.
September had asked me to open restaurant.
And the only thing I can do in the world is to cook except killing.
" She said that I can open my restaurant." I said, hesitantly.
Their eyes turned straight in my direction. Okay. They are going to laugh, right?
One. Two. Three.
But all I get was plain silence.
" That's perfect idea, man." Riley was first to say.
" Exactly. You'll become one hell of a chef and at least we will have a job in hand. Me and Riley will become waiter." Blake laughed.
Eh?
I scurried my eyebrows in confusion.
" Off course, we are also going to join anti criminal club and turn ourselves into decent human beings." Riley shrugged.
I smiled.
I know very well that they're not going to leave me. Even if I'll go all bankrupt they'll still stick with me. How can I forget that they are with me since childhood and we've seen each other's worst phase.
" Thank you." I said.
" For what?" Blake asked.
" For being my brothers not by blood but by here." I pointed towards my heart.
Blake smiled back and his smile was genuine as if he was as happy as me but there was Riley, an ass.
" Stop acting sappy, man. I am in no mood to hug you and all."
I rolled my eyes at his remark but soon he came forward and hugged me . I laughed and gestured Blake to come and hug me too.
Now, this is life.
They both are my family. Well Grace is being missed heavily at this moment.
" Now, leave. I am going to buy some flowers to my wife. She might be waiting for me." I winked.
Blake smiled as usual and Riley, well this time he smiled too.
Bless that woman. She's my everything and I love her more than anything.