SEPTEMBER'S POV
After hearing what Riley said to me about Zachary's past, I silently went inside the hospital without uttering a single word.
And what was I supposed to say?
Whatever he did to my family will never justify how his family was killed in front of his eyes when he was just a child.
Yes, I do feel bad for him, for that little child whose family was murdered Infront of his own eyes and then to save himself he had to kill a person in a such a tender age but still nothing justifies him killing my family.
I will never be able to forgive him.
But what about my heart? Why I have to fell in love with him? It was never supposed to happen. Never.
Since the day I met him, I wished him to be far away with him but I don't want him to die.
F*ck. I'll never be able to live if something happens to him.
I know this is wrong but I can't stop myself loving him.
My mind still hates him and will hate him forever but my heart, my heart loves him and will love him forever.
The memories of Zachary will always make me hate him but the memories of Zach will make me love him, always.
I saw Claire in Chris arms. She was worried too. I don't know why Chris took her to the hospital.
Claire?
Zachary's sister name was Claire, wasn't it? That's why he was always affectionate of her. Maybe the name reminds him of his sister.
I closed my eyes. Please be alive Zachary. Please.
“This all happened because of you.” Grace spat with tears in her eyes. If anything happens to him, I swear I'll kill you.
“Grace! Shut the f*ck up. Zach's accident has nothing to do with September's memory.” Chris came in between.
Grace didn't say a word but I know right now she might be hating me.
But it wasn't my fault. Why would I want that man in danger whom I love?
I love him, I really do.
But,
I hate him, I really do.
Please God! Save him.
The moments I spent with him when I had amnesia were enough for me to believe that I can love the man whom I hated most.
After hours of surgery, he was shifted to normal ward. Doctor said he's out of danger now and the second I heard, it felt as if my own life was now out of danger.
I wanted to see him. I just want to see him and nothing much. For one last time, I would like to see him and then I'll go away from him forever.
Yes, I love him but how can I be with that person who killed my own family? What will my parents think? What will Hunter think of me?
I couldn't do this to me. Zachary tortured me to the point where I could never forget him. However I try, his face will always remind me of the things he did to me.
I'll love him silently, without being with him.
Zachary is still unconscious and Riley and Grace were not in the favour of me to go and see him but somehow I asked Blake and he managed everything.
I quietly stepped inside and saw him on the hospital bed. He was unconscious but I don't know this time his face looks calm as if he's in peace despite being in pain.
My heart clenches watching him in this condition. His pale body full of bruises and cotton bandages.
I sat beside him and softly took his IV connected hand in mine. His touch reminded me of the times he touched me inappropriately but also the times when he loved me.
I never thought that a criminal like him will fall in love. It seems impossible, isn't it?
He will be okay, I know. He's a survivor, he'll be okay. He has to be okay for me.
I smiled painfully. On which road I am? How can I love and hate the same person all at once?
“I wish we met in better situation. If you were nice and then we would've fallen for each other and lived our own happily ever after where you would've been the best chef in town and I would've been running my dad's company. We would've together adopted daughter and I name her Claire so that you feel good and always find the sister you lost, in her. It would have been a fairy tale but I guess life's not a fairytale.” I said to him.
I placed a kiss on his forehead and smiled. It's okay. Everything will be okay now. We couldn't be together and we will never be.
I looked at him for one last time and left the room. Outside I saw Riley and Grace staring at me.
Uh. Okay.
“Do you have any f*cking idea that how much Zach loves you?” Riley asked.
I nodded. I know he loves me more than his own life.
“Forgive him, Em.” Chris said.
I looked at him in disbelief. Out of all person, how could he say this? He was my best friend, isn't it? Everything happened Infront of him, isn't it?
“I can't.” I replied.
“Please. I am begging you.” Blake whispered.
Why can't everyone understand that it's not about forgiving him. It's about my feelings. Love and hate can never go together and I feel both for him.
“I will leave, once Zachary's out of danger.”
“You're a bitch, you know that?” Grace rolled her eyes.
“I am sorry to say but so are you.” I answered.
And with that we both smiled a little.
I wish Zachary's wake up soon. I want nothing else than him to be alive.
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BOOK NAME-PLAYER IN LOVE
" It's Not About The Game But The Player Who Is Known For Breaking Hearts."
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|MAX'S POV|
" Turn off the goddamn alarm." I mumbled, burying my face on the pillow.
" Baby it isn't alarm, your cellphone is ringing." A slutry, annoying voice dropped into my ears.
I groaned and parted my eyelids only to saw a naked woman lying next to me. Scrunching up my nose, I straightened my limbs.
" Hello." I yawned, bringing the iPhone to my ear.
" WHERE THE F-CK ARE YOU? I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU SINCE AN HOUR. MOTHER F-CKER, YOU BETTER BRING YOUR ASS TO MY PLACE RIGHT NOW."
Vishal, my oh-not-so-good best friend screamed from the other side making me roll my eyes at his sudden PMSing self.
Asshole.
" Well, good morning to you too." I replied with sarcasm dripping from my voice.
" F-ck off." He spat and ended the call.
I stared at my phone screen to realize that it was already half past ten in the morning.
" Baby, won't you go for another round?" That nasty woman purred and started brushing her finger over my bare chest.
My eyes fell on her face and to say that I was shocked would be an understatement. I mean who the f-ck cake up her face with makeup in morning? It means she had woke up before me then caked up her face and then once again lay beside me not to mention naked.
Women these days.
I licked my lips and decide to leave from...well wherever I am.
" Baby, won't you have morning s-x with me?" She pouted and trust me it was damn disgusting.
After ignoring her, I grabbed my denim and quickly wore it. As I was going to zip up the zipper, her manicured fingers pressed up against my V cut as she licked my chest with her lizard like tongue.
Without wasting a second, I shoved her aside and ran my gaze to search for my shirt which I am sure that I've thrown somewhere near the bed yesterday's night.
" I love you, Max. I couldn't forget how you gave me multiple orgasms, last night. Since now we are together, should I make our relationship public?" She chirped.
I rolled my eyes and pushed my iPhone in my Denim's pocket.
" Relationship? Hold your tongue, whore. Last night was just one time thing. I guess I forgot to mention that I don't f-ck a same woman, twice." I hissed and spot my shirt lying beside her.
" Pass the shirt, Cindy, Clara or whatever the hell your name is."
" B-But I love you.." And here she started acting like a top class bitch by faking crocodile tears.
In a matter of second, her mascara smudged around her eyes and streamed down with her tears. Her face became more horrible. F-ck, this is getting way much disgusting.
" Look woman, stop whining and-"
I was about to say more but before that could happen, she took my shirt and wore it.
Great! F-cking great.
" I..Love you." She hiccupped in between her sobs. " And my name is Cassie."
I sighed in frustration and walked out of her house. Grumbling under my breath, I turned the engine of my car and drove to Vishal's place.
" What the hell do you want, Vishal?" I yelled as I entered his hallway.
" Are you out from jungle?" Rehan, my other best friend asked.
Oh so this Bastard is here, too.
" Something like that." I replied and sprawled on the couch.
" Why are you shirtless? Don't tell me that the woman whom you had f-cked last night had stole your shirt along with your heart?"
I raised my middle finger at Vishal's pathetic comment and chuckled, dryly.
"I don't have a f-cking heart."
" Why don't you stop all this?" Rehan breathed out.
" Stop what?" I raised my eyebrows and found both of them sharing a look with each other.
" Your player ways." Vishal replied.
I rolled my lips inside my mouth and waited impatiently for them to complete their 'Let's irritate, Max' talk.
" You know I have a very bad morning breath plus after having a rough s-x last night, I am stinking from dried sweat. So can I use your bathroom, brother?" I asked Vishal.
" Why this f-cking formality? What's mine is yours too except Tara." He muttered.
I laughed at the mention of his girlfriend. Both of my best friends has this huge possessiveness with their women when it comes to me. I f-cking love to piss them off.
I walk to bathroom not before grabbing clean pair of sweatpant and T-shirt of Vishal.
It was almost my usual routine to crash at either Vishal or Rehan's place in the morning to at lest get few moments of calmness.
I turned off the shower after having a bath and used Vishal's brush to clean my teeth. Gross, I know but who cares. Changing my clothes, I stepped back into hallway and again sprawled on the couch. F-ck, these days, my tiredness level was at it's best.
" Notorious Billionaire, Max Costello was spotted yesterday's night with the famous singer Cassie Fox. Rumors tell that they had shared a kiss in public while coming out of the club. Were this couple dating or was it just an one time fling for our Mr. Player?"
I rolled my eyes at the news channel broadcast and threw a cushion at Vishal to change the channel but instead he came and sat next to me with his jaw almost hitting the floor.
" Dude you f-cked Cassie.. The Cassie Fox?"
He nudged my shoulder.
" So? What's the big deal?" I shrugged my shoulders.
" Man, she's famous celebrity. She had won numerous awards for her songs." He exaggerated.
I gave him bored look and ran fingers through my wet hairs. " Trust me, I didn't knew her name till morning. She was crying out loud while confessing her love for me. I mean that's pathetic man. Her face was looking damn horrible when mixed with her mascara and tears. Ew, gross."
I shuddered and laughed when Rehan passed me disappointed look.
" Learn to respect women, Max." Rehan said in a stern voice.
Respect my ass.
" I only respect two women. One your wife, Mayra." I pointed at Rehan then at Vishal. "Another your girlfriend, Tara."
" You better otherwise I'll chop off your balls." Vishal snickered.
I smiled, a genuine one, if I may add. Mayra and Tara both are like sisters to me. And I respect them not because they are women of my best friends but they deserve to be respected.
There's this hole in my chest when it comes to sister and somewhere both Tara and Mayra fix that hole.
And talk about other women, they are only good for my bed but only for one night. I feel disgusted to f-ck the same woman twice. Call it my over confidence, I know that no women can resist the charm of Max Costello. After all I've everything for which they are crazy about like money, fame, panty dropping look, class. What else they could want? But if only they knew that behind my façade, I am nothing.
" Are celebrity singer Cassie Fox and Billionaire Casanova Max Costello dating?"
" F-CKING CHANGE THE CHANNEL." I yelled and in a matter of second, Vishal shut the television off.
I pressed my fingers over my temple and inhaled a breath to calm myself down.
Hell with this mood swing.
" I am...I..F-ck.. I am sorry, okay?" I apologized and heard Vishal cursing under his breath.
" Do you want me to take an appointment of psychiatrist for you?" Rehan laughed.
" I am ever ready if that psychiatrist would be your wife." I winked which made him instantly scowl in response.
I sighed and waited for few seconds before deciding to lighten up their mood.
" Vishal, I don't know about her singing talent but I must add that she was quite a screamer." I smirked.
" Who, Cassie Fox?"
" Duh."
" Dude, why had you called me here?" I asked, suddenly remembering that he had ruined my sleep.
" Rehan needed a little favour." Vishal replied.
I nodded and shifted my attention to Rehan who was munching on the bagels.
" I have to meet Drew's class teacher, can you pick Mayra from her clinic?" He asked.
" Off course." I smiled.
I looked at Rehan and automatically my mind started wondering that how lucky he is to have a loving wife and son by his side.
" Max you're so single."
Vishal whined out of blue.
I rolled my eyes at his annoying behavior and shifted my gaze to Rehan who was chuckling at Vishal's statement. F*ck them, they can be so irritating sometimes. I was about to throw a cranky remark but caught my tongue back as a better idea struck into my mind to make them burn in jealousy.
" What can I do Vishal? The two perfect women whom I would have loved to call as my girlfriend are already committed." I faked a little sulky tone.
Vishal's expression turned to curious one as he shared a look with Rehan. I smirked mentally and worked more on acquiring a gloomy look.
" Who?" Rehan asked to which Vishal nodded eagerly.
Seriously? They still didn't get the clue? Well maybe they have so much smitten in the love that their common sense was no more common.
" I am talking about Mayra and Tara. I mean those two are like perfect. I wish they were single so-"
But before I could finish, they beat me with their loud cursing.
" Bastard."
" Asshole."
I doubled over laughing at their funny as f*cked face and shoved my middle finger in the air.
" Beware, you don't know about my charms. I can totally make your Women head over heal for me and then you two would become like a love sick vagabond who will cry their tears out at all those pathetic breakup songs." I added which worked like a fuel.
But after a few seconds they both burst out laughing making my lips to curl in genuine smile. This is good. This all is good. We are once again back to our High school friendship. They both are like my family and at this moment I can ask nothing but their happiness. Now everything's right and I will hope that it will always remain like this.
" But really man, you should get serious and find someone who'll be worth spending your life with." Rehan spoke.
I rolled my eyes but couldn't help to feel the emptiness taking over my heart. Someone worth spending my life with? I swallowed a thick lump down my saliva and avoided that thought.
" Why should I settle down when I can f-ck sexy women, whenever I want?" I raised my eyebrows at them.
Rehan threw a bagel at me and Vishal just rolled his eyes, once again switching on the news channel.
" Max Costello was caught storming out of the Cassie Fox's house this morning, that too, shirtless. Seems like they are having an affair."
I groaned, finding my pictures on the screen. Motherf-cking paparazzi.
I glanced at them who were all ready to throw some mocking comments but before that could happen, I threw my hands up in air and stood up from the couch.
" I am going to pick Mayra." I announced and left Vishal's house.