SEPTEMBER'S POV
“He's awake.” Blake told everyone.
I sat on the bench and a breath of relief passed through my chest. The heart which was hurting from so long now found relief.
I smiled as wide as I can but I don't know why tears started falling down my cheeks. These are happy tears, aren't they?
Maybe now it's my time to leave.
“I am leaving. I don't want to hurt Zachary no more.” I said to everyone.
“Ember, Zach will be more hurt if you'll leave him. Why can't both of understand this f*cking thing?” Riley facepalm himself.
“I can't hate him and love him at the same time. It will only damage both of our hearts.” I replied.
“Then for god's sake don't love him. Just hate him and be with him.”
“I can't unlove him.” I smiled.
“You're weird.”
“We'll let you go but first you've to meet Zach.” Chris said, smiling.
“No.” I deadpan but he started pleading which I couldn't ignore.
“September, Can I say something?” Blake asked.
I nodded.
“Are you going to take Claire with you?” .
I stilled.
I never thought about this.
If I take Claire with me then how am I supposed to take care of her? I don't even know where to go. And if I'll left her with Zach then she'll throw a fit about where September is. .
“I....I” I ran out of words.
“Go and meet him.”
I nodded.
I entered inside and saw him closing his eyes. This time he was really in pain.
“Zachary.” I called out his name and quickly he patted his eyes to look into my eyes.
He was surprised to see me but didn't say anything just gesture me to sit next to him.
I sat beside him and looked everywhere but him. The silence between us was uncomfortable.
“Are you okay?” I asked after thousand of thoughts about what to ask him.
“Will I ever be?” He replied.
I licked my lips and f*ck it. I can't do this. What the hell am I going to talk to him?
I stand up to leave but he held my hand. “Don't go.”
I stopped in my tracks and once again sat beside him.
“You know when I was about to have an accident, I had flashes of you and only you. I thought if something happens to me then what will happen to you. How will you manage everything on you? You're still fragile, I don't want you to work to take care of yourself and Claire. I thought if I am going to die today then I'll never be able to ask you for forgiveness even if you never forgive me. I regretted leaving you, I always want to be with you but then again why would you be with me? But there's little Claire, don't you think that she deserves love of both of us? I know we would never be a happy family but can we try? I'll be okay even if you hate me for the rest of our lives, I'll live happily but all I want is to be with you. Hate me however you want September but please, I am begging you this time that don't leave me. I'll always look after you, I'll do my best to give perfect life to Claire. I'll be dead man September, if you'll leave me. I love you so much that it hurts to think of you being away from me. I want you to be with me, even if you not talk a single word to me. I'll be okay with that too. Please, just don't leave me. I know I don't deserve forgiveness for what I did to you but I am begging you.”
He said in one breath, still holding my wrist.
I kept on stating at him, his each words playing in my mind over and over again.
He'll be okay to be with me for the rest of his life even if I hate him?
My mind became numb, I didn't know to say, what to think. I just don't know.
“I know it's hard for you September but try me for once, please. Don't think of me as Zachary, think of me as Zach.” He begged.
“Take rest.” I told him and quickly ran out of the room to get some air. I was holding my breath from so long.
“What happened Em?” Grace asked.
I looked at her and saw her holding hands with Chris like they were supporting each other.
“September.” Chris called out my name.
“I am not leaving.” I told everyone.
And as I did they all started smiling. Everyone with a happy face and I don't know what Claire understood that she started clapping her tiny hands.
“Thankyou.” Riley came to me folding his hands.
I felt embarrassed but instead I said “Why don't you kill me?”
He made a face that seems like he was about to cry. What?
Riley and tears?
“Hey, don't cry. It's okay.” I hugged him.
“I was scared for Zach. I am sorry that I said so.”
“Its okay. I can understand.” I smiled.
“Thankyou September.” Blake said.
They all came to hug me and it felt good to have them as family.
Chris. Grace. Claire. Riley. Blake.
They all are my family.
I smiled.