Loving him is my greatest downfall.
I woke up in a condo. I remember that Loisa and Cassy brought me home. I was drunk but they weren't because they knew that I would definitely get drunk.
That feeling, you breathe on the ground but you feel like ‘you have no life? My colorful life became dark.
Why does he have no appearance? It's been a month. Why didn't he even text me? Or even say that he is still alive and still breathing?
"Fuck! ' I missed him so much! " I was almost loud and got tangled in my hair. I forgot that I was in Cassy's condo now.
"Tsk! Frix, what's really going on with you? You know, we let you hang out even though we were hanging in the air ! We didn't know what your problem was! '" She snapped at me. We're just the two of us here. We were in the dining area of her unit.
Do I have to tell her? I can not take it anymore. “I love Rad so much.” I looked up at her. I know I look ragged right now.
She looked shocked.
"What? Rad? As in Radleigh Montemayor?" She hissed and sat down on front of me.
I nodded. My head hurts from the effects of alcohol and I haven’t eaten yet.
"We kissed, we make out, and we had sex so many times." I sobbed and covered my face by my palms.
"Holy fuck!" She mumbled. "I can't believe this. That's why you're like that. Since we showed you their pictures in Tagaytay. " She figured it out.
"But how Frix?" Tire mess, she looked at me.
"We've been together. He was my first. I love him. I'm just so scared that I might just expect that he loves me too." like rain my tears poured down in front of Cassy.
Even though she was in a mess, she tried to understand what I was going to say.
"We had a secret affair. W-We are fuck buddies."
Cassy held my hand. "Frix, Rad is a notorious playboy and you know that." She directly said that to me.
"I know." I said in a low tone
"Everyone in our School knows what he is. He had a good fucking looks and he's rich. Their family is powerful, Frix. He'd just bang you and left you worn out. They say, Rad used woman. Rad fucked them once and never again. "
But Rad took me, so many times or maybe he really doesn't have anything else to use so he chose me?
"But Frix don't you notice? Rad doesn't have a other woman? I mean there's no rumors spreading about him. No more women linked to him..until he posted those pictures and there were no captions. So are you conscious? Maybe he's just a cousin or something? "
"But, why he's not here?"
She shrugged her shoulder. "Only you can answer that." her eyes also narrowed. "Did you hide your relationship?" She asked.
I nodded. "It's just me .. I'm the only one trying to hide it. '' I saw Cassy put away my drinks and put them away. So she didn't want me to drink anymore.
"Because I'm afraid, Cas that I might just know that I'm the only one who loves. "
"Why? Did you ask him?"
I shook. "No." And bow.
"You know Frix.... You won't get anything if you don't make a way. Ask him! Tell him what you feel ! If he says he doesn't really love you, then that's how it will be! And get drunk for a reason! " She smiled. Somehow, a friend also had an advantage. I had some hope in what she said.
"I'm sorry for being so stupid last time. I'm just--" I was interupted by my cellphone.
"Wait." I say.
I took my phone out and there I saw 'Rad's calling. My eyes widened. After one month he just called? What the hell.
I canceled it.
"It's Rad?" Cass was a smiling like a dog.
"So get ready your pussy for Rad's comeback." She teased me. My cheeks got hot.
Damn her!
"Fuck buddies huh?"
"Stop it!" I sighed.
Until I receive a message from him.
From Rad: What the fuck Frix? Baby, please let me explain. I'm here in your Condo.
Oh my god! My jaw dropped literally!
Another message from him.
From Rad: I really missed you baby.
"What will I'm gonna do?" i said out of frustration.
"Make up sex, Frix." Cassy said to me. I stared at her and she burst out laughing.
What will I do?