If I hadn't smelled the smell of food I wouldn't have woken up. Rad isn't here.
We have sex several times last night. I can't count and I can't imagine those positions we made!
I shouldn't worry because I'm taking pills. Maybe if I don't use contraceptives, I might get pregnant. We're still too young now, but if at the right time, why not?
I went down only wearing his big shirt and only panty and I didn't have a bra. I just left my long hair without a comb. I brushed my teeth before going down.
I saw him in the kitchen when he had finished cooking.
"Good Morning," I greeted and hugged him from his back.
Quickly and effortlessly he turned me forward and made me sit at the table.
I giggled when he kissed my neck and sniffed it. His breath barely slammed into my neck.
"Good morning, baby." He said huskily while steady kissing my neck. I hope we are like this every day . I don't want to go back in Manila.
"I'm sorry, you always cook, I don't really know".
"You don't have to cook. I'll take care of that. Besides, last night I was already full of you."
I remembered him eating my p*ssy! He bit and licked it for almost an hour! He's really crazy! He really is!
My cheeks almost turned red at what he said and hit him.
"You're an animal! Ga--" I immediately covered my mouth so that I could not continue to say anything. I remembered what Rad told me last night.
One curse, one rough sex.
"You curse again. You didn't really bring that. You'll pay it, later. Eat first."
He made me sit down properly and put rice and a dish on my plate. He even seasoned me with milk. I feel like I’m used to Rad being too thoughtful with me.
I can't help but think that maybe I'm not the only one Rad has taken here.
We finished eating and he washed the plates .
"Rad.." I gently called him. His two hands wrapped around my body we were leaning on the sofa and my head was on his chest as we watched a movie on the flat screen tv.
"Hmmm?" He replied.
"How many women have you brought here?" Out of the blue I asked. I really can't stand it. I am insecure!
"Are you really thinking that?" Can't believe, he said that.
"Just answer me!" I frowned and crossed my arms.
"I'm not bringing a woman here Frixxie and stop asking me that." He said with finality.
"Okay."
He immediately kissed my hair and tightened his hug.
A few minutes later someone called him. So he immediately picked it up and answered. I immediately remembered my cellphone. How is it? Maybe Rad hasn't thrown that away yet?
I need to see that because maybe papa has a call or text there.
He is on the veranda, it's wall glass is the wall so I can see him from here. His forehead creased while talking on his phone as if he was disgusted.
Who is he talking to? I was suddenly nervous. I dont know why.
I just focused on watching and after a while he sat next to me he hugged me tightly and kissed me hard on my lips.
"Rad what's wrong?" I asked him worriedly.
He sighed deeply and buried my face on his chest. He heaved a deep sigh as if he was having a hard time.
"We'll go back to Manila tomorrow." he said emphatically as if he didn't like it.
I felt sad all of a sudden.
"Okay." I smiled but the joy did not reach my eyes.
Now my sweet dream will end here. Tomorrow everyone will return to normal. I don’t know how I’m going to deal with it.
****
I wore a black off shoulder and a high waist ragged skinny jeans. I tied my hair in a messy bun. Four days since Rad and I, got back here in Manila and those days for me like hell.
He texted me last time that his family needed to go somewhere in Tagaytay. I don’t know why it took ‘four days.
"Hello! Earth to Frixxie!" Loisa told me to sit next to me on the bench with Cassy. They were carrying frappe.
It’s sad when he’s gone. Worst, even though I'm sad I have nothing to say even to my friends.
"You're an idiot again." Cassy commented to me.
"It's nothing. Maybe I'm just feeling bad."
They looked at each other. "Are you sure Frix? You're losing weight so much." Loisa even held my arm as if measuring if I had lost weight.
"You still look stressed, but still a Goddess! Gosh! How can you do that at the same time?" She added.
Cassy laughed. "Oh no ! Loisa Ina! Get a makeover if you want to look like baby Frixxie! "
Loisa just stared at Cassy. I smiled and just sipped my frappe. We're here now 'in a Park near HMU.We just picked up a chart earlier at school and decided to take a walk here.
It's 5:00 pm already but I don't feel like going home . I'll just be especially sad there coz' I'm alone.
" Rad's Hot here." Loisa sighed as she pressed her cellphone.
"May I see!" said Cassy.
Maybe Rad uploaded their pictures on instagram.Shit. How I miss him so much.
"Damn, Maybe that's his girlfriend! ' They're sweet! "
Almost, I crumpled my grip on the frappe because of what ‘Cassy said.
Hug? My chest suddenly ached as if I couldn't breathe in pain.My tears rolled down my cheeks so I simply looked up.
Now there is an answer to my question if he is the same with other women. Just like he does to me always.
"Look at this Frix, she is probably Rad's girlfriend". Loisa told me.
"I'm not interested in that." I answer coldly.
I picked up my cellphone and and text 'Rad.
I don't know what he's going to say. I don't care if I look like a fool assuming that we really in relationship.
I felt too much pain, too much pain to see him touched and hugged by others as well.
To Rad: I saw your pictures.You look happy in her arms. We can stop what kind of label we had now? Because I don't want this ... Don't ever come near me again.
I'm feeling so sick right now. Until I couldn't stop sobbing.
"Fuck! Why are you crying Frix? Is something wrong with you? Who fought you? I'll beat him up!" 'Cassy said to me.
They are both confused.
"No, I just missed my dad." Which is true. When Rad returned my cellphone before we went home, papa texted and miscalled me a lot.
I felt like I was suddenly lonely. I seem to be looking for my Dad’s presence.
"Are you sure? Maybe I can figure out how." Cassy said to me.
"I want us to bar later." I said and I turn off my phone.
The two of them looked at each other as if talking with their eyes.
Loisa sighed. "Okay, but Frix if you have a problem. Just tell us. But we're also sad because you are our friend.Where is the Frixxie who was talkative then? "
Cassy caressed my back. Somehow I'm still lucky having friends.
They hugged me both.
"That's enough Frix! Let's go to the bar later. I'll treat you so don't cry anymore. What else do you want? I'll give it to you!" Cassy greeted me so I laughed a little.
"Lets get drunk tonight! Sky is the limit!" I said.
"Right! Smile now! You just cried! Why are you still so beautiful even though your face is like that!" Cassy even scratched her head.
I laughed a little . My emotions calmed down a bit because of the two of them. I want to have fun later. I don't know what the consequences will be but I just want to forget for a moment the pain.
I want to forget him. But what can I do if my own heart and mind are beating and thinking is him?