I haven't been with him for a long time.
By the time I got away. I admit I had a hard time not seeing Rad. I have to admit, I miss him so much.I could feel in his gentle kiss, the longing as I did. I tried to kiss him back but it just drowned out my sob.
I tried to forget him but I failed. I think I drown too much for him so I can't do anything to get up.
Until he finished his kiss that also lasted a few minutes, but I'm still crying.
I cried silently. He tried to reach my chin so our gaze will meet but I took his hand away.
"I'm going home, Rad." I stuttered because of my sobbing. I don't know why with just one kiss.. it came back all, all the painful things that I tried to forget.
He cupped my face and wiped my tears but another tear immediately flowed.
He wrapped me in his arms,my favorite place in his arms.
"We need to talk." He said huskily and kissed my lips."I really miss this." He added almost in a whisper.
This simple place seemed to be romantic for me. The light from the moon, the gentle breeze blowing in my hair and the quiet, only cricket could be heard.
For now I’ll let it go first. I will let myself.
For three years, just now again.
I sighed and rubbed my cheek.
"We're talking, Rad." I said.
He shook his head.
"About you and me."
"We're done. We broke up-"
"We didn't break up Frix. No break up, you just suddenly went away." He said with a serious tone.
His body heat was just enough to keep me from getting cold. His hug was also enough so that I wouldn't fall when my knees tremble.
I looked a him in disbelief.
"Whatever you say, Rad we’re done." I sobbed. I leaned over so I wouldn't look at him. I couldn't.
"Why are you still insisting? We can't do that anymore, can we ?! You have Pia! You have a child--"
I can't finish what I'm going to say because he cursed loudly!
"What the fuck ?!" He looked at me confused.
"You already have a child, don't you? I saw you! At the mall! You're carrying a girl! She looks like Pia.” I sighed.
He laugh so hard so I hit his chest.
"Isn't it? Huh? On my last day here? She's bleeding! You fuck her! And you have a child!"
"I can't have children if you're not the mother!" he explain.
I creased my forehead. He's insane!
"You're crazy !What do you want huh? We're both going to be your girl ?”
He kissed me suddenly.
I pushed him. "R-Rad, we're talking!"
But I sighed as his kiss fell on my neck.
I want to swear!
"Yeah." He said hoarsely. "Just talk."
He sucked my neck and bit it.
My knees would almost shake at what he was doing.
He smirked.
"So that's it? I don't have a child. Believe me. You're still the one I love and I'm going to get pregnant."
I startled.
"Huh? I saw you and Pia kissing !And..and you took her to the hospital because she was pregnant. "I'm confused. How?
"Baby kiss doesn't make you pregnant-fuck!"
I hit him, did he even get the joke?
"If you're kidding me, stop it! It's not working!"
"We'll talk tomorrow we can't talk here .I'll pick you up tomorrow." He finally told me.
Tomorrow? Again?
He's caressing my face that.
"I miss you so much." He sighed.
"I don't want to.I have something to do tomorrow." I pushed him hard so that he could get right into his car.
"Try me. I know your place and password, Frix. Maybe you want me to rape you there."
"Damn you! Alright! Yes!" I grabbed him and pinched his side.
"Damn, only now, I laugh like this again." He uttered that he almost just said it to himself.
"Let's go home. It's late." .
He nodded and licked his lips. He was still there by my side for a while and stared at me.
I shot up my brows.
"What?" I asked.
He cursed and shook his head.
So tomorrow, we'll talk.
I really need an explanation. For me as well.
But I still can't risk.
I need clarity on everything.