The night was getting darker and the breeze was getting colder. Why didn't I bring a jacket?
I almost have a stiff neck because I only look to the right. Rad's table is on the left.
We drink and talk. But I could still hear the laughter and arguing at their table.
It felt strange to me when Rad’s deep voices were heard.
"Someone's hiding." Said a voice.
"I know. " Rad replied. I knew very well his voice. Why do we need to hear more? "I can get her back. " He added in a deep voice.
The men shouted.
"Make up sex bro.." Another voice said.
Gosh. Frixxie, don't be like that! You’re just torturing yourself.
I heaved a deep sigh and sat properly. I crossed my legs. I don't know if Rad will see me anymore.
Maybe he already saw me so it's useless to hide.
Chin up! Frix!
"Act normal." Cassy whispered.
Dammit! What are they saying? That man has a child!
I blinked.
"What do you think of me? Abnormal? " I sneered and drunk my glass of shot.
“Just tell us a story.” Loisa said.
The two look ate me as if ready to listen to what I had to say.
Others go to the center and dance. Someone also greets Cassy and leaves immediately.
I raised two eyebrows and bent my hand on the table and placed my chin there.
"What story?" I asked and pinched a slice of chicken and ate.
"About you and Daimos." Cassy looked at me with wide eyes.
I rolled my eyes.
"What about us?"
"Yeah, Exactly! Ask that to yourself!" Here is Cassy.
"Do you really like him?" Loisa mumbled and shrugged.
"He's handsome and rich! Very kind! I know him before! And I'm really curious about you two. You didn't tell too much about you Frixxie."
I gulped down my drink. I feel a bit tipsy.
"I like Daimos."
They both gasped in unison.
"Really."
"What about Radleigh?" Loisa suddenly asked.
I glanced at the men's table. They are surrounded by women. The others are Cassy's cousins.
I want to struggle! Fuck!
“I want to move on.” I admitted. "I don't want to meddle with his life. As much as I can, I will. "
Cassy was shocked and even slapped the table.
"You still love him!" She declared.
I just shook my head and ignored her because the other table was screaming.
"Come on! Rad! Dance her!" said the man I did not know. Because the woman invites Rad to dance.
Dammit!
Rad just shook his head.
I gulped the contents of my shotglass again.
"Come on! Let's dance!" Cassy cheered and pulled me somewhere!
Dammit!
Quickly I pulled down my dress because it was rolling up when I sat down.
I miss to dance.
Others are already dancing .
I finger combed my hair while dancing and just grind a little, sexily.
I ran a finger up my thigh.
"Wooaahh!" Others shouted as champagne exploded in the air.
"My God!" I sighed as I wet a little but also laughed.
"Come on!" Loisa who was even more excited about the dance.
Damn! This is not a bar!
I felt a bit sticky because of the spilled champagne so I apologized first to get to Comfort room.
Some on my chest was a little red. Maybe red wine was blown into the air earlier.
I marched to the bathroom and stumbled because of my stilettos.
I bent down to take off my stilettos. There's no one here in the hallway so I can't be seen in my very short dress.
I took it off but I could hardly do it because I was feeling a bit dizzy.
"Fuck! Why it’s difficult to take it off?”
I feel like I'm going to throw up.
My world really spinning. I'm getting hot.
But I was surprised when someone sat in front of me and he himself took off my stilettos.
"Why are you undressing this here? I see your panties." His voice was so cold that my hair almost stood on end.
Fuck. My heart pounded.
I pushed him and stood up. "So, what? Why..do you care?"
I fixed my hair at the same time.
He also stood up and folded his arms in front of me. He's towering me. If then his body was handsome now, I looked at the muscles in his arm! They seems so strong!
"I care because I've tasted and seen that once." He's staring at me coldly but he's smirking.
My cheeks turned red at what he said so I slapped him.
"Pervert!" I shouted at him and marched to the bathroom
I didn't hear any footsteps following me so I rested well but my heart was still pounding.
I opened the women's bathroom and entered but to my surprise someone came in next and slammed it shut.
His cold and piercing eyes told me that he's very dangerous right now. His lips are in a thin line.
My eyes narrowed at what he did.
"What are you doing Rad!"
But he didn't answer me, he grabbed me and slammed me into the bathroom sink without any difficulty so I slapped his hard chest.
"You're hiding in almost three fucking years with that Daimos Erizalde! And now you came here like nothing's happened? Really huh?" he said with greeting teeth. I could feel his anger.
How did he know? Fuck!
"In one fucking damn roof with him huh?" He sneered that I was almost overwhelmed by his anger.
I looked at him with disbelief. I looked at him trying to mirror his reactions.
Why he's acting like this? As if I'm still at fault?
And what's with him if Daimos and I live on one roof?
I tried to composed myself just to lessen my nervousness. Being with Rad in one place makes me suffocated. It seemed like a sulfocated place with just the two of us.
I raised my brows to hide my uneasiness.
"What about you now, huh?" I said sarcastically. I pushed him a little but he's too strong. He bent even more with both hands on either side of me.
I'm trying to flash back all the scene way back three years ago. That time when Pia bleed and he was so worried that even if he glanced at me he wouldn't do it!
I smirked. "You have nothing to say? Don't waste my time because I have no time for your delusions. "
His jaw clenched. How can I leave if he is too close to me?
"Why?" He hoarsely said that I was almost horrified. "Did you love him during that year?" He suddenly asked that I did not expect he would ask this!
My eyes narrowed.
"Why are you asking? Why are you doing this? As if you didn't hurt me before? As if you thought that no matter how much you hurt my feelings, I would still come back to you?" I scoffed.
Another tears rolled down on my cheeks.
He says nothing. Hell! Come on!
"What ?!" I slapped his chest! "Speak up!"
He just catches all my slaps and his face reddened. His eyes became bloodshot.
"You don't love me anymore?"
I could feel his pain with every utterance of that word.
"That you chose to stay away from me? That you preferred that man?"
I want a fake laugh! What does he think? He fuck Pia and they have a child! What does he think I will do?
As long as I can rebuild the bricks I've tried to built for almost a years. I will!
Still the same. I'm still the old Frixxie! I am weak when it comes to him.
As long as I can. I want to gripped tight on my feelings. It's for my own good. I have to be selfish! I'm done being selfless!