It's been two days since we came home from our tour in Palawan.
So bad I didn't take a dip much in the sea because, after that night I had my menstruation.
"I'm going in. " I say goodbye to Rad.
The exam is coming up so I need to be able to review well because I failed when Rad and I broke up. And him, On the other hand, will not enter school because he said he has a meeting today with the Architect who will do Designs on his beach in Negros.
"Later." He said and caressed my face.
"Okay." I agreed because it was still early. So, he wants me to be here in his car before the bell ring.
"Aren't you late for your meeting?" I asked him. He was just playing my ring finger.
"I own my time, Frixxie." He said calmly.
"Is that architect...is a woman?" I suddenly asked not looking at him. Nothing! I just want to know.
He stopped playing with my finger.
He froaned. "Yeah, she's a girl."
I rolled my eyes.He chuckled and he made me sit on his lap.
"What are you thinking?"
"Nothing." I answered immediately.
He groaned. "Don't be so jealous baby. I've met a lot of women. That's part of my business. It's also for your future for me. I want to give the best life for you."
My cheeks warmed at what he was saying.
"Okay, I'm not jealous anymore." I said.
"Good."
He caressed my face softly and stared at my face.
His thumb stopped on my lip.
"I can't wait to marry you." He said huskily.
Here he is again.
Not that I don't want to, but I still want to prove something to my dad. I need to graduate first and find a job before I get married.Before I start a family with Rad.
"I need to graduate first." I heaved a sigh as he kissed my forehead.
"Yeah, I understand. " he kissed my neck and sucked it. He put lovebites on me again.
"Are you taking a pill?" He suddenly asked.
I bit my lip and nodded. I could barely speak.
"Hmmm..." He hummed. "When we get married, contraceptives are not allowed. I want a child. I want a little you. "Here he goes again.
"Little me? So what would you name it then? "
"I'll name her Emerald" Woah!
"Where did you get that name?"
"I get that in The name of the Diamond Stones Queen in England. Emerald means Green."
"Okay, nice."
"I want her to look like you and the attitude form me, ofcourse." Damn. Why are we talking about this?
I laughed. "Maybe she also locked her boyfriend in her condo by chance? "I teased him. That's what he's doing to me.
I cried so hard. Eyes clouded because of my tears as I exited the building!
I am so hopeless!
I was in the parking area when someone grabbed me.
I turned tiredly because I knew who it was again.
"Let me go!" I shrieked.
His eyes were red and his right hand was bloody. But I am too hurt to pay more attention to his hand.I'm a big fool. I can’t count how many times I’ve been hurt because of him.
Then it was okay! It's okay if I see her as a woman even in front of me because I know for myself that our relationship has no label! But now, it's still clear in the water! He committed his self to me! He said that! Obviously we are boyfriend and girlfriend!
Is this over then?
It's not like I love him so much, he'll just hurt me over and over again!
He's my first!
He can't be satisfied with me!?
"Please, Baby.You're thinking wrong." He bit his trembling lips.
Behind him I saw Pia followed him.
I wiped the tears on my cheeks. My traitor tears that even in front of them shamelessly came out!
"Whatever else you say Rad! I've seen it! " I sighed. “Lets stop this bullshit! I don't want this relationship. Let's break up!" I shout. Some people staring at us with curiousity.
"Give me time to explain." he begged and hugged me.
“Explain?” I mocked. "Explain your face Rad!"
" Rad? Let her go! You're just wasting your time!" Pia shouted behind him. I don’t know why they are so close. I don't know why she's here. Such a flirt!
"Shut up!" Rad shouted at her.
"What the hell Rad! Don't yell at me. " she never stopped butting in!
My blood boiled with anger. The fuck!
"You don't deserve her! She's nothing! She’s a slut-"
I laughed because of what she was saying so she stop.
“Slut?” I scoffed. "Who among us huh? Who among us is forcing himself on Rad huh? Seriously? Who among us kissing random boys at School?" I shot my eyebrow upwards and looked at her in disgust.
She blushed in embarrassment. Yeah, just right.
I looked badly at Rad.
"Now it's Rad? Fuck right? Same feather flocks together again. You're the same."
"You bitch!" Pia laughed. "Oh, why does it hurt? That Rad just cheated on you?"
Rad groaned and about to say a words but I cut him.
“ E, it was only Rad who fucked me. The one and only. How about you? How many boys just fuck you?” I said confidently."How many various men huh?" I chuckled and pursed my lips.
She cursed and pulled my hair.
Fuck!
Rad held out her hand.
"Fuck, Pia! Get your hands off!" Rad yelled at her.
"Ack ~" I shouted.
"Damn it!” Rad cursed.
I pushed her with all my might so Rad let her go and her ass hit the floor near the trash can!
Serves you right!
"Ahhhck ~" Pia shouted with pain as she hold her stomach.
I heard Rad swearing so I looked up.
I almost paled at what I saw.
"Oh..my God." I covered my mouth.
I saw Pia legs full of blood. Fresh blood.
She was pale because of the blood that came out of her. Her white skirt turned red.
"Ahck ~ the baby Rad." She sobbed.
Tears welled up in my eyes. Processing what is happening in front of me. I seem to be stuck in my position.
She is squirming.
God, what have I done?
"Shhhh." Rad hushed and carried her. "It's gonna be fine. I'm here . I'm here ." Rad comforted her.
It was heartbreaking to see the kind of concern Rad had for her. He carried her and put her inside his car. He's panicking.
Only now have I seen him like this.
"The baby is gonna be fine, okay?" He even said to Pia. What the fuck?
Is Pia pregnant? And ... Rad is the father? Dammit!
I saw Rad's worried face. He dont even bothered to look at me. That he doesn't seem to see me anymore.
Maybe the baby will survived, right? And it's all my fault. It's my fault coz' I pushed Pia. So she bleed.
I do not know!
He dont care at me at all. And He knows Pia's pregnancy.
Of course he is the father right?
My muscles are shaking. And almost sit down. I lost strength.
My tears flowed down my cheeks. I was almost crazy about what was happening.
First ,I saw them kissing and now I found out she was pregnant . And maybe the baby will in danger and it was my fault.
It's all my fault!