I don't know what to say. I also don't know what to think. How does mama feel now?
I put down my ballpen. I'm doing my assignment. I looked at my cellphone that rang and Damon's name came out.
After we ate earlier, mama immediately entered her room. I did not ask. At least she's a bit better now.
Why is our destiny so bitter? I don't want to see mama hurt. If only I could be the one get hurt.
I took a deep breath before I answered Damon's call. I was in the bedroom on the side of my bed with a small table.
"Hello?" I answered and bit my lip. My heart pounded when I heard his breath on the other line.
"How are you?"
I got up from the chair and sat on my bed. I picked up the pillow and hugged it.
"All right, you?"
"I miss you." He says it rudely.
I grinned and buried my face in my pillow. Damn it! I feel like I'm going to be shivering!
"Baby." He called me using his husky voice.
"Mm?"
"Don't you miss me?" his question to me. He's so clingy! I didn't know he was so tender! His voice is still very serious!
I leaned on the headboard when I went to bed.
"I miss you too."
He chuckled.
"May I go there tomorrow?" He asked. He always told me that he wanted to introduce himself to my mom. I don't know what kind of introduction that is!
I was swallowed.
"Damon..Not now." I think it's not the right time. Mom is hurting now because of dad. I don't know how she will react when I introduce a man.
"I understand."
"I'm sorry, but maybe soon."
"I can wait. I love you."
My eyes widened at what I heard and my cellphone almost dropped.
This is the second time he told me 'I love you'.
"I love you too.." I bit my lip so hard. This is the first time we exchanged I love you.
My night went so soft like a clouds.I know that something is not permanent. Maybe if I want to keep something ... that's it.
I woke up the next morning in a good mood. I took a shower and dressed in a homely t shirt and shorts.
When I got down I was shocked to see mama fully dressed. She looked so pretty cool in her sleeveless tops and fitted jeans. That is what we bought yesterday. I also noticed that she used the make up I bought yesterday.
At least, she's fine.
"Good morning ma."
He immediately set the fried rice and omelettes on the table.
"Good morning hija."
She smiled genuinely. She's really okay? I did'nt expect this. I thought she was the same as before, mumbling and haggard but now ... it looks like we're the same age.
"Are you going somewhere?" I ask.
She nodded and smiled.
"Yes .You know I will work for the company of your aunt Tessa. Now she will show me the building. "
Aunt Tessa is mama’s cousin who has a comfortable life. All I know is they have a company and have jewelries branches in different places.
"Are you going to work?"
I don’t know if I’ll be happy or worried.
She held my hand. "Daughter, I'll get even sicker if I'm just here at home. Besides, you're a student! I should be the one to pay for you.."
"But mah-"
"Please." she squeezed my hand.
Okay, if this is what she wants. As long as she is happy. I will support her so that she can forget as well.
I know papa and her have no hope. I also know that it is difficult to trust the traitor again. Even if you love and because of the pain so you are afraid to risk again.
That week I do nothing because Damon also went somewhere and he told me not to go out.
And because I was loyal, I did laundry and cleaned the house.
I was so sweaty when I entered the house. I had finished exposing the clothes I had washed. I was shocked when a cellphone rang next to the vase.
My mom's cellphone. She left it!
I picked it up and was even more surprised when I saw dad’s number. I was nervous but I answered it.
"Hello." I answered.
He sighed heavily.
"Where is your mother hija?"
Tears welled up in my eyes.
Really? Now you asked? After two years?He just looked for mama now!
My tears welled up.
"Not here." my voice trembled.
"I'm so sorry hija.I'm so sorry." Papa said. The pain and longing almost penetrated me as I heard his voice.
When I was young, they brought me to school. He was on my side if mama scolded me. He's my comfort zone.
The only difficulty is because I have lost my comfort zone now. It also hurts me but I am encouraging myself.
"Enough p-please. "
"I know hija but-"
"You said you don't want me to call you my father anymore so I hope you don't call me your hija either."
I dropped the call and just cried.
It's just like a bottle. Once broken, there is no hope of being restored to its form. If you don't want to get hurt, don't touch it.
Tomorrow is Monday. Damon said he can't fetch me. Because there seems to be an emergency. I was waiting for a taxi outside our gate when my cellphone rang.
"Hello?" I answered.
"Where are you?" Damon asked worriedly. My forehead furrowed when I heard shouting on the other line.
Damn! What's that?
"At home! What's going on there?"
"Stay there!" a gunshot rang out until it was followed by another.
Oh my god!
I panicked.
"Damon! Where are you? What's going on there?" I do not know what to do. I had no idea what was going on.
"Don't come in school! Just be there! Don't come in!" The call died instantly
I went inside the house.
I'm sweating bullets! Why is there shouting and shooting? I immediately dialed Ruru's number.
She answered only one ring.
"He--"
"Oh my god! Zands? Where are you? Huh?"
"Still at home? Are you at school?"
"God! We are here at the library! There’s trouble in school right now! "
"What? Why?" Oh my god! 'What happened to Damon then?
"Sebe's girlfriend! She was stabbed! She was rushed to the hospital! I don't know the whole story! Don't come in! It's dangerous!"
None of myself was depreciated.
"How about Damon ?You saw him? "
"Yes! He took Natalia to the hospital."
My heart ached a little. I don’t know but I’m hurt because I know Natalia was the first one he loved.
"H-How is he? Is he okay?"
"He's fine. All right then call that huh? It's crowded here."
“Okay,” I shouldn’t have concluded coz' I don’t know yet.