I was at the point where I would sacrifice everything to make everything right. Even what is dear and important to me I will give up.
I realized something from Ma'am Sonya's words to me. In the future, we will never know, their company will fail. What can I do to help? Nothing.
She's right, I'll just pull Damon down. We are still young. He will forget me too. He's twenty four and I'm just nineteen with less experience.
Maybe, I’m too young. I don’t deserve him. This is difficult. The rich are for the rich. If the poor force you to be with the rich, it will be even harder.
I'll take the risk.
But all of that vanished in an instant, destroyed, and replaced by nervousness. My heart seems to explode with nervousness.
Damon's suite door slammed shut as he pushed me in.
He's fuming mad. I haven't been able to explain before. I don’t know what to say and do. I wouldn’t have thought that in an instant he would know.
"D-Damon." my cheeks filled with tears. Earlier we looked at each other below. in the car I could do nothing but cry especially when I heard his brutal swearing.
"Why are you leaving?" He shouted at me and held me tightly in both arms.
"Tell me." now his voice had faded and was pleading. He held both my cheeks and wiped away my tears.
I shook and bowed.
“Baby, do you want to take a vacation?Why didn’t you say to me ”He asked me.
His face was so hard. The criticism of his eye. The difficulty of his voice. The pain of seeing and hearing this from him.
A different Damon is now in front of me. I saw him frightened for the first time. But there was hidden anger and hatred in his eyes.
He kissed my forehead languidly.
"You want to take a vacation? Where--"
"Damon that's enough!" I was able to speak for the first time.
His jaw tightened. He stared at me seriously. I removed his hand from my cheek. I bravely met his angry expression.
"You told me you're busy with your company. I'm asking you why but you don't -say it !" new tears flowed and I no longer bothered to wipe them."Your company is going down, isn't it? So you went to New York! If your company goes down where will you be picked up? What will your mom say?" I continued as he let me say everything.
"Do you think I can look at you struggling? Do you think I'll be happy while you're struggling? Damon we're not for each other."
I closed my eyes firmly and bowed.
"You have to marry Ven-"
"What did mama told you?" I fell silent at what he said. I finally realized that he may have figured out the answer to what I was saying.
I shook. "N-Nothing."
He walked away and kicked the table just to my side. I was stunned when the vase shattered and the table was thrown away.
He approached me. Every step approaching me is also increasing of my fear!
Wearing his long sleeve polo has already unbuttoned the first two buttons.
"Did he threaten you? Answer me!"
I was almost consumed by his fiery gaze. I bent down and looked like a scared kitten. He groaned like a wolf and kicked the door on my side. I could hear the door slam shut.
I was even more scared. I cried even more. I think my body will explode with fear!
"Is it that easy for you to leave me ? Just because of a petty problem so you can leave me right away? What am I then Zandria! What ?! ”I felt pain every time he uttered those words.
"D-Damon no."
He washed his own face and pulled his own hair. His chest went up and down because of anger.
"I'm not dependent on others! I can make my own company! You are so unfair'! You can leave me because the company will sink? Why did you decide to leave me so easily? Why is it unfair of you? Why is it hard for me to do that then it is easy for you? " I saw the tears he shed.You’re unfair." he looked up to simply wipe away his tears.
Am I wrong? Am I selfish? Am I unfair?
I covered my face with my palms.
"S-Sorry.. .Sorry." I looked at him and saw my ticket to Mindoro torn.
I can no longer object. All I could do was cry. He was standing in front of the long sofa where my bag was placed.
He held out his hand. "Come here."
I slowly approached him and placed my hand on his outstretched palm. He immediately kissed my hand.
Fuck.
"Maybe, you're too young to make a decision and you don't know what to do yet. But I hope you don't give up on me, easily. " his eyes are red, begging me. It kicked hard in my heart. It hurts.
He hugged me tightly.
"You are not part of my problem. I can deal with my mother. "He kissed my ear.
"I'm sorry." My voice trembled.
"That's up to me now."
Before I could answer,he pushed me. I lay down on the sofa and lifted he the end of my skirt.
"D-Damon!"
I was too late to process his fast movements. He took off his long sleeve and threw it somewhere. It happened so fast. She pulled my skirt down and tore my panty!
"Damon!" I would have stood up but he pushed me back.
"You won't go away from me." then he kissed my feminity.
"Ohh!" I closed my eyes tightly as I felt each touch of his hot lips.
He rose to kiss me on the lips. He violently pulled my blouse so that its buttons were snapped. Every move he made was violent and seemed punitive. Eventually I saw that my bra was on the floor.
He grabbed me there and I felt him hurriedly open his room. Being drunk with rage I was unable to speak. Everything is vague to me.
He made me lie down on the bed. Damon was in front of me and slowly took off his polo and slack.
He look so ruthless in the dark. Every shape of his body was perfect. He crawled over me and touched me.
"D-Damon.." a moan, made me feel the heat of his body.
"You're really wet." he whisper.
I nodded drunkly.
He pinned my both hands.
I feel the size of his. My heart pounded at the fact that I would be hurt so much. In one motion, he entered me fully!
"It hurts!" I almost folded my thigh but I couldn't because he was in the middle of me. I wanted to push him !
He was so strong that I couldn’t get rid of this. My breath weighed down with pain. My tears flowed which he immediately wiped away.
"I'm sorry.." he whispered.
He sealed me with a kiss before standing up and releasing my wrists. I automatically I clunged on his neck.
I saw him look up and his face was red. He looked at me with his parting lips and I saw worldly lust in his eyes.
The bed rumbled with the speed and emphasis of his movements. It was my first time and it was very painful.
"My God! Oh! It hurts!" I almost shouted that at him but he heard nothing.
He groaned like a wolf. I got chilled when I saw every muscle in his body tighten. His tattoo on his arm and chest makes him more attractive. He looked up and closed . His red lips was very erotic. The pain was gradually replaced by a strange tickle.
"Oh! Ow! Damon!" I moan madly.
The bed on the floor rumbled with his every move. I can still see the lampshade shaking!
I felt the familiar feeling. Something I want to reach. I feel like I'm going to pee and It feel so good.
"Ah! Ah!" My nail nailed on his back. I felt warm inside. I feel like I can't stand anymore. We were both sweaty when he buried his face in my neck.
"Don't leave me.. Please.." he whispered and kissed me on the forehead.