The breeze was blowing on our skin as we looked at the shrinking building of the whole of Manila below.And Damon seemed ready.
He brought a burger, fruit and juice. We ate , as we hid under the tree and sat on its big root.
"Damon.."
"Yes?" I will never forget his husky voice.
I became more and more emotional. I hugged him more. I was trapped between his legs.
"If we have children next time, what will you name them?" None of my own , I ask.
"Ruby." was his simple answer.
"Huh? Why is that ? Why name of a girl immediately? "
He chuckled.
"Because I love bloody colors.You're my queen and I want a baby princess." he kissed my head. "It's up to you by the way, All i want is a life with you and our babies. .." he recovered.
"I like that ... Ruby." I thought. Nice name. That's what I'll name it when we have a baby girl."Damon.” called him again. He looked at the sky seriously.
"Hmmm?" He said. I stood up so he looked up at me.
"Come here." I pulled him and he followed me. He smiled as he watched me.
I approached the tree.
"Such a kiddie. " Laughing he said to me.
"Write our names there." I pointed to the middle of the tree.
His lips parted and he scratch her brows. I smiled. I want to be happy for today Damon.
"Okay." He get a rock sharp and start making our name there."Done.." he shook his hand and threw the stone. I almost burst into tears at what he wrote there.
DAMON LOVE ZANDRIA 'TIL INFINITY AND BEYOND.
My eyes dimmed immediately and I immediately hugged him.
I squatted down and kissed him. He pushed me into the tree and kissed me back aggressively. He sucked and bit my lowerlip. His kiss drops to my neck and returns to my lips.
My tears continued to flow and we both gasped after the long kiss.
"I don't know what you did to me. You drove me crazy Zandria.." he said in my ear.
"I-I love you Damon." I sobbed and hugged him tightly.
Even if it's too hard, I'll do it.
***
This is the day I don't want to come. I don't want to wake up. If I could just extend yesterday's time, I would have done it.
Last night I secretly packed a suitcase. Mama says she is leaving now to find a job. In fact, she applied yesterday but they all rejected mama.
I know the root of it all. I won't be selfish anymore. If I continue this, Damon will suffer. Mama's still hard to find a job, and she will suffer too.
I'm angry, yes. First ,I asked for two days but why does she have to do this to us? I know Damon’s mama is the reason why even mama’s own cousin fired her.
Mama was very stressed , we have to pay for our house depths but she have no job. And I am hurting to see her crying.
"We're being evicted from here. This house belongs to us but the land is not ours." She wiped her tears. I watched her sit in front of me."How's that?" there is no hope ,she says.
Since papa stopped giving us money we have not been able to pay for the land. We haven't been charged for this for a long time but now the owner is so angry with mama.
Something enters my brain to find out who has the plan this but I just didn't think about it.
I have no appetite. It's hard to leave. I know that when I leave, Ma'am Sonya will stop all of this. I am the only reason for all this.
She wanted me to leave. I will do it not for her. Not because I’m afraid of her. But because for Damon. If she wants the best for Damon, I want it too. Because I feel sorry for mama.
I pitied his mom,I feel sorry for ma'am Sonya. I want to speak ill of her, but I won't. maybe I'm poor and nothing to be proud of but I was raised with principle. I was taught to respect people. I was raised without stepping on other people.
That's all I can be proud of.
That even she was evil. I respect her because she is the mother of the man I love. There's be no Damon without her so I will honor her for giving life to the man I love.
I also can’t get mad at Ma’am Sonya. I feel sorry for her because she is so arrogant that even unreachable, she goes through violence just to get it. I feel sorry for her because she is so greedy. So I don’t want to tell Damon about it because I don’t want him to hate his own mother. I will only blame myself when that happens.
I slowly blew air as I thought of the land bill. Maybe I can find that job again in Semirara Island, pursue my studies there.
I will find a job in the place I am going. That's the only reason I'll tell mama when I leave.
Today, Damon and I will meet at school. And today is my last day..with him.
I enter along the alley of our room.
"That's your ticket to Mindoro. When you arrive in Mindoro you will take a boat to Semirara.The boat ride takes two hours. When you arrive at the pier, our caretaker in Lucena Village is waiting for you there. She'll take care of you there. "
Ruru was crying. She can't look at me and her nose is red from crying.
"Thank you so much for everything..Ru."
"You are like a sister for me. Why are you leaving! Just tell Damon about it!"
I looked at her sadly. I put in my book my ticket bound to Mindoro I pinned it there.
"Everything will gets worse Ru. I don't want Damon to be angry with his mom.His mom just wants a good life for him. And I can't give that to Damon.. "I said.
"But she's evil. "
"Drop the topic. I don't want to talk about that now." I stood up to meet Damon. This day was a shock because our last subject teacher was not there. Damon and I will meet at two o'clock.
He also didn't pick me up this morning because there was an emergency in their office. Ruru looked up at me while still sitting in her chair.
Her eyes are already red. I smiled bitterly.
"What about D-Damon Zands, can you leave him?"
I took a deep breath. I looked at our classmate who was already out and looked back at Ruru.
"I can not do it." I can only say.
She cried even harder and stood up. She put away her belongings and immediately turned around to left.
"I-I'll keep going. I don't want to see you leaving, it h-hurts me. I'll go there on vacation." She said and left, while crying.
Ruru doesn't want people to leave. That's why she hate Alex so much.
But even though she didn't want me to leave, she still helped me with everything.
While walking down the corridor towards the locker, I contact Damon's number.
I will leave all the books and charts here in my locker. The whole area was quiet. Only the noise of my shoes can be heard.
The students here prefer to hang out at outside the University. And others are in the park near the school so there are very few students here especially since there is a meeting today.
A few rings and Damon answered the call.
"Hello".
"I just parked. Where are you?" I could hear the tiredness in his tone. Ever since we are in relationship he has always been busy with his company. He used to be here at school but now he rarely go here. He is always busy but I am happy for him because he is now responsible for his responsibilities as the son of Don Raymundo.
"I'm in the locker I'll wait for you here and let's hang out again."
"Is there something wrong Zandria?" He asked and my chest throbbed."Why does it seem--"
"No. Is it bad to be with you all the time?"
"Of course not. Wait for me there.“He immediately turned off the call so I leaned into my locker because of so much emotions.
Every move I make I feel pain, I feel grief. I couldn't smile. I opened my locker and was about to put it down my things...
"So?" I looked at Venice by my side. I tightened my grip on my book. I feel nervous!
"So maybe Mom Sonya talked to you? Did she like you?Or, she doesn't want you for Damon because you're a low class bitch? A low class gold digger."
I looked at her without emotion. She would have looked like an angel but had a horn and a tail in the name of Satan.
I don’t have time for this. I have so many problems!
"I don't have time for this Venice."
I was about to put the books in the locker when she grabbed my arm causing my books to fall to the floor.
My anger flared up like a fire.
"What!?"
She grinned.
"You now know where you should put your self!" Her grip tightened."You're in the mud! You're ambitious!"
My tears have been shed with so many emotions. I am tired of my life.
"What are you doing Ven !?" I close my eyes when I hear Damon's voice behind me. It grabbed the student’s attention not just far away.
Ven's hand was automatically released from my arm. She turned pale!
"I-It's you D-Damon."
Damon grabbed Ven's arm so I was immediately very nervous. He’s furious.
"How many times have I threatened you not to come near Zandria?!" Damon is very angry with Ven. I can see Ven writhing in pain.
I immediately grabbed Damon's arm. "Damon that's enough."
His angry face was replaced by the seriousness of seeing my tears. He immediately let go of Ven and hugged me.
"I hate you!!" Ven shouted and immediately left. I wiped away my tears and faced him.
"Damon... " because I don’t want to waste time now.
"Are you okay?" He said full of concern.
I nodded and he turned over the book that had fallen earlier in Ven's grip in my hand.
He bent down and picked up somethings. My eyes widened when he touched the ticket that had also fallen earlier.
He immediately stood up and seriously read my ticket.
"D-Damon.." I was about to take that but I was stopped by the rage I saw.
The world collapsed, depressed by what had happened and my nervousness poured out.
"What does this mean?" Trembling with anger, his hand held the ticket.
I shook and bowed. What the hell!
His chest went up and down in anger.
"Tell me! Why are you leaving!" He screams at me.
This is impossible! No!
"D-Damon sorry-"
" Why Zandria?" it hurts me to see that his eyes are red and his tears are about to fall.
Shit. This is a mistake.
"Please don't leave me Zandria. Don't leave me."