Bland, dull and boring. That's three words describe my life before. But now I have a reason to wake up in the morning.
I became even more educated. Sometimes I saw Sebe at school. even I do not know why I am like this.
"What's bothering you Nat?" Kylie's question brought me back to my mind.
"Fucking earth to fucking Natalia !!" Jen exclaimed and took her shot.
An ear breaking sounds filled my ears. Assorted colors from the disco light and people dancing and swaying anywhere on the dancefloor that seem to accompany the dancing and whatever obscenity the people are doing there.
"Nothing," I said and sipped my blue boracay drink. We're here in Alcobar. Somwhere near our School.
"Really? I think you're not.Tell me what's bothering you," she asked.
Should I tell her? Nothing's wrong right? I know these past few days I've been lack of thoughts.
I seem to be competing with the famous geniuses of our generation because my brain and body are beaten by my studies and reading books. Jen said that I just needed eye glasses to be a nerd.
"Come on Nat! What friends are for?" Jen persuaded me and she clunged her arms to the man next to her.
Seriously? She just mwt the man here. What a bitch friend of mine.I rolled my eyes with annoyance. And of course I'm not a fool to open up with her that with a man.
Less talk, less mistake. As they say.
"Some other time." At the same time, I glanced at the person next to Jen who was almost only looking at me. Such an ass. Jen is next beside him but looking at me huh? Really?
"It's about Sebe's right?" I was startled when Kylie came closer to me and whispered. I can smell her sweet scent.
Damn, she's really an observant.
"How did you know?" I whispered back. Just enough for us to hear each other even loudly on the dancefloor.
I did not deninay. Because he'll be even more dude if I haven't told him yet.
"I saw you.And I saw how he looks at you." She shrugged.
"But we don't know yet. How do you feel when he's there?" She asked.
I pouted. This is not the right place and time to talk about such a house. The Bar is the opposite place to talk about it.
"Let's talk about it some other time," I excused myself so that Kylie wouldn't continue the investigation.
In our circle of friends Kylie is my closest. I know, I'm not the type to be sweet or you'll immediately find emotion. I'm used to this. I mean, myself. Like what they say I'm cold and stiffed.
I guess since my dad died, I have lost my cheerfulness and sweetness.
"Let's dance!"
I stopped protesting when Kylie stood up and she smiled at me.
"Come on!" SHe invited me so I also got up because the two of them were already there.
This is not our first time here. A few times as well. I used to drink only mild drinks. There is only a limit to my drinking.
I limit myself of course. I don’t want to look like stupid because of too much intoxication.
I joined them on the dance floor and for a while, I forgot being me. We're laughing and giggling at the same time.
"Woah ! Nice one Natalia! " Jen shouted. So I laughed. Damn. I enjoyed this one.
But all that was thrown away when I saw above a bulk of the man shouting in elegance.
His dark piercing eyes were all on me. Like I'm the only one dancing here on the dance floor. He was holding a cup of wine in his hand leaning against the railing on the second floor of the Bar.But my gaze shifted to the girl beside him.
Wearing a red sweetheart dress and have a beautiful face. Her arms clinging in Sebe firmed arms. My breathing suddenly tightened so I looked away. So, did he also go to the bar with another woman?
What else to expect from a Sebe? Rich and handsome fuckboy owner of our School? What can I really expect? I lost my appetite to dance so I excused to Kylie to let me go to the comfort room first. I have many acquaintances who have met and greeted me.
I will never forget Sebe with a woman. Why am I hurting? Do I have a right to feel this? The corner of my eye warmed up because of the tears.
"Fuck!" I cursed and looked up. It should not be like this. I don’t deserve this kind of pain.
But when I looked up, I looked up at the man who was looking at me seriously. He was standing right in front of me.
He's wearing a gray v neck t shirt and a black jeans. The beauty of his body was scratched. His both hands inside his pocket. His wroth pair of eyes lingered on me.
What a perfect timing! I stopped walking and he slowed down a bit. He violently breathed out.
"Why are you here?" He asked level our distance.
My forehead furrowed at his kind question.
"To enjoy," I mocked and smirked a bit. "Why? is the bar yours too?" I don’t know why I am feisty asnwering him.
He immediately shifted his gaze on me like he's surprise by my sudden burst out. Even I, I don't know.
"You're tipsy.Stop drinking," he told me emphatically.
"Like you care?" You had a woman with you a while ago and now this is what you're telling me? I averted my eyes.
"Uh I'll going. Sorry," I said recovering. Before leaving he touched my arm.
"That's home. I'll take you." I can feel the warmth from his body.
"I have someone with me. No need. You have no obligation to me." His jaw clenched again from what I have said.
“It’s embarrassing to be with you,” I added. I don't care what he thinks anymore.
"Were not a thing. I just knew her ” he explained that why he’s with a woman. Duh. But I took his hand away and looked at him.
"It’s nothing to me. I don't know who you're with." my voice suddenly croaked.
My tears rolled down my cheeks. Why the pain? The pain of seeing him with someone else? Why? Sebe cursed as he saw my expressions.
"Fuck! I'm sorry. Why are you crying?" I sighed at his question and immediately rubbed my cheek.
Damn it!
"Nothing. I just want to go home."
But immediately he pulled me closer for a hug. I want to swear!
"I'm sorry," He said again. "Don't you want to? It won't happen again." I nodded suddenly. I nodded like a fool.
He snuzzled my hair and sniffed on it.
Sometimes his hug comforted me.
I feel different in the middle of his arm. My heart beats differently when we are so close. Why are we like this? Silence enveloped us when he drove me home.
I just texted Jen that I had already gone home. I didn't bother to look at Sebe even though I knew he was staring straight at me.
Until he stopped outside the gate of our house he also did not speak. I squeezed my hand.
"Thank you." I broke the silence and smiled. He bit his lips and nodded.
"I'm going." I said simultaneously pointing at the door.
But his hand gestured to me.
"Come here." he commanded and tapped his lap.
What does he mean? Will I sit on his lap? What do you think Nat? Your’ re fucking genius! Don't be stupid. I moved to sit on his lap. Is he really like this. My system shook when I sat there. His lips rose sideways.
"Are you mad?" he suddenly asked, cupping my face. He leaned his forehead against my forehead. I inhaled his breath that smelled of whiskey. My hair stood on end in our position.
Why would I be angry? Am I right?
"No," I replied.
"Really?"
I nodded. "Really." I confirmed.
He bit his lips and just one move he kissed my forehead. I close my eyes emphatically. My heart is beating so fast. Gosh, Am I flirting?
He dropped his kiss on my nose and gave me a peck there.
After a while, his kiss fell on my lips .. Damn ..his lips were so soft that it seemed delicious to bite. I could feel the movement on my lips.
"Open your mouth." He said between his kisses.
After a while his kiss dropped to my lips. Damn! His lips were so soft that it seemed delicious to bite. I could feel the movement on my lips.
I also seemed to be hypnotized by what he said and my lips spat out. I felt him smirked as he claimed my lips again.
I almost moaned when his little tongue entered my mouth. His tongue explored my mouth. He tasted every side of it. Its tongue also teases my tongue.
I moaned sweetly.I can feel his hands wrapped on my body. We are so close. I don't want to admit it but I like the warmth it gives me.
I don’t know why I got to this point. But I don’t want to compare myself to the women linked to Sebe.
Whatever the consequences of it, of how I feel about him. I don't know anymore. He sucked my lowerlip.
"Fuck," He cursed. "Come in. As long as I can."
I smiled as we stared at each other. A kiss he wanted to end but was still followed. timed before I got out of his car. My lip and neck almost rash from the bite. I will never forget tonight.