"Just relax, Arrow. Your hands are shaking," Sabrina said worriedly as she caressed both of my hands.
I don't know how many times I bit my lower lip because of how much it felt. Eventually I will sing on stage which is what worries me, I don't know if my voice still sounds good because I haven't tried to sing again.
"Sab, I'm really nervous. I don't know how I'm going to get on stage later," I said tearfully while holding Sabrina's hand.
Saiko patted my back as she smiled sweetly at me. "Everything's gonna be okay, Arrow. Trust yourself, don't be nervous okay?" he was calming me down.
I took a deep breath as I hugged the two of them. I hope my performance is good, I don't want to fail everyone.
"We'll be sitting here, when you're nervous, just look in our direction," Miyuki said coldly while looking at me.
I nodded my head repeatedly. "Yes."
I just chose to look straight even though I was still weak and nervous. I touched my chest where my heart was to stop its rapid beating. The force of my chest throbbing with excitement.
"Just do well, Arrow, please," I silently said to myself.
A few minutes ago, each representative of his program began to perform. Some people dance, some others sing too and they're so great.
As I watched I couldn't help but get discouraged. I hope I finish my song well, with that, I can breathe.
I gasped when our professor pulled me on the way to the backstage. "Why are you still there? You're next, Arrow."
I bowed my head. "I'm sorry, I'm really nervous so I can't think straight."
He patted my shoulder, he also adjusted my clothes before looking back at me. "Just stay calm, especially when you're on stage. Imagine that you're doing this for your loved ones, so just stay calm."
What he said seemed to help because he mentioned 'loved ones'. Professor is right, I should just think that this is for my loved ones.
"Thank you, although the song I'm going to perform is a bit difficult, I'll do my best, professor." I smiled sweetly at him.
"Very good. Now go." At the same time he said that and then called my name.
I took a deep breath before slowly climbing onto the stage. It was dark all around but I could still see the way to the mic. All I can hear is silence, and I'm glad about that.
I closed my eyes tightly when the music started.
(Title of the song: Angel with a Shotgun)
"I'm an angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun. An angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun." At the same time I let go of the first line, the lighting of the surroundings.
My chest throbbed harder when I saw how many people were around. But I have to keep it up, besides, I'm already enjoying it.
"Get out your guns, battles begun
Are you a saint, or a sinner?
If loves a fight, than I shall die
With my heart on a trigger. "I tightened my grip on my hand while singing.
I can hear the noise from the crowd, and they are cheering for me, it makes me even more courageous.
"They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, I will be a soldier. "I opened my eyes and met someone's eyes.
Those beautiful blue eyes.
"I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til 'the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe
Don't you know you're everything I have?
And I wanna live, not just survive, tonight. "I was just looking at him while singing those lines.
It seems like this song turns out to be for him. For the guy I like, Froze.
"Sometimes to win you've got to sin
Don't mean I'm not a believer
And major Tom, will sing along
Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer
They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, I will be a soldier. "I'm really willing to be a soldier for you, Froze. I'm willing to be a bad girl as long as I'm with you.
I stared intently into her beautiful eyes. I know deep inside me, I'm already breaking my rules and my walls. I promised myself that I would never like another man because daddy will be the first one I will love because he's my hero.
But looking at his eyes, this closed. I think I already broke what I promised. I knew very well in myself how I really felt.
"I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til 'the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe
Don't you know you're everything I have?
And I, want to live, not just survive, tonight
And I'm gonna hide, hide, hide my wings tonight. "
I'm starting to like you, Froze. And I'm already a bad girl because of that. I am already an angel ... with a shotgun.
I smiled to face everyone after the song. My heart fluttered when I saw how proud their faces were. I was almost deaf to the applause and shouts of my fellow students.
I'm glad I didn't cringe or faint from too much nervousness earlier while singing. I'm glad that he's here to make me calm with his beautiful eyes.
I turned in his direction just to blush, he just winked at me!
I quickly turned in the other direction so he wouldn't notice the redness on my cheeks. I also partially covered them so that not everyone could see.
I bowed and thanked everyone before leaving the stage.
"Arrow, you're so good--" I saw my professor approaching me but I just passed him while holding both my cheeks.
Sorry, professor. But I could no longer bear the thrill I was feeling.
It's just a wink, Arrow. It's just a wink!
Unbelievably I looked around with no human being. I can't believe that I've gone this far just to hide the redness on my cheeks.
I bit my lower lip. "Why are you so admirable, Froze? Tell me why."