I looked like a dumb walking here, like a withered vegetable walking while crying. It's just as hard as digesting everything I found out, because they entered at the same time and then I also felt everything at the same time.
My father lied that he had an accident. Vicente hid everything from me. Daddy lied about my mom. I forgot everything 3 years ago. I forgot Primo. That's why I forgot everything because I chose to forget it. I forgot everything because my mother almost killed Primo. They made a fool of me, and I, the fool, controlled them all. I can't handle them all, and I want to pack my bags and leave them all alone. They hurt me all, even the ones I love so much they hurt.
"Errah! Eerrah baby!" I stopped for a while when I heard Primo's voice, I could probably hear him, because I myself came here to his house.
"Baby, I'm sorry." I felt his arms wrap around my waist.
I closed my eyes for a moment because it feels so good to be in his arms ... but it's too painful to be with him. Halo halo na yung ginawa nilang panloloko sa akin at kay Primo. They hurt my baby.
"Baby. Talk to me, I'm slowly being killed when you're not talking." I heard him say sweetly, I feel that his hug with me is even tighter. I cried because of that, worried he touched my cheeks and looked at me.
"Baby why are you crying?"
"Let's break up, Primo."
I saw his eyes widen at what I said.
"No," he uttered in anger.
I sobbed one after another. "You still don't get it, don't you?" I asked him.
"Why are you doing this? Yeah? Yeah, I don't get it. Why are you breaking up with me? What happened, baby? " he asked me while crying. My heart broke even more as I watched him.
"My family... It's complicated. If we keep the relationship we have, you will only get hurt. Everyday, nightmares will chase us. My conscience will try to attack me because my family is ruining your life. You, if it's okay for you, it's not for me. Because I don't want to see you like this because of me. You sacrificed so many things for me, Primo. I don't deserve your love, "I explained in tears.
"No, b-baby. No. I do not want to. I don't want to break up with you, we're supposed to be together, "he pleaded.
I tightly removed his hand from my cheek. "You can't change my decision, I'm leaving," I said coldly before turning my back on him. He's too persistent to keep me by his side, he's still over my arm.
"I'm not fucking kidding, Eerrah. I don't agree with what you want to happen! " he shouted angrily. I flinched in fear when I saw the anger in his eyes. It's like he can kill anyone based on his looks.
"First, p-please. Let me go. "
He hugged me tightly so I couldn't leave. "No, Eerrah. I won't let you. You can't separate from me, I own you. You're mine!"
I sighed when I felt the needle stick to my skin. "I'm sorry, but this is the only thing I can do to stop you."
My eyes widened when I woke up inside Primo's room. I tried to get off the bed but my eyes widened when I felt a cold steel around my wrist. I looked at it and was shocked because I had one hand on the side of the bed.
I tried to pull my hand away but I lost hope because there was really nothing, I couldn't get out of it and it was like I just wanted to cry!
"You're awake now." I turned to the veranda and I was shocked when I saw him. He brought me here!
"This is not funny Primo! Let me go!" angry I said, but he just smirked at me. He even came up to me and kissed me on the forehead.
"I'm sorry baby. I need to do this, "he said.
"What d-do you think you're doing? I'm not kidding you so let me go!" I was so pissed off with him, he just leaned over me and wrapped both arms around my waist and hugged me tightly.
"Primo!" I wanted to struggle but I was handcuffed with one hand. And my other hand was holding his hand and it was tight! "Please, just let me. This is for our own good."
"You don't understand me, Eerrah," he uttered in a sad tone. "You don't understand how hard it is for me to do this. It breaks my heart seeing you in this situation. I still have to lock you up here so you won't leave me. " Crying he turned cause to break my heart. "You're not even aware that I need you. To stop this pain from occupying my heart. Eerrah you are what I need. You said it yourself. That I sacrificed many things, but baby all those sacrifices matter when you leave me. "
I sobbed. "I'm sorry, baby."
"I just want you to see everything I did. I just want to show you how much I love you, but you became blind. You want to find your mother, you want to find the person who is missing you but I'm trying to make up and fill it all with you. Is 3 years not enough? I'm not in your life, isn't that enough? Do you want your life without me? I'm embarrassed because I brought the problem up again 3 years ago. Why did I bring it? I just took part in all the pain from the past. It's silly for me to feel sorry for you even if you feel sorry for me again. But what can I do? I love you, e. Putangina just because even if you kill me now I still love you!" His eyes were dark because of too much anger and pain.
"Baby, I'm losing my mind right now. I don't know what to do now with the extreme pain I'm feeling. I thought I'd be able to erase this when I got a chance to see you, but you hurt me more. "
Crying I hugged her tightly. "B-Baby, sorry. I was just scared, e. I'm just afraid that after a while, your love for me will gradually disappear because of what my family did. I was scared to lose you, that's why I decided to let you go this early. Sorry, Primo. I didn't know this would hurt you. "
I heard her cry as she patted my neck. He sounded so hurt and broken. I am fucking guilty and stupid. How dare me hurt the man who never did anything but to love me