"You don't know, dad. You don't know. The amount of time you have to take care of everything, but you don't have time for everything that happened about the past. The amount of time people admire me for, but no one even asked me if I'm still okay or not. I didn't make a fool of myself before to be punished like this. I killed many people already, but I couldn't bear to come back to me. Just to see the person you love laughing even without you, but you can't laugh. It hurts more than a gunshot. Dad, you all know how much I love Eerrah. I want her to be happy, but it kills me when she's happy without me. I hate it when she can still laugh while I am here hurting. Do you know how much it hurts? Of course not, because I'm the only one who feels all the pain, because everyone was caught, right? " I laughed sarcastically but a hint of sadness was visible in my eyes. I just want to shoot again and again to finish it all.
"Son, don't say that. I was hurt before so I chose to forget--"
"I was hurt too, but did I choose to forget? I was also hurt, but did I complain when I caught everyone? Dad, I didn't blame the tiredness and pain I was experiencing. Because I love what I'm talking about, I love those who are in the situation so how can I forget that? I tried everything just to love someone else but I always failed, and I found myself loving my baby much deeper. I drowned too much, and I'm willing to die just to keep her safe. Just to take her away from all the pain. Because even though I'm so sick, the pain is so sick! " Everything I felt was mixed, anger, annoyance, fear, jealousy and pain.
"I'll help you in getting rid of those pains." I shook my head.
"But the one who caused too much pain to me is my baby, and I don't want that pain to go away." I smiled weakly as soon as I imagined what would happen to us once she found out about everything.
"You need to talk to her first. I know you now know the relationship of Eerrah's mom and dad. It wasn't a mistake you loved, Kaerraon and Isabella used to love each other back then. They really loved each other, "he explained.
"They used to love each other? Are you fucking kidding me ?! They're not capable of being in love! Magtatay sila!" I said angrily.
"Well, that's what I thought. But I witnessed how they love each other. Just in case Kaerraon thought Isabella was a traitor, that's why Kaerraon kidnapped Eerrah, it didn't introduce her mother so Eerrah thought she was dead his mother. " Damn that man, he's all to blame so this happens.
"But why don't I know ?!"
"Because you're too young to understand everything. Isabella tried to take your life, you know that. But she didn't mean it, she wouldn't really do that, I thought. But everything gets weird when 2015 comes. He really almost killed you, so everyone was angry with him because we all know he's an opponent. Until now he's really an opponent, son. That's why we can't tell the truth to Eerrah. Because Eerrah might know that his mother is almost a puma-- "
"That what? That his mother almost killed me? That's why I'm confused right now. How can I tell my loved one that thing? I can't add to the feelings when I love you, but you calm down Just ?! You people who hide from him are able to sleep well while we are hurting? " I hardly punched the table because of anger. "I'm your son, david. Kaerraon's son is Eerrah. And our parents treat us the same! Our blood relatives treat us the same and hurt us, who can't go crazy in that situation ?! We are expecting that you guys can help us , but you put us here! You ruin our lives and you ruin everything! " I had a hard time breathing but I manage to laugh sarcastically.
I walked out the door, but before I could get out I turned to him "What have you people done to us?"