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"Sterling?" Faith was on the verge of sleep, but this conversation had been held back for too long, it was time they finally talk about it.
Once again, they've had sex.
Raw.
She knew she was on the pill, but how could he be so careless to not have asked about it?
She found it scary because Sterling had always been a thorough man, why did he forget such an important aspect of their lives this time?
"Hmm?" His deep voice resonated.
Faith stared at him, bare-chested as he was, he met her gaze.
"This need to stop!" Faith whispered in a low but firm tone, for a moment she saw the confusion displayed on his features.
"I mean, I don't think we're being careful enough, y_you've never used protection and even though I'm on the pill, there is still a slight chance of me getting pregnant!" Faith rushed out the words in one breath.
A pause of silence followed and an awkward sensation trickled down her spine, this was not a conversation she loved to discuss with anyone, but it must be said.
She watched Sterling closely, trying to get his reaction, his features didn't betray anything but Faith grew nervous under his watch.
There was something.
She could feel it but couldn't place what it was.
She almost heaved out a relieved sigh when he broke the silence.
"You've been taking contraception pills? Since when?" His lips barely moved and once again, Faith felt that odd sensation that seemed to have cloaked the room.
She tried to brush off the feeling, maybe her time of the month was near and she was starting to feel paranoid.
"After that first time__ the last thing we both want in this situation is a baby, that w_would only complicate things"
Sterling was too vexed to listen to the rest. Every word she spoke now stabbed his chest with hot anger and If she didn't shut her mouth, he was sure that he was going to snap at her.
He clenched his fist by his side because right now he felt like strangling her pretty little neck.
How dare she!
His chest felt too heavy and he could taste the betrayal on his tongue.
It was bitter.
Sterling continued to stare at his wife, he couldn't lose his composure now.
That would damage things between them, she would probably freak out if she learned that he intentionally wanted to impregnate her.
After all these days, she was still reluctant to accept that she was now his real family?
Sterling knew that she cared enough about him even if she might not know it yet, but there seemed to be a barrier keeping her from completely committing herself to him.
A baby would have changed that.
Sterling clenched his jaw, her stupid actions had delayed what he wanted for them.
She would never realize the mistake she made today by letting him become aware.
"If you want me to start using a condom, then the answer is no! Since you're on the pill, then what risk are you talking about? You should be safe enough to not become pregnant!" He spoke in a disregarding tone.
Faith interpreted the flicker in Sterling's gaze as relief, of course, he must be eased to know that even while he'd forgotten such a huge thing, she had remembered.
Faith felt a tightness in her throat as swallowed hard, was it wrong that she felt slightly disappointed?
She wasn't prepared for a baby at this stage in her life, so why did she feel disheartened that he felt the same way?
Faith closed her eyes briefly and snuggled back beneath the covers, he was right, even her specialist had told her, that only about two percent of women would get pregnant when on the pill. The chances were very slight and near impossible.
She shouldn't have even brought this topic up in the first place, it only succeeded in giving the space between them an awkward atmosphere.
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Sterling knew the moment she fell asleep. Her breath thickened and the rise and fall of her chest were more rhythmical.
He allowed his gaze to roam her sleep-tousled hair, her parted lips. The sheets had slipped so that her breasts were exposed.
Her nipples were still flushed from their lovemaking earlier, Sterling felt his manhood stir and muttered a "Not now"
He had a more important thing to do than satisfy his basal instinct.
He was going to do an evil thing.
Once again, he was going to perform a dirty trick, but then again, he'd never played fair when it was about her.
Sterling pushed aside the bed covers and chuckled when she murmured some incoherent words under her breath before returning to sleep.
He slightly walked towards the drawers and cabinets where most of her things were kept.
It had to be somewhere around.
After some minutes of searching, Sterling found what he was looking for.
He slowly retrieved the small packet and stared at it.
There were the safety pills she had taken!
Sure enough, a tablet was missing.
His heart tightened with anger each time he thought about it.
From his calculation since the time she took the first pill, she was soon to be due for the next.
But what would happen if the contents of her drug were to change?
She wouldn't even know about it.
Sterling returned to the bed with the wicked plan in mind.
As he pushed aside the covers to lay down, he placed a soft kiss on his wife's head. First, he silently apologized for what he was going to do.
And then he whispered.
"Next time ensure to take your pills on time."