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"Yes, you heard me, I want a divorce!"
Faith heard his sharp intake of breath, the bedside lamp allowed her to see the hardening of his jaw, but her decision was made.
Even though she wasn't sure if she was going to be alright without him, this was probably the better option for the both of them.
"You are not allowed to casually say things like that, whatever that is wrong, we can both calmly sort it out?"
"Did you just say sort it out?" Faith flamed, getting off the bed to glare at him.
"Where exactly do we start to sort it out? Perhaps all the lies you told me or the things you did behind my back, how dare you! You played me like a complete idiot!" Faith breathed angrily extending a hand to block him when he tried to step forward.
"You turned my life upside down as you pleased, Who exactly do you think you are, Mr. Sterling Hunter!" She yelled.
Sterling inhaled deeply, it was as he suspected. She found out something, he didn't know how much but considering she left the house, it had to be enough, he also didn't know how she found out but that was an issue he could resolve later.
She was asking for the impossible, he would never divorce her! She probably said those words in a fit of rage and would still calm down.
"Believe me when I say I never wished to hurt you, I only wanted to__"
"Which of it wasn't intentional?! When you had those photos published, god! I still can't believe you did that! You even comforted ms during that period, how could you be so cruel? Like when you got my brother arrested and made me lose my job! You know what? fuck you, Mr. Hunter! fuck you!"
Faith furiously tried to struggle away when he cupped her face, his grasp was too strong, forcing her to glare up at him.
"I only did what I had to do at that moment! I wanted you and couldn't allow anyone else have you! But believe me, I didn't want you or your family hurt!" He spoke each word slowly as though she was supposed to understand.
She didn't know if it was his admittance or the fact that he didn't seem the slightest bit regretful of his deeds that sent the shiver across her spine.
"But you already hurt me, and I can't forgive you! I want you to leave!" She voiced coldly, refusing to acknowledge the slash of pain that passed across his eyes.
"I'm not leaving, not without you! I know I did some despicable things, even though you can't forgive me yet, can you please return home? Give me a chance to earn your forgiveness, I can't lose you, I love you!" He jerked her shoulders towards him, it was Faith's turn to drag in a sharp breath.
Ever so slowly, she met his gaze, a knot tightened in her throat. She wanted to believe him so badly, it was as though her dreams came true, but at the wrong time.
Instant doubts kicked in, why had he never said these words before now?
"Yes, Faith I love you! It was also part of the reason I traveled without you, I wanted you to miss me, to realize your feelings for me, and would give us a real chance!"
He barely finished when Faith shook her head, breaking free from his grip.
"No, you don't love me! You're saying this only to control me! This is another lie to make me forgive you, right? how much of a fool do you want me to be?!"
Sterling didn't know if he was hurt or furious that she didn't believe him. Why did he think he would lie over such an important thing? Did she not know him at all after such a long time?
"You don't love me, Sterling!" She repeated and he snapped.
"Don't tell me how I feel about you!" The growl escaped his mouth.
He once again completed the distance she had created between them.
"Why are you so upset? That I wanted you for so long and had to get unwanted obstacles out of the way to claim you as mine? Yes, I had those photos publicized because I wanted to get rid of that fucking dick head, I don't regret it! It also isn't my fault that he fell for it in the first place! I also didn't want you working for anyone but me, because I'm fucking selfish and wanted all of your time to myself, I will do whatever it takes to keep you, you are mine!"
Suddenly, he smashed his lips against hers, her surprised gasp provided the entrance he sought.
He devoured her with his mouth, swallowing all of her angry words.
Faith closed her eyes briefly, oh how she missed these sensations!
Her whole body craved for this but she knew what he was doing.
Trying to distract her from the situation as always.
She made a just with her hand and pushed against his chest, he wouldn't budge.
He only kissed her harder and deeper as though he was dying of starvation.
"I'm never going to divorce you. Never." He emphasized.
"You are mine! Don't you get it? You have to be with me!" He hissed, his eyes piercing hers looking to be on the border of insanity.
Faith realized it. He wasn't meant to be controlling, perhaps he did love her, but he loved her too much.
He was obsessed with her.
It was an unhealthy emotion that would get them both hurt. As well as others.
She swallowed back a cry when he pulled her harshly to him until there was no space between them and she could feel his radiant heat.
His face was buried into the crook of her neck.
"You are mine! You will return with me, alright?"
Faith shook her head, she wouldn't return, not like this, nothing was settled between them.
"No, I won't!" She spoke as firmly as she could muster while trying to catch her breath.
He pulled back slightly as she could see the flare of his nostrils, his once gentle gaze was now clouded with irritation.
"Yes, You will!" He spoke sharply in that cold dismissive tone.
She could feel the tension radiating from him, he would snap any moment.
The aura he gave off was dark, she was intimidated but refused to back down.
"Or else what? Are you going to threaten me now?!" She snarled.
"What will you do? Get my brother arrested? Or maybe seize my job? What's something new that you're going to do?" She challenged
Sterling's eyes briefly closed, the nerve in his jaw ticking as he continued to stare at her. She should have known better than testing him like that. Even he didn't know what he was capable of.
Inhaling deeply as though to calm himself, he met her stare with a grave look.
"Don't do this. Don't force me to do those things I don't want to do."
A plea or a threat?
He was shamelessly admitting that he could hurt her to stop her.
He was crazy!
And this had to stop.
"I'm forcing you? I'm only asking you to let me go! Why don't I have a choice in the matter? We signed that agreement that I could leave whenever I want! "
Faith shivered at the rawness of his gaze.
"Why don't you understand that I can't lose you?! I can't live without you! Why are you making this more difficult than it has to be?!"
She was the one being unreasonable?
She just couldn't push everything aside as though it hadn't happened, he'd gone too far to hurt her brother to render her helpless and gain her trust.
She had made several mistakes and couldn't afford to make one more.
It didn't matter that she loved him.
Sometimes, love just wasn't enough as people tend to think.
He might love her as well, but she was feeling suffocated.
She needed to breathe. And she was about to make the rash decision, the voice in her head wanted her to think, but she didn't want to think anymore!
"Are you going to make me stay with you knowing how much I hate you?"
A hard knot coiled in her throat when she saw the pain flicker across his eyes once again, but hadn't he hurt her as well without caring about what she would feel?
"I also found out something else when you were away, how could you replace my contraceptive pills? Why do you have to do everything behind my back! Don't you have a limit you could extend?
Once again, he didn't deny it. His eyes only widened slightly and were filled with questions.
"How did you find out? Are you___"
Faith held her breath when he paused, his eyes searched hers and she knew what he was looking for.
He was hopeful that she was pregnant.
Well, she was!
A bitter smile graced her features.
"Pregnant? Not anymore!" She spoke as indifferently as she could muster.
It felt as though the air shifted, the temperature turning several degrees colder.
"What do you mean__by not anymore?" It seemed as though he struggled to get the words out. She had never seen him so distressed as he looked right now.
It made her conscience twinge but was not enough for her to avert the lie.
"I obviously didn't want to be pregnant but you didn't care about that! It was only three weeks old, I had it aborted yesterday itself!"
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