Sophie
As usual, Logan picked me up from the office on time and we headed towards our son's school to pick him up. It's so weird... To think that just months ago I was still living in California, still heartbroken with thoughts of Logan being unfaithful.
I never would have thought that Amber's jealousy and my bad decision of running away would separate us for so many years.
I love him so much, and I don't think I ever stopped loving him. I wonder at times what would have happened had I not run away. Would we still be together? Would we still be this madly in love, or would we have been fed up with each other? I don't think I can ever stop loving him, or get fed up with him.
He's so spontaneous, he makes me laugh so much, and there is not a dull moment in our relationship when he doesn't pay attention to the small details or is trying to make me feel comfortable around him.
I sat on the passenger's seat, with my elbow resting on the armrest and my chin resting on my hand. I couldn't help but smile as I stared at him. I know he senses me staring. He looks over his side smiling and biting his bottom lip. His left hand holds steady onto the steering wheel, and his right hand slowly caresses my chin. "What's wrong?" he asks in a low husky voice.
"Nothing. Why would there be anything wrong?" I reply making him chuckle. "I know that look, Soph. I've known you since fifth grade, remember? Can't hide shit from me. Now tell me, what's that pretty mind of yours wondering about?" He grabs my hand, interlacing our fingers together, kissing the back of my hand and placing our joint hands on the arm rest.
I chuckle, rolling my eyes and nodding my head. "Do you ever wonder if we would still be together if I hadn't,"
"Left?" He finishes off for me, making me feel a pang on my heart. He smiles, taking a big sigh and looking out the window for a second as he takes a turn onto the parking lot to the school.
"Honestly? Yes... I wonder all the time. I wondered while still in school, how different things would be roaming the halls with you by my side, having you cheer for me on the side bleachers as I played my heart out in the field, I thought of you each time I hit a mile stone, each time I achieved something... I imagined your face... cheering for me, telling me you were proud of me. But, I had to go at it all alone." He says looking away.
My heart ached at his words. I was selfish to have just left like that. To leave with his baby and not tell him about it.
"And though things were hard without you... I think... it was for the best. I would have loved for you to have been there, cheering me on, and both of us seeing how we achieved our goals. But I wondered if maybe this is how things had to be so we can both appreciate the life we have now. Sophie, I love you, I have always loved you. I tried replacing you, and I tried forgetting about you... but I can't. And I don't think I can ever love anyone else."
His eyes stared at me lovingly, and I knew he was being sincere. "But what if you grew tired of me? What if..."
"Sophie, I don't know if you haven't noticed, but I've been in love with you since fifth grade....FIFTH GRADE, Soph. If I haven't stopped loving you up to now, and haven't grown tired of you yet, I don't think it will happen.... Ever. I know what Amber made you believe hurt you... but believe me when I say that I am not like any other guy. I love you." He says pulling me in for a kiss.
Our tongues dance in perfect sync, making me close my eyes and indulge in his sweet taste. "You're stuck with me for the rest of your life baby. Deal with it." He says making me giggle. "I don't mind that at all." I reply kissing him again.
"You're the best out of this life, Soph. The best in life." He bites my bottom lip softly and kisses my lips. His words give me butterflies, making me smile.
He quickly opens the door and places his sunglasses on, goes over my door and opens it for me.
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(A few days later)
"Logan, are you sure you can handle it? I mean, you have to meet Michael tomorrow, how will you handle traveling with Nate? I can arrange to take him with me, I don't mind."
"Babe, relax. Sam and Steven are going with me. We'll look after him. Besides... It'll do us both good. We'll take it like a boy's road trip. We're just going to Nashville Soph, we'll be fine. We have a whole trip planned out to have him have a good time. Now," he says as he helps me close my luggage and places it on the floor.
I was very nervous. It's the first time in three years since I've traveled far without Nate. It's Friday afternoon and I'm getting ready to leave for New York. It's snowing lightly, and I hope nothing wrong happens. I would hate to get stranded at the airport or in New York.
"Ok, but promise me you'll call if anything goes wrong. I'll have my phone with me at all times."
"Sophie?"
"Yeah?"
"Believe me when I say that I am more nervous about you going alone out there than me going to see Michael with the boys. I need you to be extra careful and don't stay up too late. Make sure you don't walk by yourself at night too long, New York is pretty and all, but it's not always safe. Please, babe... Be safe out there, ok?" he says as he pulls me softly and wraps his hands around my waist.
I smile, placing my hands on his chest, and kissing him lightly on his lips. "I'll be very careful, I promise. And I'm not going alone either babe. Lexie is going with me, remember? Ethan and Johnny will be out there as well, so if anything we'll probably go out for a few drinks."
His eyes go wide in shock, furrowing his eyebrows and clenching his jaw.
"WHAT? What do you mean Elliot is going?" I chuckle at his words? I know he's still jealous of Ethan, but he has nothing to worry about. "Logan, relax. Ethan is dating Gina, your ex, remember? He and I are just friends, I'm all yours baby." I whisper the last phrase in his ear, making his hands grip my waist tightly as he pulls me flush against him.
He grunts, kissing my neck and taking a long sigh. "You drive me crazy woman. I love you. Please stay safe, I trust you, ok?" he says kissing my lips.
"And I trust you," I say kissing him one last time. I turn and finish packing, walk over to my dresser and open the top drawer, grabbing my favorite blacktop out. A little black velvet box drops, making my eyes wide. He quickly picks it up, placing it in his pocket.
"What was that?" I ask curiously. His face turns red and rubs the back of his neck nervously. "I.., umm... It's... Fuck, ok, fine." he says handing it to me. I open it to reveal a beautiful ring with a heart-shaped diamond. My eyes widen in shock at how beautiful it is.
"It's for you. I bought it at the auction. I wanted to give it to you for Christmas, but," he says taking the ring out and placing it in my ring finger. "I guess, since you already saw it, you can have it now."
"Logan? This... It's beautiful. Logan, you have to stop spending on me. I appreciate it, but, I don't want to seem like a good digger to you." he looks at me baffled by my words.
"Soph? I already know you're not a gold digger. But... This is what I want to give you."
"Fine, but give it to me until Christmas day like you said." I was ready to take it off, but he stops me, grabbing my hand and wrapping his other hand around my waist.
"No, no, keep it. This way Kyle will think we're already engaged," he says making me chuckle. "Fine. But you better not get me another present for Christmas, got it?"
He says, raising his hands in surrender. "I can't make promises I can't keep, but I'll try, ok?" we both chuckled, making me wrap my arms around his waist. How did I let myself waste seven years away from him? He is far too perfect.
I'm surely going to miss my boys while I'm away this weekend.
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