Melody
"Not when I know that you're still in love with him."
My head whipped in Dorian's direction. I couldn't believe that he just said that.
Like, did he just say that I'm still in love with Derek?
How on earth did he come up with that thought? How could he say that I'm still in love with Derek?
I was dumbfounded. I stared at Dorian in awe. What has come over him?
I wanted so badly to believe that he was joking But the look on his face said otherwise. He was serious.
"Dorian?" I called him again to be sure that someone wasn't impersonating him.
"Hm?" His eyes were bitter and despondent.
"What did you just say?" I asked again for clarity.
"You heard me, Mel," he paused and looked away. "We returned from Mallory ten days ago but it's obvious that you left a part of you there."
Oh, goddess.
How on earth have I acted to make Dorian feel this way?
I mean, he wouldn't say this if he didn't notice something, would he?
Did I probably say something in my sleep?
No. I shook my head.
Even in my sleep, everything I feel for Derek is pure hate. I would say nothing sweet to him even in my dreams.
"I don't know what you're talking about."
I let out my heart. I really do not understand anything. Why is he talking about Mallory now?
"I've seen it in you. You haven't been yourself since we returned from Mallory. Something has changed."
Oh, goddess.
Shouldn't that be my line?
Shouldn't I be the one saying he's changed?
After we returned from Mallory his possessive and protective self emerged. I understood because anyone would be protective after everything we went through in Mallory. The rogue King's attack made it worse and Dorian never let us out of his sight.
Now, it's Derek.
What I don't understand is why he thinks I have feelings for Derek.
"Derek is nothing to me," I cupped his cheeks and made sure he was looking into my eyes to see the emotions swimming in there.
He paused and tried to look away, but I didn't let him. I made sure that our eyes stared at each other.
"I have no feelings for Derek, okay?" I kissed his lips. "You're the one I love. Only you."
He sighed.
Dorian's response to my profession was a sigh. Then he looked into my eyes for a while before retracting his gaze.
He stared down and took my hands.
"I'm sorry, Mel," he muttered in a low, almost inaudible tone. "I shouldn't have said that to you but....."
"But?" I probed.
He shook his head and sighed again.
"I love you, Mel and I don't want to lose you."
I know this for a fact because I also do not want to lose him. I'll be doomed forever if I let go of such a gem.
I mean, Dorian has stood by me even in the most difficult times. He was my refuge and strength. He has raised my kids as his own and has been nothing but good to my entire family. Even when my father was a dick, he did nothing but respect him.
The feelings my heart holds for Dorian are unexplainable but I know for a fact that he's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.
"You won't lose me, Dorian, not ever."
He hugged me and squeezed my shoulder reassuringly. His hold was protective but his insecurities were gone.
I could see my Dorian once again. However, his demeanour told me that he had something to say but his tongue couldn't.
"Is something on your mind?"
I know there is and that is the reason behind his outburst. My daredevil Alpha needs something to blame for what is bothering him and chooses to bring it out on himself.
I wonder what it is and why it got him so bothered.
Dorian looked like he would speak, but he uttered no words. I guess he needs some time. So, I asked no further questions and brought him to my arms.
I hugged him and kissed his forehead like he does to me. Even though he is the Alpha everyone feared and respected. In here, he is my man and I must cater for him.
"It's alright. You can tell me when you think it is right."
Dorian's nod made me smile. I felt contented. At least I'm sure that he didn't mean whatever he said earlier.
My heart felt light and I couldn't help hugging him tighter and before I realized that I was playing with fire, I found myself lying on the bed with Dorian on top and then, boom. The light went out and my clothes went off.
I was exhausted by the time Dorian was done. I could barely lift a finger. He cleaned me up and that was the last I remember.
I opened my eyes the next morning as I felt a kiss on my cheek. I smiled as his warm lips gave me the needed amount of warmth for the day.
"Dorian," I called in satisfaction.
I was happy, no doubt.
"Happy morning, dearest."
His face was full of smiles and bliss. It felt as if the sulking man from yesterday was completely gone. Now I have my Dorian back.
"Happy morning," I smiled and sat up. "You look...."
I was about to comment on his happy face but he cuts in.
"I'm sorry, I took my frustration out on you."
What is he apologizing for? The sex which I enjoyed so much or for taking Derek's name.
"Hm, really. Are you really sorry?" I asked teasingly.
"I'm sorry, Mel. I just couldn't help myself after seeing Estrella once again."
Oh. So this is about Estrella.
"Why? What happened?" I asked carefully.
"Seeing her stored up memories in my heart and I'm reminded of my parents."
I know that his parents were dead so why has Estrella's arrival brought up their memories?
"Your parents?" I asked again.
"I'll tell you a secret, Mel." Dorian sat beside me on the bed and took my hand. "My father told me on his deathbed."
Oh my.
The look on Dorian's face makes me want to freak out.
This secret can't be good.
"Estrella is not my sister."
My eyes widened as soon as he said that.
What the hell!
"Claire is my only sister."
Now I'm confused.
How is it possible that Estrella isn't his sister but has the same last name as his?
"That's because she is my mother's daughter but not my father's."
"How?"
That was all I could mutter.
How on earth is that possible? Is he trying to say that his mother had an affair? Is that probably the reason why she stays far away from her pack?
Dorian sighed again and stood up.
"It all started in Mallory."