When people start receiving so much attention from certain someone, they prioritize themselves as that person's special one. And it's not their fault. After all, everyone wants affection, attention, and comfort from their closest person.
Charlotte recalls all of those days, from her wedding days till now. Edward always has given her that kind of affection. He called her His wife, his possessive through the second kiss they had shared after knowing about her engagement with Brian. The way he was by her side when she was accused of Suzy's mother who abandoned Suzy...
Unintentionally, silently, with no awareness of her feelings, her feelings for Brian are significantly replaced with Edward. She is now feeling the pain, being aware of her love for him desperately and hopelessly.
She is in love with Edward more than she is aware of. And she is heartbroken as well after knowing she is nothing but a responsibility.
" Charlotte! CHARLOTTE!"
A female voice drummed in her eardrums. She startled snapped out of the thought and gave her attention to her.
Maria who is holding Juice, makes a pouty face before sitting next to her. " I felt excited when James told me you will join us. But now you are not even talking to me. Is everything okay with you?"
Charlotte nodded as she didn't find any suitable word to answer. Everything is going well. With honesty and no fakeness.
" You look so dim today. Let's hang out together. I have told James, today we will chill only. Let's go to the bar." Maria smirks, dragging her up. A heavy sigh rolls out as she knows in front of Maria, she can't win.
" Today I will pay. Next time you will. OK?"
" Alright!"
It won't be a bad idea if she gets drunk and forgets everything. She thought hopping in the car. However, she has always been a light drinker, so she doesn't have to drink more.
After sitting in the passenger seat, she turns her phone on. Ten messages and five calls from Edward. She sighs sliding the phone in her purse. She doesn't want to face or talk to him. Or her overwhelmed emotions will do something dangerous.
" Something happened between you two. Right?"
Maria asked judging by her facial expression. After knowing Charlotte, she finds Charlotte to be sweet and active. But today, she looks gloomy and inattentive to work. So, the only person who could mess with her soft heart is her husband. After all, Charlotte and Edward have great chemistry together.
" No. It's fine. We are fine.." She replies flatly, forcing a smile. Maria looks forward, knowing she is lying.
" Edward is a typical family man. Do you know what I mean? He will prioritize his responsibility first. He wants to keep his responsibility and love life separate so that no misunderstanding works between them. So, try to understand him.."
That's why it is said that never comment on something of which you do not know the matter.
Maria concluded her thoughts that Edward might have ignored her or somehow made her upset by working overtime. After all, Maria thinks they are a lovely couple, and judging by Edward's actions, he is quite in love with her.
However, Maria reminded Charlotte accidentally, Charlotte has always been a responsibility which he didn't want to mix with his love life..
Charlotte sighs slowly, chucking softly. Maria looks at her with a frown.." I am telling the truth. He just can't avoid his responsibility. But he is a man of a Golden heart. Once he loves you, he will never let you go. Girl. You are lucky "
Maria winks at her with a teasing tone, however, Charlotte knows how much she has failed to comfort her.
" I understand. Let's drink until we vomit!" Charlotte chuckles louder now. She just enjoyed the pain inside. Thankfully, Maria cleared it. She is indeed a responsibility with no right to be his love.
" Maria!"
" Hmm?"
" Do you know about the girl who Edward loved before?"
Charlotte expected a quick answer yes or no. But she turns to Maria who hesitates to speak as if she is trying to collect the right words.
" You know her.." Charlotte asks in her usual tone.
" Well. We worked together for a few months. She was a student back then. Quite a good girl. I guess." Maria speaks awkwardly. She was supposed not to talk about the girl as Edward hated it. He only wanted her for himself even after her death, he didn't let anyone talk about her.
" I see. She must be beautiful."
" She is dead. Charlotte. Are you upset about it?" Maria asks quickly. There is no reason for her to be upset since that girl is dead already. Also, Edward has moved on. Or he wouldn't have married Charlotte.
" He must have liked her so much. Can you talk about her a little more? How she looked like and how -"
" She looked like you.."
Charlotte is startled and looks surprised by her words.." Pardon?"
"Her and you have lots of things familiar... Although you two are different people. But she was quite similar to you. Most importantly, your design, your hairstyle, your talking style."
" I am not in the mood for joking. My design is unique. Even Edward said that design is unique. No one -"
She couldn't able to speak. Another thought strikes her mind, What if Edward said because of that girl..
" Your design is indeed unique. But the pattern you use is the same as hers. You follow the traditions and modern stitches with shiny thread. She did the same. Have you seen the design called, " On Moon" By Luna Snow?"
Now Charlotte stops hearing, the question immediately popped into her heart, " Did you just say On Moon?"
Her voice trembles with fear. Maria nods observing her face..." Anything wrong with this?"
" Is this...No.. I mean there are lots of people who use the same name. Mine was on a handkerchief. It's no-"
" Did you just say Handkerchief?" Maria stopped her..
" Well. I had a handkerchief that I designed for the annual design campaign at our University. And I called it, On Moon as well. Because I drew a blue phoenix over the red crescent moon. I remember everyone laughed at my design but my friend. However, I lost it on that very day. It looked weird maybe. "
She laughed reminding those days when she felt like she better give up. Everyone was discouraging her, wanting to kick her out. She felt she was pathetic and had no talent. But she didn't give up. She tried harder and harder. All the things she gained were thanks to her hard work.
" Was it a golden fabric of Silk? With a tulip at one of its corners?" Maria asked braking the car in front of the bar.
" You supposed not to know about it. Don't tell you you were.. no You are my senior. " Charlotte sounded surprised.
" You should search for it online. Charlotte. Seems like there has something big has happened to us. Even with Edward.."
The words of Maria are seriously spoken out.. Her eyebrows knit with confusion. She searched it online. After all, she had searched the handkerchief on her campus. This Handkerchief was her first attempt to follow Edward and his Mom's design.