As speculated, Ace swallows his enormous pride(I'm sorry Ace) and comes over to Asher's house. We are both seated in the living room and he has been staring at me for close to fifteen minutes now without uttering a word.
I wonder what is running on his mind. Judging from his facial expression, it cannot be something nice. He looks pissed off.
"I thought you said you were going to move in with Kyle"
"Ace I already answered that question."
"I want to hear you say it again"
"Change of plans. Alora suggested something better"
"Who is Alora?" He asks with a creased brow.
"My all time best friend. She is Asher's little sister and we all live here together"
"Let me get this straight. You live here with Asher and his younger sister who happens to be your best friend"
"Exactly, so you have nothing to be worried about. I'm in good hands" I assure him and he nods in silence.
"It's not like anything I say will actually make a difference, it's cool. At least it's not just you and Asher"
"Ugh. Kyle told me what you did, thank you very much" I change the topic.
"You don't have to thank me for anything Luna. My mother caused all that drama and it was only right of me to make her dissolve it, besides, I couldn't let your father send you out of the country. Hell will have to break loose before I let that happen"
I swear I don't know what I did to deserve such caring men in my life. I accept that the fact that they don't see eye to eye exhausts me but the love and care they show me overcomes all.
Asher will stop at nothing to make that no one bullies me or tries to make me feel the slightest bit of discomfort.
Ace on the other hand will stop at nothing to keep me by his side and Kyle will do everything in his power to make sure that I'm happy.
I am so blessed to have them in my life.
"About what happened yesterday, Ace I'm scared"
"I know honey, I know you are but I promise you that this issue has been dealt with, so you have nothing be worried about"
I don't even know why he keeps calling me "honey".
"Until when?, Sooner or later, another scandal might emanate and who knows maybe this time around it will be something that won't be so easy to dissolve. I don't want that to happen" I explain worriedly.
"What you have said is quite true, but you know how the press and social media works right?, they will always have something to say about us"
"Maybe they won't if they don't see us together, if we stop meeting each other so frequently" I suggest and he pauses for a while, giving me an unsure look.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Ace I know that in a way, you love me..." I start to talk but he cuts me off.
"Luna I don't love you in a way, I live you entirely!" He corrects and I nod my head as I swallow dryly.
Everything I am about to say is exactly the opposite of what I feel in my heart, but I have to say it else things will get more complicated than they are already.
Deep down in my heart, I know this is the right thing to do.
"Yeah ,I know that you love me and I sincerely love you too and only God knows how much I want things to be different between us. I actually wish we could be together but you and I know that's impossible because you are already engaged to someone else"
"What exactly are you driving at Luna?" he asks eagerly and I take his hands in mine.
"I want us to stop all these frequent meetings. We can see each other about once or twice in a week and I also want you to stop calling frequently. You have a fiancé Ace, you should spend more time with her and not with me"
"But you need me Luna, you are pregnant with my child. I can't just abandon you"
"You are not abandoning me, you are just giving me less attention so you can spend more time with your fiancé, so you can prepare for your upcoming wedding"
I swear I almost choke on the last sentence that just came out from my mouth. Deep down in my heart, I don't mean any of these things I just said.
I don't want Ace to pay less attention to me, I don't want him to spend more time with Sophia, I don't want him to prepare for his wedding. On the contrary, I want him to call off the wedding and be with me instead but I know that is wrong.
Even though I very much dislike Sophia, I would never want to snatch her man from her and also I don't want this baby to be what will bring Ace and I together.
If we have to be together, I want it to be because he loves me for me, not because I am carrying his child.
"Luna please, I understand your point of view but please don't do this. Apart from the fact that I love you, I always want to be with you and I also don't want to miss out any moment of this pregnancy. Meeting you two times in a week is not enough for me and you want to make things worse by limiting our phone calls"
"Alright then, you want us to go on with this romantic saga of ours, meet everyday, talk endlessly on phone, you touch my tummy and then we keep falling deeper for each other, we actually create a strong bond within this short time. What then happens to that bond when you get married to Sophia?, what will happen to me? Of course I'm going to end up as your baby mama, or worst still, your mistress!"
"Luna..."
"No Ace, I refuse to be your side-chick. Sophia is your main girl. Everyone knows you are engaged to her, she is the one who is going to become your wife and I am going to be the baby mama. That is already too much for me to bear. I honestly do not want to include feelings in this whole issue that's why I think it's best for us to stop this now because in the end, I will be the one to suffer with a broken heart and I really do not want that to happen. So please, hear me out and let all this soap opera end" I explain with a very heavy heart, tears glittering in my eyes and with a shaky voice.
My own words stab my heart like a million daggers would do and I just feel like breaking down right now but I can't and I won't.
The truth they say is bitter, but must be spoken. There can never be a future for Ace and I.
That is some very bitter truth.
"Sweetheart" He calls as he holds my hands and kisses them. " I have heard all what you have said and I very well understand what you are trying to point out. You are right when you say that all if this won't end well, but I want to let you know that I sincerely love you with all my heart. The fact that I am engaged to someone else does not make you my side-chick or side-love. You have got my heart and I promise you that I will fix this. I can't tell you how just yet but one thing for sure is that I will fix this and when I do, you will be amazed"
"I am tempted to ask anyway"
"That's classified" He says with a sweet smile "For now, I will do as you wish. Will that be fine by you?"
NO!!
My subconscious mind screams .
"Yes" I mumble under my breath as a huge tear rolls down my right cheek.
"Come here" He engulfs me in his arms and cradles me. "I will fix this love, I promise" He kisses my hair.
I don't know how all of this is going to end.
I love Ace, but I know that I can't have him so I want to withdraw myself from him.
Asher has proven that he truly loves me and I really want to give him a chance after I have the baby. He deserves a chance.
Ace says he is going to fix this. What if he succeeds in fixing it as he claims, will I go to him? OR will I stay and give Asher a chance?
Gah!
Maybe I should just live one day at a time like Alora advised.